u/IvoryKeen

I sleep until 9. Sometimes 10. I get up. By 12, I'm limp. Can't move. My boyfriend carries me to bed. I sleep until 3. My head pounds with a migraine and my bones ache when I wake up. I'm limp until 5 with zero energy, then I get hit again with a second sleep attack at 8. I can only do one activity a day because of how much it takes out of me.

I'm 21. This has ruined my life. I can't work to save for my own place or finish school. I can't even drive.

My new specialist won't see me to prescribe a new medication until November 26th. I don't know how I can live like this.

At this point I'm not even mad anymore. It just means we don't have to share him as much. I love our son.

Hello, first time posting here. I (21) was diagnosed just back in May, after three years of constantly falling asleep and not knowing the cause.

I always feel so bad after waking. Horrible migraines, shaky, deep full body bone aches.

I wanted to know if this was a common experience and just get some (non-medical) advice. I have no medication (can't afford the modafinil prescribed to me). If anyone has advice, it'd be really appreciated.

Sorry, couldn't name Ena in the post title.

Technically, two questions. I just reached Galyad and met her and was absolutely overjoyed to see her again. But do we know why her hair's changed colour? Or why she was recast in English? The new voice actor is doing an amazing job at her voice and accent, but I still find the recast decision interesting.

There's been so much negativity on this sub this year. It sucks. Art Fight is supposed to be fun!

So. Tell me. What's an attack you got this year that just makes you smile? It can be anything! For example, I got an animated pixel art of my account mascot!

Let's all share something good we got this year!

I still think this one is just insane. I'm not huge into the rp scene, but someone please tell me this ain't normal.

Also, quick edit here: Hi, OP here. Before you go to the comments to argue whether my story counts, I messaged the moderators before posting, and they said written rp and LARP are both welcome here.

TW: mentions of a potentially exotic but not too detailed scene, SA, cyberbullying, deliberate misgendering, mentions of SH/suicide, and targeted harassment.

Last year, my bf and one of our friends joined a pokemon rp on discord. It was a battle royale between two teams. Had around 17-20 people I believe. I was added to the server as a watcher because I was curious.

The server seemed really cool. Plot lasted about a year. After the end, I sometimes chatted with the people on their, mostly to share my own art since they had an art channel. Never spoke to the server owner much.

Now, back in May this year, my bf "Jason" told me there was a new server being made and this time, I was in the window to apply. So I made the two characters I was allowed and sent in the applications. Both were approved.

I joined the server and pretty early on, noticed there was no rules thread. I thought it was strange but no one gave me any response when I asked about it.

Anyway, I was in the server for a few weeks prior to the start. I was super excited about it, but didn’t interact with anyone too much because they all already knew each other, and I have social anxiety. It takes me a bit to get used to new groups.

Anyway, we finally started... the same day I was at a facility being tested for narcolepsy. I was able to chat a bit between tests, and thought everyone was nice.

Now we get into the story. Here's the cast! (All fake names)

ME/OP. 21yo nb.

MY BF: "Jason". Fake name. 22yo m.

Crowley: Male, unknown age. Server owner. Our main issue.

Uhh... Miles: Server owner's boyfriend.

Pepper: 20yo male. Irl friend of nearly a decade.

And Mike. Male, unknown age.

My characters were a gamer boy Galarian Ponyta who was an absolute failure at everything, and an aggressive Noivern who was a bully, but was planned to spiral slowly and eventually reveal he had a pretty bad past. Now, I wanted to avoid doing anything like a murder hobo with him, so I made it so he was all bark, no bite. Like, he would threaten all he could but wouldn't actually do anything harmful.

Keep note of my characters, especially the Noivern! They're important for later.

Three days in, and I was already noticing a pattern. I was apparently doing things that were against the rules, but I didn't know what the rules were. I never intended to break any rules, but when I did, instead of dming me to kindly let me know about the rules, I got publicly told off by the server owner, Crowley, each time. I felt targeted already. There were also many times where communication was off with Crowley because he refused to put any effort into his messages, and instead would give vaguely worded responses whenever I asked anything.

On the third night, my Noivern went on an expedition with Mike's Sylveon character and Crowley's Eevee character, meanwhile my Ponyta was on a different expedition with a different group.

