u/ImportantSystem9817

couldnt post the 40 minute one ....... whoops

I'm a teenager, and before I get into this, I'd like to say I don't dislike my mom because of small things, she's genuinely done things that are beyond childish.

I have done things behind my parents back whenever I was 8-11, nothing extreme though. I would go on social media apps, swear sometimes and post stupid Gacha Club edits, so there was a little strain between us because of those things. I'm older now, and my relationship with my mom is confusing. There would be times where she said quite disgusting things to me (Ex. I told her I wanted to "go to heaven" when I was 10 because I was tired of her dragging me into her arguments with my dad, and she responded with "this isn't about you") or just flat out be neglectful.

There was a long time period where she heavily favorited my older brother for his skills, talents , and more. She would pretty much leave me out of all of her conversations and boast about my brother. That being said, anytime I had something challenging going on in my life, she'd scream at me to tell her and say "SPIT IT THE F-CK OUT OR I'M SENDING YOU THE F-CK AWAY". That occurred a lot. But when it came to my brother, she was caring and patient with him.

There's so much more to it, but as of now, she switched up. She realized I was good at singing, and suddenly started treating me SO much better. Shes a lot nicer now and actually talks about me like she loves me, but it all feels so strange. It's also extremely annoying because she acts and audibly speaks like a 7 year old. It's hard to listen to her on top of having all that shes done and said to me in the back of my mind. Overall, these past few years shes been neglectful to my mental needs and sometimes physical needs, and never apologizes.

But she's being nice to me now and I feel like I'm in the wrong for still practically despising her. I pretty much try to ignore her and I sometimes look visibly irritated with her without even trying, and I just don't know where I'm standing right now. She seems extremely caring now (not with all things sadly) so I'm not sure if I'm in the wrong or if she is.

AITAH for the attitude I have towards my mom now? ( Sorry if this is written poorly, I'm currently sick and I can't think straight, but this has been on my mind a lot recently )

I'm trying to export a video in CapCut Web , and it only exports 4 seconds . A month ago , it was exporting things just fine and even exported a 5 minute video , but it won't even export a 15 second video now .

I've tried literally everything , and nothing is working . Does anyone know how to fix this ??

( also , I am using a chromebook )