u/IBelieveItOrNot

I’m not interested in keeping in touch. That’s not why I reached out. It just seemed like the human thing to do. 
Truthfully, we were never friends, nor have  you treated me like a real person either . Most of the time, I felt like someone you’d randomly pop in on when  you needed attention because you knew I’d give it to you. Honestly, even using your name and the word “friend” in the same sentence feels oxymoronic. You were more of a bully than anything else.

I do wish you peace. I also hope you heal from whatever makes your heart so petulant and angry you stab people who try to care.

Btw nice name change ;)

I love you and miss you.
Hope you’re doing well .
Please be well.

🫂

I’m glad I still have a safe place to write to you here. How have things been going? Honestly, they could be better. I guess they could also be worse, but they really could be better. Still, I’m here, and I’m alive.

I’m glad you got my card. It just felt like the human thing to do. I was truly sorry to hear about his passing that genuinely made me cry .

I miss you. I miss hearing from you. I don’t really know why, to be honest, because I know you never truly liked me that way or wanted anything real between us. Maybe it was just an escape, like so many things are. For a little while, the idea of going somewhere, doing something, hearing from someone, getting attention it all took the pain away a bit. It felt comforting. Like medicine. and I found someone else for a little while. But like all men, he turned up to be a piece of shit. lol , there’s a surprise.

Anyway I hope someday I won’t feel the need to write here anymore. I hope someday I won’t miss you either. I won’t need to. But for now, here we are.

Blah .

I’m sorry your father went to be with the Lord . Wishing peace and comfort to you and your family.  

I’m sorry for everything you’ve been through with your mum. I know how deeply that kind of pain cuts, and it honestly makes me emotional because I understand what it feels like to want love, safety, and care from a parent so badly. I know that feeling all too well.

I love you, and I miss you very much. I hope you’re taking care of yourself eating enough, drinking water, and being gentle with yourself where you can.

Please know that no matter the distance or silence, I still care. I love you so much. That’s so unconditional. I don’t think it’ll ever go away.

I hope you got that and are doing okay. I love you, I really do.

This world is horrible and scary .

Please come sprinkle some delusional dust.