My Noivern was being aggressive as usual, and Mike's Sylveon had been flirting with him the whole time. In the chat channels, Mike and I joked about making them "enemies to lovers" and we both made a few jokes about toxic yaoi.

So, one thing happened, which led to the Sylveon biting my Noivern. My Noivern bit back. Then Mike sent a really suggestive message about the Sylveon shoving his ribbons into my Noivern's throat.

We ended up stopping there because the entire time, Crowley had been really grumpy. He wasn't telling us we were too erotic, which I did ask because I wanted to make sure the server had no minors and I had checked prior to this if it was okay, and was given the go ahead. But Crowley kept saying the biting wasn't a kiss. Mike and I kinda ignored him and actually spoke about confirming our characters as an eventual pairing.

I then said goodnight, as it was late. Then Crowley said, in the public channel, that we needed to have a private chat in the morning.

I was worried Mike and I got too erotic, so in the morning, I set up a gc between the three of us and said we should wait for Mike to wake (timezones and all that) so we could all start together.

Crowley only waited a few hours before starting without Mike, which I felt already was a bit rude. But he started talking about "meta gaming" and "power playing".

For reference, I have not rp'd since I was 11. I had never heard these terms before.

When I asked what they were, he referenced a few times where I had accidentally done those things. I apologized, and explained I didn't too hard about those examples as most of them were used for one off jokes, such as my Ponyta using Future Sight to accidentally see the makeout between my Noivern and Mike's Sylveon, and getting even more traumatized than he already was.

The gc lasted multiple days and I quickly added Jason in, as I felt Crowley was going out of control. His criticisms shifted from the rules I had apparently broken, to more things he didn't like about my Noivern's character and personality, to the way I added flavor text and scene descriptions in my rp messages ("the sky was green"/"he said with a smirk"). He even said he didn't understand why my Noivern kept threatening to eat other characters, or why he hung from the ceiling. Those two still confuse me, because I thought they made sense for a dragon-bat character. Dragons eat people, bats hang from the ceiling.

I asked a few times if they wanted me to tone down my Noivern's character, because I knew "edgy" or "aggressive" characters aren't always well received. I'd figured I could handle him as I always write messy characters and I honestly planned him more as a "will say he hates you while cooking cupcakes for you" type of character. But Crowley never answered me when I asked that.

When they kept saying I had broken rules, I said there was no rules channel. Their response was pretty vague and I felt they were trying to avoid responsibility.

They claimed they were all experienced and didn't need a rules channel. I said I was new and should have been informed of the rules, as I had asked about them before the sever rp even fully began. They shifted the blame to Jason and said he should have told me the rules, but Jason was not a mod and even admitted he didn't know half the rules either.

This gc lasted days, and about halfway through, I learned Crowley had made a separate gc with nearly the entire server, where they had begun talking about me behind my back. I only learned this because my other irl friend, Pepper, had been added. He was in the server but had chosen not to participate in the rp.

Now, I was worried about Pepper, because he kept sending Jason messages about how Crowley's anger was justified and how I "needed to learn my lesson". He used that exact term multiple times.

I then learned about him being in the server, and I'll admit, I panicked. My mental health had already been struggling from the gc between Crowley and I, as he kept claiming I was deliberately acting in bad faith, and multiple times implied the rest of the server hated me.

And, in the last server, I remembered an incident where a girl got banned for making a joke and then Crowley and everyone started insulting her and misgendering her (she was transgender). I had already been paranoid that they would do the same to me, and when I heard about Pepper, I gave him multiple days to talk to me or reach out on discord. I had even tried reaching out to him myself via our usual dms, but he defended Crowley and kept his responses to me brief. Meanwhile, he kept talking about me to Jason privately and continued saying I was in the wrong.

Then Crowley implied Pepper had been participating in the other gc, talking about me behind my back.

I panicked, and blocked him on discord. I unblocked and revlocked him multiple times over the course of a few days, as I kept panicking and rethinking my choices. I figured, if he asked Jason about it, I'd unblock him so we could talk. But he never brought it up to Jason.

Then, eventually, after about roughly 6 apologies from me to Crowley, Crowley implied we could move forward from everything.

Despite everything, I still wanted to rp. I had been having a lot of fun, and wanted to keep enjoying the rp.

So I asked if I was able to keep playing, but Crowley then said he had "voted" with the rest of the server, and they had all voted to have me kicked out.

