u/Hemlock_Deci

In summary I love the game and the editor is really cool for what it is but I have a bunch of questions

1: I can't place vinyls on the windows???

2: Do I have to physically invert the decals on the top of the car? Like so far I've been doing that and used a stripe in the middle as a guideline

3: Coloring aftermarket decals. So far I just used the masking options with a shape underneath, but it gets tricky if I want to place two of these next to each other because it ends up cutting the other

4: Just give me any tips and tricks, I'm having a love hate relationship with this editor, it's so weird (but good nonetheless)

Literally anything as long as it's not actively harmful and it's actively stopping me from opening this godforsaken app

Yes I'm talking about the one that dressed as a lobster.

I know that Peta is Peta, and that this woman chose to protest by getting naked and all that but seeing so many raunchy comments about her feels... disgusting? I'm all for hating on Peta and mocking them because of what they do but yeah you probably get this by now

I know, post is random af but wanted to mention this stuff. Seen it pretty much every time a woman protests naked for whatever reason

It's not a strong smell, but I can notice it nonetheless. Not to mention they're evacuating some places like, 18 miles away. Y'know, because there's fires everywhere. The whole country's burning and y'know usually I'm not scared or worried but these fires seem rather dangerously close to my place 😭

Ok so long story short when I was a depressed lil kid at 16, I met my first therapist and this woman suuuucked. At first it was nice, things were going smoothly, but with time things got worse. You know when they tell you to NOT befriend or god forbid, sleep with your therapists? Well, it happened to me. The first thing, not the second. Our relationship ended up feeling like a casual friendship for which I paid 50€ each month. This, obviously, sucked. One day I was like "wait a sec this woman's taking smoke breaks during MY sessions what the fuck am I doing here" so I stopped going.

Now, the reason for the title is that my 25th birthday is in less than a month, and so I remember this one session where I told this woman that hey, I am suicidal, I want to kill myself. And after a tedious back and forth she hit me with this bet that if I was somehow STILL like that after I hit 30 years old then by all means I can. But no killing myself till then. I guess it was a poor attempt at reverse psychology, which not sure if it worked because I never really tried it out of fear of failing. Like it had to be by shotgun and nothing else. Either way, it stuck with me because with each year that I get closer to my thirties, the more I remember this pact.

Funnily enough the concept of death scares me. Or rather the lack of an after the death. I don't wanna think about it because I'll get legit panic attacks, but the concept of not having existed ever until this point, nor existing forever until the end of time sends chills down my spine.

Besides that I keep thinking about my life, I guess. Hasn't been good. It's crazy to see that I, the class nerd, went from straight As to failing grade several times. Covid messed me up pretty good, and right after finishing vocational school my mom was like "ok now go work". Problem is, with this school here there's 3 types, and I didn't do the superior one that actually gets you a job. Even then, I found literally nothing in years. Idk if this woman thinks we're still in the times of communism but you can't just get assigned some wageslave job by the government.

So anyway, I'm scrambling to see if I SOMEHOW can find a free spot for this year. Heard some of these could grant you half job half studies, which would be ideal. Might have to resort to online studies though, dunno. Will probably have to talk this out with one of the several people who are tending to my frail mental health. Time's not waiting though.

This is kinda the reason I wanted to write this post in the first place (if anyone's reading, thanks for sticking all the way through), can you imagine studying as an act of rebellion? It's not like I hate my mom or anything, but I see everyone else being able to get away and think for themselves and I feel like an abused dog, like I'm not allowed to do anything if it's not approved by her. I don't want my youth to pass like this, that's all I have to say.

On the bright side I have this friend who is kinda like the angel on my shoulder, in a way? She's been helping me so far, and she's really supportive. Like when I follow my mom's advice I end up hurt, and with this girl it's the opposite, and I feel it shouldn't be that way. Again, 16 year old me was onto something, because I feel I've been conditioned to think I know less than I do, than others.

I just know that so far this friend makes me feel like everything's gonna be alright. Haven't really had many people be this caring, compassionate and supportive of me. She's seems confident in me, and probably sees something that I don't.

Anyway, it's 3:21 AM as of typing this. I have been rambling half asleep for a good while, and this post is probably a mess. I do not apologize for that. I'll just be thankful for those who stop by. Feel free to drop a comment or whatever, I'll read them in the morning. Good night.

I feel like I'm wasting time by not doing stuff and I'm just here bedrotting. Worst of all is I missed a therapy sesh and I NEED to be okay by tomorrow morning because I got an exam. aaaaaaa I hate it here

Just woke up with everything in pain. Throat sore, abdomen sore (because it's like, the entire front side not just the stomach), back pain, and my ankle is in such pain that I am limping around the house. Wtf happened HOW AM I GETTING A SORE THROAT IN SUMMER??? Istg if I get a cold bro

I supposedly had a therapy session today. Thing is I have no idea if it was at 9:30 AM or around noon somehow (which was already changed once due to the heat waves). So I wake up today, twice, because my sister MUST use the default iPhone alarm and MUST have 10 of them sound at intermittent times during the entire hour, at max volume, and then "wake up" at my hour just for my therapist to tell me "uhm ackshually I can't, we should do this on Thursday"

Why the fuck didn't you tell me that??? I could've at least slept a while. Now I'm fully awake at 8:30 AM and I got nothing to do and I can't even sleep again because what's the fucking point

I don't want to show my face nor ID for this shit and nothing (besides what they're asking me for) works. Apparently Reddit also looks into posts and data from your activity and third party analytics to determine if you're an adult and somehow they figured out that I, an adult, a 24 year adult, who is 24, and an adult, is apparently, not an adult. I'm 24 years old btw. Or something like that, idfk. I don't even want to watch porn I just wanna look at stupid shit that is age restricted just because dammit

Long story short. Depression, vocational school, didn't do much because depression + covid. Wanna go back for two other years to study what I actually want. Need a scholarship and money for it. Need job to save for next year. Can't find anything because rural place + studied accounting and administration + only blue collar jobs where no one hires me. I am even certified autistic which would grant most of these companies bonuses but no one hires me even when for the simplest things. Even the fucking RED CROSS is baffled that I can't find anything.

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only downside is mental health is bad :c

I'm tired of this. Do I need to hire someone to cry on whenever I go outside or something? I genuinely had such a great day today and I had so much fun and then my dopamine ran dry and now I am tired and sad and depressed, and I can stop overthinking that hey what if no one wants to be around me.

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Shit sucks how do I make this go away?