I RUINED THE ONLY GOOD THING I HAD

I RUINED THE ONLY GOOD THING I HAD

I am dating a trans girl... But she just recently arrived at that conclusion... Before I thought I was dating a boy.

My sexuality was always confusing and while I was dating her pre-transition I thought I was a homosexual... Even if a lot of things existed to make me believe in the opposite.

but one day... When she was still experimenting... She sent me a picture with fake boobs on it... And I... I was fucking drunk and... Oh fuck... I reacted so so horrible

I DIDN'T KNOW SHE WAS TRANS. I DIDN'T KNOW SHE WAS A GIRL. I THOUGHT SHE WAS JUST EXPERIMENTING A STYLE. I HAD ALREADY APOLOGISED FOR THAT, WE'VE DISCUSSED THAT SO SO SO SO SO FUCKING MUCH! BUT I'VE RUINED IT! I'VE RUINED IT COMPLETELY! IT NEVER WENT OFF HER HEAD AND NOW SHE DOUBTS MY LOVE!

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. I AM SO FUCKING STUPID. SHE IS THE ONLY THING I LOVE, THE ONLY THING I CARE ABOUT. FUCKING KILL ME! STAB MYSELF! I HATE WHAT I DID! I HATE MYSELF! I AM AWFUL... I AM HORRIBLE!

I SWEAR TO GOD! I LOVE HER SO FUCKING MUCH... So so fucking much...

Flowery is the best antagonistic this game has ever had, while Tenna is the worst

This critic of mine comes from the fact that Tenna doesn't have any depth on his own. All of his scenes fall into two categories:

1: funny quirky Tumblr sexy man moment

2: placeholder to create other characters' moments.

And that makes it so that, if you don't find Tenna funny, the character loses completely any piece of interest it could've generated you. He becomes more of a drag to the story than anything. To add to that, he is only used for the sake of other characters, like on his flashback, or when he talks about Spamtom in chapter 5, or when he was used to make the Knight's introduction more impactful. His existence as a character is completely unrelated to the game's main themes. That being said, I don't think he is necessarily bad. Something you'll see in good stories frequently is their ability to introduce villains just for the sake of moving the plot without any bigger meaning and make them look natural. However, the fact that any other villain does have great narrative reasons to exist and can give us some good analysis on subversion and the plot of Deltarune puts Tenna on an undeniably lower position in comparison.

And this exact reason that makes Tenna weaker is what makes Flowery so strong.

I'll be honest, I think Toby's humour on Flowery was pretty damn forced, and no interaction of Tenna with Ralsei or Susie seems natural. Feels like Toby was trying to force Flowery moments down our throat. I fully believe that if Flowery didn't have interacted with the fun-gang at any moment before the castle section outside from his introduction.

But despite having these weak moments, Flowery has something that made me really love him as an antagonist: he presents a moral threat to the fun-gang.

His speech about his dark world and Castle Town is a big part of that, of course. It was just really really cool to finally see our protagonists being morally challenged, and with an argument that's actually fair. Plus, Flowery isn't really a bad guy, he is never betrayed by the other flowers or his recruits and he never mistreats them. There's literally no reason to beat the crap out of him except "we need to do it to keep our own fantasy alive". People say that this chapter was "the last sweet fun adventure", but, until a little before the end, there was actually nothing sweet about it since, for the first time, our protagonists are not thinking in an altruistic way, but are being rather selfish, it makes me wonder what would've happened if Asgore was actually on Flowery's side...

Anyways, this isn't actually criticising anything necessarily bad about the game since I like both characters, but I had this thought for a while and wanted to share. What do you think?

u/Infamous-Objective28 — 2 days ago

I think this moment was the most agregious showcase of Toby's writing flaws.

This single picture is enough to convince me entirely that Toby hasn't thought of Deltarune as a chapter divided game, and he doesn't know how to pace or handle it, and it made me really nervous about FRIEND, but chapter 5 kinda tranquilized me.

Bare with me, in this image, we have the secret boss of chapter 2, a character with connections to some of the most secret and instigating parts of the story. At this moment, not only he is a mysterious and honestly kinda scary character, but the theme of his shop has the most blatant and clear connection with W. D. Fucking Gaster, the mister mystery himself.

