u/Important_Isopod9947

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I saw this place was also for Christians figuring it out so I think this is the right place for this

So I'm a Teenager, and I've just been really doubting Christianity. Honestly the only reason why i still identify as a Christian and read the bible is because I'm terrified of going to hell. I was raised in a serious Christian family, went to church for my whole life, I'm also LGBTQ (and I was taught Queer people were horrible and sinful before I even knew what they were at 5 or 6 years old). I was even homeschooled so i was in a Christian school. I was also abused as a small child which doesn't seem like what the bible they follow taught them to do..

And then the bible stories, like the flood that I'm not aware of any proof of that seems impossible otherwise unless if it was EXTREMELY exaggerated. I think it was supposed to be literal though. Gathering up every animal, insect, on earth in one boat. And Jonah and the whale, there's literally no way to prove that could even be possible. A person cannot survive in another animals body. And the bible says the earth is 6000 years old, even though that was proven wrong? It just seems like the more I think about it the more I wonder how people believe this. unless if there's something I'm unaware of and if so, you're welcome to educate me.

Let me know what you guys think, I'm looking for others opinions that has had similar thoughts as me.

I feel so hopeless for this to ever change. I'm going through a really long phase where literally nothing works.

This is the longest I've been clean since I started in 2023! Life is still incredibly tough but I've been trying to get less harmful ways to cope. I didn't think I would get this far, if you relasped recently, you can do it too!