u/IndependentNight5310

At the start of June, I moved into a room in an apartment that someone was subletting. It was nothing fancy, but the rent was very cheap, and the location was good.

Throughout the month, I have been very clean and respectful. I have never left a mess in the kitchen, I have swept the floor regularly, and I cleaned the bathroom once a week (including behind the toilet, which looked like it hadn't been cleaned in quite sometime).

Imagine my surprise today when I was served eviction papers. On the papers themselves, there was no reason given. The guy just wrote "too many problems." He texted me later and told me that I was closing doors too loudly, and leaving dishes in the drying rack, which was apparently disrespectful to him since it meant I wasn't cleaning up. I have until August to find a new place.

I'm honestly shocked by what's happened. I'm not gonna dispute it, since I don't want to stay with this asshole. But I feel really upset and hurt. I've never purposefully closed a door forcefully, and I can't even remember accidentally closing a door loudly. And even if I did, why did he have to escalate straight to evicting me? I certainly never slammed a door. I've tried to be very considerate with my noise. I often get home late, and I like to have showers at night. I made sure to ask him if that was okay, and he said it was.

As for leaving dishes in the drying rack, I did that once. He told me to hand-dry my dishes (which I found silly, since would we have a drying rack?) but I didn't argue and I've been drying my dishes by hand since then.

EDIT: I should also add that, as far as "being too loud" is concerned, my roommate/LL would play music and listen to the radio in the kitchen early in the morning when I was still asleep. This didn't bother me, since I can tune this stuff out pretty easily, but I could definitely hear it.

I don't cut myself, but I hit myself in the head. It usually happens when I've made a mistake and feel stupid, or otherwise feel overwhelmed.

I hit myself really, really hard. I've hit my head on walls, causing holes. One time, I stabbed the side of my head with a pencil, making myself bleed a lot.

I am scared that someday I will do very serious, irreversible harm to myself, if I haven't already.

I know that deep down, my friends and family don't see me as an individual. Even after I changed my haircut and moved to different city, they still mix up my name with my twin brother's name. I know it sounds like a small thing, but it betrays what they actually think of me: I'm not an individual; I'm just an extension of my brother.

I hate being a twin. It has fucked up my sense of self so badly.

I applied on Indeed, and got a phone call from them wanting to arrange an interview. I looked on their website, and I can't actually figure out what they do. It also triggered my MLM alarm pretty hard. Has anyone heard about this company?

I got 90% of the way through an application (for a minimum wage job), and they hit me with a required video cover letter. I would rather be homeless than do a video cover letter. Fuck that.

I've hit myself ever since I was a kid. It's usually as a response to stress, or when I feel stupid or when I've made a mistake. It has gotten very extreme. One time in school, after messing up an assignment, I stabbed the side of my head with a pencil.

I see so many people say that self-harming in front of other people is akin to abuse. How does that make any sense? I'm hurting myself, no one else. Why should I have to apologize for something that only affects me?

I don't even know if I should post about this, since I'm still traumatised by this whole experience. I'll probably delete this in a bit.

Around Christmas, I was really stressed about work. I worked in a grocery store, and did most of the ordering for the dairy department. My bosses were total assholes, and whenever I didn't order enough of something, they would always give me shit. Never mind that I was a minimum wage employee doing work well beyond my pay grade (and also doing the workload of two people).

A couple days before Christmas, I thought I hadn't ordered enough eggnog. I was at home, talking to one of my roommates about that, and I got myself really worked up and stressed. I threw my aluminum water bottle across the room, then picked it up again, and hit myself in head over and over again. Then I said "I want to get a gun and kill everyone" (referring to my bosses).

Needless to say, my roommate was really scared. I went to my room to try to calm down. Then I came back out to apologize and to make sure my roommate was okay. He said he was okay, but obviously he wasn't.

A few days later, the roommate who saw my meltdown, along with another roommate, confronted me, saying they didn't feel safe living in the house with me. As they confronted me, this triggered another meltdown, and I took a sheet pan and hit myself in the head with it again and again. Obviously this didn't make my roommates feel any safer.

A little while after that, I found an eviction notice taped to the door. My roommates had told the landlord. This triggered (surprise surprise), another meltdown, full of self-harm. I called my parents, and moved out the next morning. I really didn't want to move home (for a bunch of complicated reasons), but that's a whole other story.

The worst part of this isn't that I got evicted. It's that I made my roommates (who I considered to be good friends) scared of me. Just a little while earlier, I had cooked roast chickens for them for Thanksgiving. They were my friends, and I cared about them. I know there were right to do what they did. But I alternate between understanding their decision, and being really really angry at them.

And the funny thing is, I hadn't messed up the eggnog order at all. All the worry that triggered this was totally pointless.

Logline: While being the target of a home invasion, an Iranian woman living in Canada is forced to confront her estranged father's complicity in the Iranian regime's crimes.

Would be especially interested in hearing feedback from any Iranians. That being said, given current events, if you are Iranian, this entire script could be a sensitive subject.

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1v4KyNGObrcOD98gkcEx64Y-EivE_Auxk/view?usp=sharing

Logline: While being the target of a home invasion, an Iranian woman living in Canada is forced to confront her estranged father's complicity in the Iranian regime's crimes.

Would be especially interested in hearing feedback from any Iranians. That being said, given current events, if you are Iranian, this entire script could be a sensitive subject.

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1v4KyNGObrcOD98gkcEx64Y-EivE_Auxk/view?usp=sharing