It's obvious that this character is important to the story and he was our main way to theorize and try to guess what is FRIEND, Gaster's involvement with the dark worlds and guesses for chapter 3. He was a BIG SHOT.

So, when this character just fucking drops "... ... Mike..." With that fucking face, it's OBVIOUS that everyone thought it was important. It's OBVIOUS that we would get hyped for it and expect whatever "Mike" was to have any connection with the story. Look at the fucking background and moment he was introduced!

And then, chapter 3 and 4 came out. And we have the revelation... MIKE IS A FUCKING JOKE. It's a fucking joke around OUR THEORIES about Mike. Toby is literally saying: "hahaha, your theories are so silly guys, you are theorizing something irrelevant hahaha, I am so smart". I love Toby and I love Deltarune but, Toby, ARE YOU FUCKING STUPID? Are you unable to understand the implications of the scene you fucking built? I was MAD when Mike was revealed, and I get mad every time I think about it. Toby built a mystery then revealed that there was no mystery and then pretended we were stupid for believing there was a mystery. This Mike situation is so dumb that there are some people who still believe Mike has relevance to the story.... I hate it...

u/Infamous-Objective28 — 12 days ago

I hate how often people refer to a community like it was some kind of collective hive-mind or an organised institution (image is simply an example).

For the love of God, do not interpret this as any form of hate towards any group of people or any kind of bigotry. I am gay and I hate inner fighting in the LGBT+ community or racism and that kind of stuff. What I refer to by this title, is the attitude that some people do of referring to the "trans community" or others like it was an organised thing with a series of requirements to be part of and rules with specific tastes and specific types of people... You know what I mean.

This isn't something that happens exclusive to the trans community, as illustrated, it also happens when people refer to the "black community", the "LGBTQ+ community", and all that type of shit. Because when someone refers to a community like that, they normally already have a stereotype or a specific generalistic vision of that group in their mind. Like, when someone says "the black community", there's a big chance this person has in their mind the image of a black man in KFC with dreads and baggy clothes and sometimes even a Glock .38 in their pocket. Nearly nobody uses "the black community" to refer to Mr. Michel Rogers Bankings III, married father of 2 beautiful girls and lawyer in the city forum of New Cammesphere in Virginia.

The same for the trans community. But this case in specific is special then the others because very often, especially on Reddit, people use "trans community" to talk about good things, how they are accepting, creative, kind... But I hate that too. You see, even when it's a good thing, generalising creates a stereotype, and stereotypes will always cause negative situations in one way or another. For example, I am a femboy, and I've already been across very unpleasant groups of trans people who told me that my style, which was very important in my discovering process as a gay man and still deeply impacts who I am, was just a porn category, or just straight up misgendering me and calling me an "egg", even after I explicitly said how much this annoys me. This goes a lot against the "accepting" characteristic that I so often hear of.

Yes, yes, I know that in general trans people are very accepting and supportive of different styles and ideas and these people I met are just a small exception. But still, these people I met are just as part of the trans community as these accepting people. And the effect of that is that I can't answer them properly because they are not open to reasoning and answering in the same tone will make me sound like an awful transphobia even if there's no real transphobia in it. Taking a deeper example, Eva fucking Tyson is a disgusting woman and she is too, part of the trans community, the 2 trans school shooters that conservatives always love to bring up are also part of the trans community.

What I wanna say is, the only common characteristic that the members of the black, trans, gay, furry, or whatever community you can think of have, is the fact that they have black skin, or suffer from gender dysphoria or like people of the same sex, etc. Being black or trans or gay doesn't excuse you in the slightest from being an asshole. Thank you! I hope this doesn't get interpreted wrong.

u/Infamous-Objective28 — 1 month ago

Guys... Why is everyone upvoting this? Isn't this like... True?

Like... Isn't the comment right? The only thing I disagree with is that Chapter 5's theme of escapism isn't nostalgia, but the very act of dreaming. The flowers are trying to make Asgore happy by bringing back his old dreams unattached with his miserable reality. Maddie is coping with her dysphoria by dreaming of being the Mew Mew doll. The chapter even ends with all the flowers thanking Kris for "seeing their dreams".