I was really sad about that, but also kinda tired. This whole situation had drained my mental health a lot. I had actually started looking into SH during this time, which I'm kind of ashamed of as I was 5 years clean (not anymore).

So, I asked how we should write off my characters. I only specified one rule. I didn't want Crowley choosing how they died. I told Jason privately that at this point, I didn't trust him with my ocs. I was worried he'd do something horrific to them, and I was right to be worried.

Because Crowley eventually said he wanted to have my Noivern killed off, by having Mike's Sylveon choke and rape my Noivern to death with his ribbons.

I said that turning a kiss into a murder felt very close to SA, and I wasn't comfortable with that. I asked if they could just retcon my characters instead. He kept insisting, so I eventually said I had very personal reasons to say no. I offered to share them but warned him the topic was dark. He said, "as long as you're okay with it".

So I shared that I'm a survivor of childhood SA and did not feel comfortable with this.

Exactly two minutes after I sent that message (I checked), I started getting dms from Miles. His very first message said I was harassing Crowley, his bf (I didn't even know they were bfs). I asked him how I was harassing anyone, as all I asked was that we found a different way to kill off my characters. Miles ignored that and started accusing me of lying about my SA, making rape jokes (he said my joke with Mike about the makeout scene was a rape joke, even though the kiss was fully consensual), and said I was "using made up trauma as a shield to avoid consequences".

I told him I'm allowed to cope in my own way, and he claimed that he was apparently also a survivor, and that I had to be lying about being a survivor. I told him he should know better than to judge how someone else comes with their trauma. I spent over a decade struggling to process my trauma, and was very upset that someone would accuse me of lying over a joke made on discord.

He then started telling me I shouldn't have joined the server "if I was that fragile", and at this point, I blocked him.

I then went to the gc and noticed Crowley typing, so I told him to not send that message. I went off on him for sharing my personal info with someone outside of the gc, and for sending his bf to harass me. I told him to get fucked and blocked him.

I thought it was finally over. I sent the screenshots of the dms Miles sent me to the server, then left it.

Miles had never dm'd me prior to this, so what I sent was our entire conversation.

Then Jason found he'd been banned as well. Crowley said that Miles felt uncomfortable having "rape defenders" in the server.

At this point, we were both tired. I also learned later Crowley had sent Jason multiple (over 20) dms trying to tell him I was a bad person and telling him to break up with me. Note that Jason and I have been together for ten years. Jason was really upset by those messages, because prior to this he'd genuinely seen Crowley as a friend.

Then, Pepper finally spoke to Jason. He was upset and I finally unblocked him for us to talk.

He kinda just said the same thing as Crowley and Miles. I was rude and condescending, I'd broken rules, I was a rape defender and I had "used my trauma as a get out of jail free card". He said he "needed space", but we'd have a proper talk about things soon. I agreed to give him space since I still thought he was my friend, and left it at that.

But he kept messaging Jason, sending him memes and such as if nothing happened, and the whole thing was just awful. I thought he'd reach out after a few weeks, but nearly two months went and passed. I eventually messaged him saying I couldn't wait anymore and was moving on but was still open to talking when he was ready. I just had to move on and unfriend him for my mental health, because I was struggling with suicide, panic attacks, and discord kept having his profile pop up, which wasn't helping.

Pepper responded with a message calling me names, accusing me of twisting the narrative, and said I deserved my childhood SA.

I blocked him after this out of shock and anger. I could barely process what he'd said at the time. He'd talked about how I had "harassed Miles after he came out about his trauma" while telling me I deserved mine. He phrased it as if Miles had vulnerably opened up to me, rather than the real messages he sent (which included screaming, all caps, and calling me a fuck among other swears).

Jason ended up talking to him, to try and calm him down, but Pepper continued to call me names and compared me to memes of "Karens" crashing out at people online, which Jason had to ask him to stop multiple times and remind Pepper that I'm still his spouse.

In the end, we've both cut Pepper off for now. Jason wants to eventually try again but I genuinely don't think I can ever look him in the eyes again.

So. That's my rpghorror story.

I genuinely don't get the hate for Rudy and Navirous and at this point I think the fan base just hates palicos in general.

Rudy is so freaking cute, he's just a little guy. He's baby. He tries so hard to be all stern but he just melted when Thea called him sir. I will die for Rudy.

