u/IdrisSignal

Been having strange digestive problems, I need answers

I’ll keep this clear and to the point. I have very wildly fluctuating stool, one day it’ll be solid the next day complete liquid, I also have what looks like constipated stools mixed in aswell, normally it’s fluffy and cloudy, the water seems to be clouded by some kind of white mucus or something, I also have weird white clumps in my stool, i don’t think it’s tied to my diet, at least not directly. Because the clumps show up now matter what I eat, their about the size of a pea. So I know it’s not parasite eggs, other than than I have weird small pieces of what looks like tiny thin straight red pieces of straw in my stool. That’s the only way I can describe it. I’ve also had issues with kidney stones 2 years ago but never had them analyzed. Not sure if that ties into anything but while this has been occurring I’ve had dark, slightly heavy feeling urine. Despite me hydrating and using electrolyte mixes.
I have an embedded cyst the size of a lime, which has been evaluated by ultrasound and cat scan. Surgeon said it’s not malignant or cause of concern. One big common theme also is me having a weird slightly burning discomfort just 3 inches to my left underside of my ribs, that hasn’t really gone away. These symptoms started for me about 10 months ago. And haven’t really went away, I do have solid stools but almost just as much as I have loose, but all stools have been cloudy, weird smelling. I did have a stool test done but I took a bunch of snatch ulcer powder and oregano oil so I don’t know if that messed with the results but this was also the period where this very first started occurring. I’ve also had weird cardio problems where it feels like my heart tightens and this happens throughout the day, or like my neck and head fill with blood and it feels like someone’s squeezing my neck and head. I’m kinda scared and I know I should probably go to the doctors again, but I wanted to see if you guys might have some useful info before I go. I also have work insurance but I don’t know what I’ll do if I need an mri or something

I’ll keep this clear and to the point. I have very wildly fluctuating stool, one day it’ll be solid the next day complete liquid, I also have what looks like constipated stools mixed in aswell, normally it’s fluffy and cloudy, the water seems to be clouded by some kind of white mucus or something, I also have weird white clumps in my stool, i don’t think it’s tied to my diet, at least not directly. Because the clumps show up now matter what I eat, their about the size of a pea. So I know it’s not parasite eggs, other than than I have weird small pieces of what looks like tiny thin straight red pieces of straw in my stool. That’s the only way I can describe it. I’ve also had issues with kidney stones 2 years ago but never had them analyzed. Not sure if that ties into anything but while this has been occurring I’ve had dark, slightly heavy feeling urine. Despite me hydrating and using electrolyte mixes.
I have an embedded cyst the size of a lime, which has been evaluated by ultrasound and cat scan. Surgeon said it’s not malignant or cause of concern. One big common theme also is me having a weird slightly burning discomfort just 3 inches to my left underside of my ribs, that hasn’t really gone away. These symptoms started for me about 10 months ago. And haven’t really went away, I do have solid stools but almost just as much as I have loose, but all stools have been cloudy, weird smelling. I did have a stool test done but I took a bunch of snatch ulcer powder and oregano oil so I don’t know if that messed with the results but this was also the period where this very first started occurring. I’ve also had weird cardio problems where it feels like my heart tightens and this happens throughout the day, or like my neck and head fill with blood and it feels like someone’s squeezing my neck and head. I’m kinda scared and I know I should probably go to the doctors again, but I wanted to see if you guys might have some useful info before I go. I also have work insurance but I don’t know what I’ll do if I need an mri or something

So basically, I can operate within my means and my goals but I’m at the mercy of my environment and time. Which is ok but that means that sometimes I’m influenced both by things out of my perception, and within my perception simultaneously. The good thing is I have some level of control but that also means that I have to become more aware of nuances and details sometimes. Even learning roots of objective truths in side a certain subject. And this is often applied to my goals aswell, which in some cases has underlying connected similarities with other subjects or concepts. But when my feet touch the grass, I think hmmm this is a bit strange. But I remember when I could run really fast on grass, kinda like a horse. But this is interchangeable with anything such as a Tyrannosaurus rex, Which believe it or not, is a giant animal that didn’t actually consider the fact that it was scary, but more than anything it knew it was free, probably too free. Which is kinda the core idea behind why I would be a really good fit to try to ride one. And I was thinking about that today.

