u/InternationalStar988

My mom and him started arguing because he got mad at her for buying toilet paper at the dollar store.

Said she needed to stop wasting money and start budgeting, and that she was running him into the ground financially. It's not her fault though, my dad's unemployed, his only source of income is selling cocaine, and everything's been expensive lately.

So, they continued to argue until he started threatening to beat her up. My mom is very stubborn so she told him to do it.

When we were going inside our house, my dad punched her in front of our house. Then, she yelled at him to not put his hands on her. I panicked, grabbed some kitchen paper, and threw it at my dad's face. So, he stormed up to me and socked me in the face.

My mom yelled at him for hitting me and told my dad that she was gonna divorce him. She told me to get into the car, but my dad went in the driver's seat and told her that it was his car so she can't use it (even though she bought it.)

We started walking away from the house before my dad followed us on foot, saying that he was gonna come after us if we left. Instead of being logical and keeping away from someone who just punched you in the face, my mom walks back to the house. Since I'm a minor, I unwillingly walk with her to the front porch.

My mom told me to go in my room and not to come out. I'm not sure why, either she's mad at me or is afraid my dad is gonna do something to me.

I'm so tired of this life atp

It's really ugly, it never looks right no matter how much I comb or straighten it.

It looks messy, dry, and dead.

The texture feels like a cheap wig when you don't care of it.

People even assume I'm lazy enough to not even bother with my appearance just from how big and frizzy it is. Yeah I'm lazy, but I try my hardest to make my hair look at least presentable, so it hurts when others say that to me.

I'd say the biggest con in having thick hair is that unlike everyone in my family, I've been dealing with chronic head lice for about five years now ever since my younger sister got it from a classmate and spread it to everyone.

My mom has tried manually removing the lice with a comb. But since my hair is so thick, the lice never get properly removed.

I've asked her many times before to take me to a professional clinic to get them fully removed, but she said that it'll be too expensive and a waste of money.

I've asked for two years straight before giving up entirely in 2023 when I finally accepted she was never going to oblige.

So, I've been doing it myself since day eight; and while I accommodate everyone by using my own hair brush so it won't spread to anybody else, I still have to deal with the itchy crawling sensation that makes me want to tear my hair out.

I just want to shave off all my hair at this point to free me from the sheer ugliness and horrible lice that has become part of my daily routine...

I’ve been purging since my mom took away my blades and lighters, so now this is my only way of destroying myself without anyone finding out.

People will look at me and scoff if anyone ever even tried to imply I have an eating disorder since I’m a fat, ugly, lazy sack of shit. Which makes the likelihood of me getting caught impossible.

I know no matter how much I purge I will never lose weight, but I still find it soothing in a way.

I wish I was flatter, I wish I could be considered valid for who I am.

But I acknowledge that nobody would ever care, so why should I care either at this point?

I've been kind of anxious lately because I think my mom and older sister might know

I’ve been purging since my mom took away my blades and lighters, so now this is my only way of destroying myself without anyone finding out.

People will look at me and scoff if anyone ever even tried to imply I have an eating disorder since I’m a fat, ugly, lazy sack of shit.

I know no matter how much I purge I will never lose weight, but I still found it soothing in a way.

I wish I was flatter, I wish I could be considered valid for who I am.

But I acknowledge that nobody would ever care, so why should I care either at this point?