u/Gold_Divide_3381

So I've made two previous posts about a coworker (link, link), and I just want to give an update about something that happened today. So I'm working in my department and she comes up to me and says hi and a good night (she was done her shift and was leaving). Just like our previous interactions, I keep telling myself that this means absolutely nothing, but I can't stop thinking what if. Especially since in this case she went out of her way to talk to me because I wasn't in the direct path of where she was going. Normally I just say hi to her when we cross paths, but she's never said hi to me first before. Also, I was facing the other way at the time so it wasn't like there was some unspoken obligation for her to acknowledge me or anything like that; she made the effort to come up and talk to me.

Part of me feels like this is all in my head and that I'm getting too excited over nothing. I guess that's what happens when you've been FA all your life; your brain treats any positive interaction with the opposite sex as a potential relationship.

I feel like I've set myself up for failure because while there are technically women out there who'd be okay with a guy who is bi and has had gay sex in the past, the vast majority of women see that as an instant turn off. Also I feel like a hypocrite for seeing myself as someone who's FA when that's technically not true. It's complicated because while I am bisexual, really I think I'm only hetero-romantic, and I still dream about having a gf everyday.

Better than the Rick Prime and Evil Morty fights honestly.

It's annoying when you go to a restaurant or fast food joint and they only have soda or plain water. I like the carbonation with my meal, plain water just doesn't hit the same.

I got back from my break and my TL yelled at me that the vestibule is empty and that we need to pick up the pace. I go outside and sure enough, my coworker is filling the reserves instead of the vestibule (which was completely empty btw).

I get that you're supposed to start filling the reserves around 4:00-5:00, but that doesn't mean you only fill the reserves. You still have to check the vestibule and make sure there's enough carts, especially when we're still busy.

I made a post here a few weeks ago about catching feelings for a coworker (link). We don't have the same schedule so I didn't see her for a while, but we were both scheduled today and we ran into each other again. We started small talk and then I just said eff it and asked for her name. She smiled and gave me it and I gave her my name. Again I know this probably means nothing at all, but I can't help myself from feeling excited. Honestly I've never felt this hopeful about a potential relationship before, all I can do is hope it goes well.

Just took the AES, and a bunch of the questions were about AI and how excited we are about it. Why would we be excited about AI? First off, it's slop. My club uses AI for posters and Facebook ads, all of which look horrendous. There's no brand or design consistency at all and it makes everything look cheap. Second, it's taking people's jobs. If a company is too cheap to hire a graphic designer, then what else will they try to replace? Why would any associate be excited about a company aiming to replace as much people as possible?

I just started a new job, and already I met a girl that I just know I'm going to end up liking. We've only seen each other a couple of times so far, but every time it seems like she's into me. In my head I keep telling myself that it's not true and that she's just being nice, but I swear she's making every effort to come up and talk to me. What makes it worse is that the girl in question is shy and reserved, which is only reinforcing the idea that she's into me every time she comes and talks to me. I've tried avoiding her, but everytime she sees me she says hi first. I don't know what to do, because honestly it just feels like I'm going to shoot myself in the foot by trying to talk to her further. Maybe I'm overthinking it all, but it doesn't help that I'm already a social outcast; if I ask her out and get rejected then there's going to be lots of unnecessary drama and rumors about me that I don't need to deal with.

In vlc, I have my subtitles style the way I prefer. However, when I play a video using python-vlc, they appear with the default styling (no background, black outline). From what I've read, python-vlc is just binding to the vlc installed on the system, so would there be a way to set a system-wide default subtitle style?

So far I've tried...

• LaCroix Cherry Lime
• Polar Black Cherry
• Polar Tart Cherry Limeade
• Spindrift Cherry

...and I haven't enjoyed any of them. I thought I'd like them because I was a fan of cherry sodas before I switched to sparkling, but they all taste like cough syrup.

I just started 3 weeks ago and so far I've only been scheduled 20-30 hours per week. I have open availability so I thought they'd make me full time. Is this how they schedule all cart associates, or is this just because I'm new? When I worked at Walmart I started out as part-time, but after 90 days I was given the option to be full-time. Can I ask them to make me full-time? I also have front-end experience, maybe they could pull me for half of my shifts to help there?

I know that sounds embarrassing to say, but I need to admit it. I honestly can't believe I let myself stoop to this. I never thought I'd become the creepy perv who stares at women, but I have and I hate it. Literally anywhere I go: at work, the store, or the gym, I can't stop myself from turning my head and staring at them. I don't even try to be subtle about it anymore, I bet a lot of them can tell when I'm eyeing them up and think I'm a creep (and they're right because it is creepy).

And before anyone comments "what does this have to do with porn addiction?", it has everything to do with it. My favorite porn content has always been related to ass: doggystyle, facesitting, ass worship, etc. I have no doubt at all that my addiction is causing this, and I think I really need to stop before things get out of hand. If I'm to the point where I'm staring in public, how long will it take before I stoop even lower and start taking creepshots? Hopefully I never have to answer that.

For the record I'm not s****dal or anything, but I just really have no motivation to put in any effort at all anymore. I feel like just running away and rotting under a bridge somewhere. I know what some people are already going to say, that I need to get off the computer and touch grass, but I do. I go outside often and I have an outdoors job, but if anything that makes me even more depressed. My job is physically demanding and it's public facing so I end up seeing lots of normal people, and most of them either have friends and/or a partner. The whole time I'm working I ruminate about how I'm working hard yet will never to get to have what they have. I know comparison is the thief of joy and all, but it's hard not to compare when it's literally all right there in front of me.

I can't even relax at the end of the day when I get home, because then I realize that I'm just rotting in front of my computer instead of living life (that's assuming I even get to relax btw and not have to deal with my drunk piece of shit parents). I just feel like I'm at a dead-end. Shit life, shit parents, no friends, no partners, and no prospects of getting a good job and moving out. I guess that last one is my fault though since I didn't study hard in school, but then I remember that there's tons of regular people who also didn't try hard in school yet have a decent life because they have a partner (dual-incomes make things much more flexible financially).

The worst part about everything I said though is that I know it's never going to change. I wrote this post just to vent really, and deep down I know I'm not actually going to doing anything like run away. I'm going to go to sleep tonight, and then go to work tomorrow; and I'll keep doing that probably for the rest of my life, no matter how bitter I am about it.