I’ve met a few people at hotels. One was an old man with a curling mustache. He was carrying bags and in western wear, he was carrying an unlit cigar aswell, which was bold of him but I figured he knew no one would question him. I’ll call him the warlock. Then I’ve done cheers with a group of Chinese American college students who were around my age. One dove on the bed to watch me setup a floor fan to dry their air conditioner which had leaked, which I could tell he was at that wonderous and drunkingly silly stage. they asked me to start the cheers and and take a shot with them and I said “to a wet carpet” which they loved. But I wish I would’ve said “to a dry” floor instead of a wet one. Hmmm you could call that one a wet whiskey wonder night. Good night everyone.

Season 2 ends with Joe Goldberg and Love Quinn arriving at their suburban home with their newborn child. The ending remains emotionally complete. Joe realizes Love truly understands him in a way nobody else ever has, while Love fully accepts the darkness inside him without fear or illusion. Their relationship becomes the emotional center of the series moving forward.

Season 3 opens with growing pressure surrounding unresolved disappearances tied to both Joe and Love. Media attention increases and investigators begin connecting patterns across multiple states. Realizing their child will never be safe around the chaos following them, they leave him with Love’s mother before disappearing entirely.

The series evolves into a psychological fugitive thriller following Joe and Love across cities and countries as they construct new identities, infiltrate elite social circles, manipulate people for survival, and slowly transform into a deeply synchronized criminal partnership. Each season introduces new environments filled with wealth, underground networks, private circles, and dangerous opportunities.

Joe changes dramatically throughout this journey. Instead of remaining trapped in repetitive emotional cycles, he becomes calmer, sharper, and frighteningly strategic. He learns how to predict investigative behavior, construct layered false identities, manipulate narratives, and stay multiple steps ahead of the people hunting him. For the first time in his life, genuine emotional attachment stabilizes him psychologically. Love becomes the one person capable of grounding him while simultaneously making him more dangerous than ever.

Love grows into Joe’s equal rather than becoming another casualty of his obsessions. She embraces their reality much earlier than Joe does, creating constant tension between Joe’s need for control and Love’s comfort with chaos. Their relationship becomes loyal, obsessive, destructive, romantic, and authentic all at once. The audience watches them genuinely fall deeper in love while the outside world increasingly sees them as monsters.

Midway through Season 3, a highly intelligent investigator is introduced and slowly becomes the defining antagonist of the series. Unlike previous threats, he studies Joe obsessively over multiple years and eventually realizes the crimes involve two coordinated individuals operating together. From that point forward, the show transforms into long term psychological warfare filled with planted evidence, surveillance traps, manipulated witnesses, predictive strategies, and calculated chess moves between hunter and hunted.

As the seasons progress, Joe begins confronting uncomfortable truths about himself. He realizes his endless pursuit of fantasy relationships was always rooted in emotional emptiness and idealization. Through Love, he finally experiences genuine connection and mutual understanding. This creates the tragic contradiction at the center of the story. Joe becomes emotionally healthier while simultaneously becoming morally worse. The more complete he feels internally, the more ruthless he becomes in protecting the life they built together.

The final season begins after Joe and Love have spent years successfully operating overseas under entirely new identities. They now possess wealth, influence, connections, and a carefully engineered life that finally feels untouchable. For the first time in the series, Joe genuinely stops looking for anyone else. His obsession fully transforms into devotion toward Love and the empire they created together.