It's honestly a very compelling theme and I believe Toby executed it perfectly and in a way that it doesn't seem depressive to think about. But what do you guys think? I believe the chapters clearly follow this pattern of escapist themes, do you?

u/Infamous-Objective28 — 1 month ago

It has been a while since I told this story... But I think it's always nice to retell it and try to motivate new people here!

That's right! I met my boyfriend in the Sillyboyclub!

It was... A really lucky situation. We spent nearly 11 hours talking on the first day we met, and kept talking for the second until... On the third day... I said that I loved him and... We become boyfriends!

I know, I know... It sounds crazy... And unfortunately you can't see his post since it was deleted. But it happened! It's been 11 months since we have been together! And my life improved so fucking much! Even if it's a long-distance relationship, having someone to listen to you and be sweet and lovely with is so nice... And... Despite him being the cause of some of the most desperate and scary moments of my life, I believe I have improved his days too! Ahhhh! I love my boyfriend so much, guys! He is so pretty and sweet... (And yeah, I know it's actually him and not a 40 year old, chill)

If you are wondering, he is French and I am Brazilian. But don't worry, we have plans for meeting up irl in May or June of next year! It's our dream to live together...

You know... I've got a post basically written in the same way taken down before... But... There were a bunch of comments not only being happy for me... But there were people talking about this made them want to push it further just one more day... And that made me water up my eyes, man! I didn't expect something like that...

So... Don't give up, guys! You meet nice people in the most unexpected places! Just... Don't feel afraid of reaching out and talking about what you like! I literally got that boy by talking about taxes, lol.

u/Infamous-Objective28 — 1 month ago

This is the list of all characters that trigger a special text after trying to name the Vessel after them. What are your thoughts on it? Do you still believe all the rest of them will enter a dark world?

u/Infamous-Objective28 — 1 month ago

Se uma ideologia só é minimamente relevante em países desenvolvidos ela provavelmente não vale nada aqui. (Exemplos: veganismo, anarquismo e abolicionistas de prisões)

Eu falo isso pois eu tenho um namorado francês (sim, webnamoro, hahahahah) que é bem progressista e até marxista até certo ponto. E nessas discussões eu percebi que muitos ideais que são tão fortemente defendidos por progressistas fazem muito mais sentido na Europa do que no Brasil. E não é só questão do que é certo ou errado. Sinceramente, me espantou muito conversar com ele e perceber que os gringos genuinamente não fazem ideia da falta de infraestrutura que existe mundo afora. Parece que mesmo os grupos mais progressistas de lá ainda são extremamente eurocêntricos.

O movimento abolicionista das prisões, por exemplo, eu só descobri que isso existe semana passada, eles literalmente defendem extinguir o sistema prisional.

De uma perspectiva francesa, por exemplo, esse movimento faz sentido. Em 2024 não foram assassinadas nem mil pessoas na França. Victor Hugo escreveu na segunda parte de "Os Miseráveis" que "que fique aqui em registro que, durante as pesquisas pessoais do autor sobre o sistema prisional, constatou-se que 1 a cada 3 crimes cometidos em Londres são motivados pela fome". Ou na Dinamarca, tenho um outro amigo de lá, e nota-se que, quando se formam grupos criminosos, eles são, em sua maioria, jovens com complicações pessoais que resultam em distúrbios psicológicos graves. Se você analisar cada um desses pontos, não é completamente despropositado sugerir que o sistema prisional seja substituído por uma política mais voltada e reeducando e reintegrando essa população criminosa. A mesma coisa se aplica ao anarquismo.

Agora, tente imaginar isso sendo aplicado no Brasil, um país onde 2 milhões de pessoas estão sob o controle de facções criminosas SÓ NO RIO DE JANEIRO. Um país onde uma dona de restaurante é morta por se recusar a envenenar a marmita de policiais, onde uma jovem de 14 anos é estuprada e morta por se recusar a fazer sexo com um traficante, onde um jovem de 13 anos é morto por acidentalmente fazer o símbolo de uma facção em foto, onde foi cunhado o termo "Latrocínio", que quase não tem tradução direta em outros idiomas, onde um homem que mata 9 pessoas e mais 2 dentro da cadeia é POSTO EM LIBERDADE e participa do MAIOR PODCAST NACIONAL!

