Been struggling in my personal odyssey of going on 10yrs of pretty severe anxiety. I believe only worsened over time due to genetics/drinking/smokingTHC. My mental health has been bad for a while wish I would’ve stopped self medicating with drugs and alcohol and tried medicine sooner. I’m presently taking 20mgs of Lexapro for two weeks now. With some propanol 10mgs twice a day (don’t think i feel effects of it) probably because im a bigger guy. Very optimistic with this ssri from what I’ve been reading in this community. Tried Zoloft for a month but made anxiety unbearable way more suicidal. Willing to give lexapro a go for the full 6months if I have to. My anxiety is bad I’ve barely leave the house now a days. Used to love go out for a small cruise around town to get out the house but these past few weeks my anxiety hasn’t let me. I have social anxiety with my own immediate family, it’s like my social battery is always on 5/10% all the time. That’s why I spend most my time alone preferably, I only hang out with others small amounts of the day. It’s awkward because I can’t hold eye contact for long time I have to look away and then reconnect eye contact while conversing. I don’t know where to look because of the rollercoaster of emotions you feel when you have anxiety. Red lights have been the worse without tints lol.
Those are all symptoms of anxiety so at least I have an explanation and a medicine for my problems. Hopefully a solution. Lord willing. First time obtaining a psychiatrist last month. Here’s to a start of getting my mind back. God my faith in him, prayers, and family keep me going. Here’s to fighting the good fight. Hands up.
P.S. any positive personal victories over anxiety would be greatly appreciated.