The collapse begins when the investigator intentionally allows a smaller criminal organization connected to Joe and Love to rise unchecked, fully aware the couple will eventually attempt to absorb it for strategic advantage. What appears to be a routine expansion slowly reveals itself as an enormous trap designed over multiple years. Every move Joe makes begins benefiting the investigator without him realizing it. Financial routes become traceable. Safe houses disappear. Trusted allies turn into monitored assets. Escape paths reveal themselves to have been compromised long before Joe ever reached them.

For the first time in the series, Joe realizes he is no longer the smartest person in the room.

The final episodes become a massive international manhunt spanning multiple countries as Joe and Love desperately attempt to survive while remaining together. Airports lock down. Media erupts globally. Their identities become public. Wealthy allies abandon them out of fear while rival criminals hunt them for profit. Every episode feels larger and more desperate than the last.

Rather than emotionally collapsing, Joe and Love become more synchronized than ever under pressure. They begin operating almost instinctively as a unit, communicating through tiny gestures and years of understanding. The audience watches them evolve into the fully realized version of the partnership the series had been building toward since Season 2.

The finale unfolds after a failed extraction near a coastal border city. Surrounded by authorities, helicopters, and armed response teams, Joe and Love escape into the streets together while the investigator closes in personally for the first time. Instead of surrendering, they launch one final reckless attempt at freedom that spirals into a chaotic citywide pursuit involving stolen vehicles, collapsing safe houses, betrayals, gunfire, and desperate improvisation.

During the final confrontation, Joe finally admits that Love was the only person who ever truly made him feel whole. Love tells Joe that despite everything, their years together were real and worth it. Neither asks for redemption or pretends innocence. They fully accept themselves and each other without illusion.

The series ends with Joe and Love making one final escape attempt side by side into impossible odds as authorities close in around them. In a hail of bullets on a blood soaked coastal road, they die together in a brutal ambush, bodies riddled, hands still clutching each other, waves crashing nearby as the investigator watches from afar. No surrender. No redemption. Just two monsters who found real love and chose to burn out as legends rather than live apart

I saw that baby and his head was bald, the dog was at a picnic with the baby and the dawg went up and licked the babies head. I saw it and it didn’t think much of it. The parents just wiped the babies head and gave the dog a treat.

Never had anything strange happen in the 5 years of living here except one night. When parking my car next to a field at 12am, I heard someone yell “hey”. I live in a quiet apartment complex. It’s was dead silent, the direction was from the field. Why it was so weird is because the moonlight was strong. And as I heard the “hey” from the field I looked almost instantly and saw no one. Seemed to come from 20 ft away, but no figure. Nothing to hide behind. An empty field.

I kept seeing spiders here and there then didn’t question it till it got really bad. I just thought things were just really going downhill. The final straw was opening my closet and seeing and seeing bats in my closet for 2 seconds.

Ok so at around 2:40am I jolted awake. I started writing it down in my notes so here it goes.

starts with me having a birthday. Everyone is talking and there was a lot of people in the room. drinking and laughing They’re about to do my birthday cake But I was excited to show everyone that I had 4 pet horses. I started opening doors and cupboards trying to find them and realized I had no horses but I thought I did. I walk to go to my cake and everyone gathers as I look at the cake and see they put a little horse on it because everyone also thought I had horses (I’ve never even ridden a horse in real life or care about them that much) I whack the horse off the cake and scream THAT WONT DO, everyone goes silent and asks if my horses are ok. I said what and as I said “what”. Horton from Horton hears a who shows up, and froze time. But only I could move because I was standing under a clock, he comes up to me and asks where are your horses. I told him that I know where they are but Im too lazy to get them cold started (almost like a car) but it was summer time and you don’t cold start horses so I don’t know why I said that, anyway just as I said that it goes cinematic montage war movie style, and here’s the chilling part. We both have helmets on and he tells me to duck, as he brought out a pair of binoculars. He starts rattling off military lingo, I think he said “northwest 200 clicks out I see a truck………………………………

