
I RUINED THE ONLY GOOD THING I HAD
I am dating a trans girl... But she just recently arrived at that conclusion... Before I thought I was dating a boy.
My sexuality was always confusing and while I was dating her pre-transition I thought I was a homosexual... Even if a lot of things existed to make me believe in the opposite.
but one day... When she was still experimenting... She sent me a picture with fake boobs on it... And I... I was fucking drunk and... Oh fuck... I reacted so so horrible
I DIDN'T KNOW SHE WAS TRANS. I DIDN'T KNOW SHE WAS A GIRL. I THOUGHT SHE WAS JUST EXPERIMENTING A STYLE. I HAD ALREADY APOLOGISED FOR THAT, WE'VE DISCUSSED THAT SO SO SO SO SO FUCKING MUCH! BUT I'VE RUINED IT! I'VE RUINED IT COMPLETELY! IT NEVER WENT OFF HER HEAD AND NOW SHE DOUBTS MY LOVE!
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. I AM SO FUCKING STUPID. SHE IS THE ONLY THING I LOVE, THE ONLY THING I CARE ABOUT. FUCKING KILL ME! STAB MYSELF! I HATE WHAT I DID! I HATE MYSELF! I AM AWFUL... I AM HORRIBLE!
I SWEAR TO GOD! I LOVE HER SO FUCKING MUCH... So so fucking much...