u/I_LOVE_SOYLENT

They tell me the rep is losing and returning attention. Attention drifts, you notice, you return. That's the unit. That's what counts.

So what is the staying for?

If returning is the rep, then returning is the point. More returns, more reps. A mind that stayed on the breath would earn nothing.

I return well. I do not stay well. Half a breath, sometimes less, before I am gone. Three full breaths in a row is a rare animal. I see it maybe once a sitting, if that.

Some days it isn't even a departure. It's a flicker: breath-thought-breath-thought. So fast it stops feeling like taking turns. It feels like both at once. The exhale and the other thing, side by side, sharing the same second.

It's disorienting and makes me angry at myself, which is its own kind of noise.

So how do you train the staying. Not the noticing. Not the return. The staying itself. Is it a separate muscle, or does it just show up, uninvited, after enough reps of return.

Been benching for years with no pain but started getting on my right wrist. Weird cos I do it the right way like they say to do it on the Internet. I. The .

... Oh man I've been daydreaming again. Back to breath. Here comes another inhale. Yeah feel that coolness of the air. This time I'll concentrate real well on it. Yeah the rough, cool air again my nostril. I'm focusing so well. Wait I'm thinking about meditation, that's not breath focus. I need to focus on the breath. Back to breath. Ok yeah here comes the peak of the inhale and Im all out of toothpaste. I need to buy more toothpaste. I should put that on the shopping list. Try and remember to put that on the shopping list after I'm done with this. Here comes the exhale. I think I can feel some warm air. Maybe. It's kind of subtle. It's a lot easier when my nose is stuffy, I can focus on the sound. Can't really feel the warm air so well. Back to the exhale yeah. Feel it. Feel that exhale as best I can. This is taking a long time. Did I forget to set the alarm? Man I'm really distracted. I should make a post on reddit about what my inner dialog is saying. That would be fun and the replies would give me a nice dopamine hit that will keep hitting for hours. Dang missed the end of that exhale back to the inhale alright. Inhale time baby, I can do this. I'm so good at inhales. Ah, the old recognizable, cool air. It's so easy I can focus so well. This is going to help me so much, be more present, be more focused at work. Yeah, work, I could get so much more done if I could only focus. Man at the end of the day there I could barely focus. Maybe I should try a standing desk. When I get back tomorrow I should... [two minute tangent thinking about what I need to do at work tomorrow] Oh, shit! I've been way off. Back to breath, back to breath. Yeah inhale feel the coolness...

... Oh man I've been daydreaming again. Back to breath. Here comes another inhale. Yeah feel that coolness of the air. This time I'll concentrate real well on it. Yeah the rough, cool air again my nostril. I'm focusing so well. Wait I'm thinking about meditation, that's not breath focus. I need to focus on the breath. Back to breath. Ok yeah here comes the peak of the inhale and Im all out of toothpaste. I need to buy more toothpaste. I should put that on the shopping list. Try and remember to put that on the shopping list after I'm done with this. Here comes the exhale. I think I can feel some warm air. Maybe. It's kind of subtle. It's a lot easier when my nose is stuffy, I can focus on the sound. Can't really feel the warm air so well. Back to the exhale yeah. Feel it. Feel that exhale as best I can. This is taking a long time. Did I forget to set the alarm? Man I'm really distracted. I should make a post on reddit about what my inner dialog is saying. That would be fun and the replies would give me a nice dopamine hit that will keep hitting for hours. Dang missed the end of that exhale back to the inhale alright. Inhale time baby, I can do this. I'm so good at inhales. Ah, the old recognizable, cool air. It's so easy I can focus so well. This is going to help me so much, be more present, be more focused at work. Yeah, work, I could get so much more done if I could only focus. Man at the end of the day there I could barely focus. Maybe I should try a standing desk. When I get back tomorrow I should... [two minute tangent thinking about what I need to do at work tomorrow] Oh, shit! I've been way off. Back to breath, back to breath. Yeah inhale feel the coolness...

The live show recordings are an absolute treasure trove of extended and unreleased songs (RIP War Radio). And, in wild contrast to GYBE, the band talks with the audience. ALOT. Like to the point where an audience member will sometimes yell "PLAY A SONG". It's mostly Efrim talking. And he's pretty damn funny. So yeah if you haven't listened to them, I recommend doing so!

I'm on day 8 of 10mins a day practice. I feel like my average is 1 breath in and out before my mind jumps to something else. Occasionally two and rarely three.

I bought some 7hz salnotes zero on recommendation from an LLM but they are no bass, tried the various included ear thingies but no success. Do you have any better recommendations???

I seem to remember a child downloading an early version of TR. I'm not exactly sure when this was but I was playing Morrowind a lot around 2004, so I'm guessing around then or earlier.

I remeber it was a huge area south west of vvardenfell. And it was mostly empty space, little foliage, doors opening to bare walls that sort of thing. I wandered around a bit and was disappointed with the lack of content.

What was this? Was this early TR or a different mod?

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Get out now and never come back

Sometimes I want to tell people "you have lovely shoulders" or "nice squats, those look difficult" or "Turkish getups nice I want to do those some day". One time someone complimented my squat number and I said thanks and walked away because I'm afraid of socializing. Have you ever complimented someone at the gym? How has it gone?