Se você considera tudo isso, a ideia de abolir as prisões torna-se uma discussão extremamente estúpida, especialmente quando você considera a escala em que essas novas medidas precisariam ser aplicadas, pois uma coisa que mesmo muitos latinos não se tocam, é que a criminalidade da América Latina é um caso completamente desnivelado com o resto do mundo. Nós não podemos nos comparar a essas nações desenvolvidas e nem com nações subdesenvolvidas de outros continentes, não existe nenhum lugar comparável ao que acontece aqui, nós temos que buscar soluções por conta própria.

Os mesmos argumentos se aplicam para o anarquismo. Meu Deus, eu genuinamente não consigo compreender como uma pessoa consegue acreditar que abolir o estado seria uma boa ideia quando se vive em um país onde o PCC e o COMANDO VERMELHO controlam populações comparáveis a PAÍSES PEQUENOS. Acabar com toda aplicação legítima da força só vai tornar a aplicação ilegítima (e muito pior) mais forte.

Não falei tanto sobre, mas o veganismo e todo movimento "anti-farming" nunca foi genuinamente uma coisa séria. Eu genuinamente acredito que isso é um psyop europeu. "Não não! Não comprem carne da América do Sul! Isso é errado! Compre esses produtos 100% veganos inflacionados e super processados que não podem ser feitos em qualquer lugar que não possua indústrias de processamento de ponta. Sim, é verdade que praticamente só nós europeus temos essa capacidade, mas isso é só uma coincidência"

u/Infamous-Objective28 — 2 months ago

Is femboy a style or an identity?

I make this question because I saw a lot of people claiming both. I am honestly more inclined to believe that it's closer to an identity than a style. Because a man can wear feminine clothes and makeup and not be considered a femboy. The only difference between these type of man and femboys, is that femboys **identify** themselves as femboys, and that means that being a femboy is not just about what you wear, but about **being a man who wants to be perceived as feminine**.

Like bro... I understand the point of the people who say that it's a style, but there's not a single other style in the world that brings people to start taking £str0gen. And again, that has inherently nothing to do with being trans, egg culture sucks.

Anyways... I think we as a community do not distinguish enough the people who are just into this as a kind of crossdressing and people who have this as part of their self-identity...

Maybe I am inventing a discussion that doesn't exist, or I am just confused about a topic everyone has resolved themselves in... I don't know... I'd like to hear your opinions... What do you think?

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u/Infamous-Objective28 — 2 months ago

I am the only one who feels kinda bad seeing so many people shitting on the "Amazon Basics Femboy" style?

You see... I have been a femboy for some time now, but my financial condition doesn't really allow me to buy anything expensive or try out any new style (no, I am not proving feminine clothes in clothes shops in my fucking town where everyone knows each other and my life can get ruined by simply finding someone in the wrong time), so I have sticked with my tigh highs, my necklace and my hoodie to have the only feminine style I can wear (I posted it here if you are curious)

However... It seems like there is a crescent wave of people in Twitter and Streamers communities who absolutely shit on the "Amazon basics" femboy style.... And that makes me kinda sad.

Cause like... Being a femboy has a lot of correlation with finding a style that fits you and makes you feel comfortable wearing it, it's expected that a lot of boys in this community are still experimenting their styles and trying to find something that makes them have some self esteem (especially considering some inhuman standards we sometimes create). So... I get really sad when I see people expressing their disappointment with Amazon basics femboys... Because I feel it kind of breaks the reason why femboys even exist... Like, the Amazon basics style does not reduce people's creativity, femboys who dress differently are not being criticised by it or something like that... The idea of dressing and acting feminine is not being destroyed by Amazon basics, so why care????

The generic style is already pretty alternative for society's standards and it seems like some people want us to be MORE alternative. Like ahhhhh! Goddammit! Isn't this enough? I am not trying to create an artistic movement, bitch! I just wanna dress cute and feel accepted! And I don't even want to remain on the basics forever, I would love to dress like a fucking femboy vampire if I could, but I just can't!

I always feel like these people complaining are a bit too much chronically online... But idk... Maybe I am just too insecure about myself... What are your takes on this?

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u/Infamous-Objective28 — 3 months ago

Essa foi minha primeira vez tentando ser mais afeminado... Está legal?

Só a última tem maquiagem... As meias ficaram muito curtas... Não gostei

u/Infamous-Objective28 — 3 months ago