An ice cream truck” (there was a long pause) this is where it gets weird, for some reason Jordan Peterson rolls in on a creepy crawly with ice cream running down his belly, and he said “don’t play games with horses, you haven’t seen half the shit I’ve seen” he then said something that I won’t repeat here but it was along the lines of telling me washing my male genitalia is what good horses do and that’s why I don’t have a horse, to which I remember laughing at him because I knew that wasn’t true. And I opened the closet and low and behold there was Horton eating an ice cream. He said “how do I look” that’s when I woke up

Like I said I woke up in a cold sweat and panic. I’m wondering if there’s some sort of meaning or religious or apocalyptic meaning behind all this, after writing it down I started googling horses for sale but didn’t have any new spark for horses and also realized how expensive they were for what your actually getting which from everything I know about horses they are flea bitten mischievous 2000 pound running machines (just my opinion don’t focus on that) but I want to know what you guys think of all this.

I’ve been playing pretty consistently for 2 years, I’m a level 893. And my highest character level is Genji which is 96. My highest rank is gold 5 (im not joking)

You might be either confused or suspecting I’m just simply bad. But for some context let me explain myself. I’m not a one trick clip chasing genji, while he’s my most played and mastered character, I know how to play all dps and tank hero’s pretty well. I know how to abuse all dps hero’s abilities and I’m very quick to counter ults and abilities with each characters abilities/ult, I know all my characters specific roles in relation to their play style and how it effects my teams roster and the enemies, from cooldown management, when to hold corners, when to change positions when to guard backline ect. and the enemy teams roster, I know all the counters. And while genji is my main, I know when to swap off which is usually pretty early aswell especially if I see a disadvantage looking at the team and the enemy team’s characters. And the first engagement flops.

After playing for the amount of time I’ve had. I feel pretty confident that I know what I’m doing, I do vod reviews of myself constantly, and even enemy and teammate perspectives, and yet the rank still shows a huge mismatch, don’t get me wrong I consistently get games where I smash it, but it seems like that only happens when at least 2 of my teammates know what their doing, not overextending, falling back, avoiding feeding enemy ults ect. And it’s not like it’s rare, but here’s the dilemma I’m noticing.

I play at night, late at night. Almost exclusively…..
Why? Because of my daily responsibilities and work life, this is the only timeframe where my time is “mine”, and I’ve tried to stay really optimistic and not focus on rank, which is what I’ve been doing for the past 2 years, focusing on my improvement alone, and not the random teammates I get, I’ve gotten very good at carrying, although sometimes the enemy team is doing all the right things, and my teammates are literally playing like their in bronze. In which case I don’t have a high enough skill to carry super hard.

I really want to rank up past silver because it’s starting to look more like a skill ceiling. Which based off my mechanical skill and gamesense feels really hard to accept. But I’m not sure what to do. It really does seem like a perfect 50-50, sometimes I question if teams are smurfing because I’ve had plenty of times where my teammates were pretty decent, which gives me more room to focus on what Im doing. And I absolutely give my 1000% effort. And we still lose, I always say it feels like “clawing and fighting tooth and nail just to lose”.

I’ve tried taking a break after 3 losses, then coming back the day after, that never really worked, I get big win streaks sometimes but it’s usually followed by more 50-50 or just a lose streak. I also know that some of my teammates may have just gotten to silver, and are still inexperienced. Which I totally get. But I also have a lot of games where the rank gap is huge, I’ve been in games where it’s literally plat and silver.

Maybe I should accept that this is my ceiling, but I hear people reaching gold and or plat within months to half a year, and I feel discouraged, like are they really just that good?

And finding teammates that are consistently on at the hours I’m on is impossible, but I’ve seen “unranked to GM” videos and they play with random teammates, and thought that maybe if Improve enough I can at least reach gold or plat, which again is what I’ve been trying to do for 2 years. But I find consistently that I’m having to carry and compensate for teammates that are either in bronze or just got to silver. And sometimes I simply can’t do it. Most of my wins are from me carrying and healers seeing my value. Just wanted to know what you guys think.