That's all. I'm adding him to my collection of fur babies. Good day.

Hello, everyone! I moved here from Oshawa halfway through May. I actually lived here before prior to covid, but I was a child back then, so I didn't get out much.

I miss the fish and chips place by my mother's house so badly. It was a Captain George's. Moving's been rough and food's always been a comfort.

There doesn't seem to be a Cpt George's here in Peterborough, but there seems to be a few other places. I was hoping to get some recommendations on which places are the best or may have that nostalgic taste of home. Thank you to anyone who takes the time to respond!

I recently had a pretty horrible interaction with someone online who claims to be a survivor themself. They accused me of harassing their bf even though he'd been the one harassing me for over a week, and I had finally put up boundaries because he was getting creepy, and said I was making up my abuse and that it couldn't be really because I made "rape jokes".

Said rape jokes were me and my friend on a discord server joking about our ocs being a "toxic yaoi". Fictional characters. Pokemon.

Apparently that's a rape joke now.

They accused me of using SA as a shield and making up my trauma because apparently, I'm too open about sexuality to have actually been assaulted. I told them everyone copes differently and they just starting cursing me out and calling me names.

I still think I'm okay. I will cope the way I cope and some internet stranger isn't going to change that. But I'm just so mad that someone thinks they're entitled to decide how someone processes the trauma of something so horrific.

I'm on what I think is Day 5. I'm at the "Make a Decision Quickly" part. I've done what seems to be everything, and now the only option left is >!Give In!<. I've tried quitting the domain and logging out/back in, but nothing works. Guides aren't helpful either, as they're just confusing me more because my game doesn't match up with what they're telling me to do.

I only have 1 ink left. I tried the >!resist!< but since it needs 4 ink, it's not letting me. Am I locked into a permanent bad ending? (I might genuinely leave the game if so, I can't do this to my boi)

Writing this on mobile, so hopefully the spoiler text works.

I don't know how many people saw my original post. It's barely been a day but so much happened.

Apparently, it wasn't just the server owner. There was a separate group chat. The whole server was there except for my bf and I. There were voice chats, too.

The worst part is that my irl childhood friend of nearly a decade was involved. Not on my side, of course. He said I needed to "learn from my mistakes".

I only found out because my bf was filling him in on what happened in the gc between us and the server owner, and he said he already knew. He went on to mention me needing to "learn from my mistakes" and some other things. Never once in this situation did he ask me for my side. I've blocked him now and I don't know if I'll ever want to unblock him.

I told my mum over text because I'm an hour away right now, and she said it's my fault because no one likes a headstrong woman. When I said I was hoping for comfort she sent several paragraphs telling me to "stop always thinking I'm attacking you".

I just feel so alone. I've been clean of SH for 6 years now but I think I might start again. The only person on my side is my bf and even he keeps defending everyone and saying "maybe they didn't mean it that way". I'm just so tired. I always try to be polite and I don't post often in servers because of social anxiety and now my worst nightmare had come true.

I need to clarify first. I was the victim of repeated rape when I was 6. The rapist was my own brother. He was twice my age and it lasted years. It only ended when I was 8. I carried these scars for years without any therapy or sexual education. It left me with some really rough scars, and I've spent years trying to heal.

I'm 21 now. That happened when my brothers and I lived in foster care. I've been living with my parents who regained custody when I was 14. I'm weeks away from moving out.

Just now, my mum and I were talking about my upcoming sleep appointment. About three years ago, I suddenly started getting narcolepsy-esque symptoms. I can't stay awake all day. I will get hit with sudden exhaustion, and it's impacting my day to day life. I'm sleeping 16+ hours. I always get hit with it around the same timeframe. I sleep perfectly at night, wake up early, and go to bed early. I still take 4-5 hour naps during the day.

I've been suffering from this for 3 years now. I was talking to my mother about how they said I need to pack breakfast and lunch. My mother happened to have her sister on speaker because they often chat. Her sister overhears and just started going off about "why on earth would they be keeping me the day after the sleep test?".

I kept explaining, and she kept claiming I never explained. Then she just kept saying, "I had a sleep test, I know what I'm talking about."

She had a sleep test 20 years ago for sleep apnea. The whole breathing issue. That has nothing to do with daytime sleeping problems.

I tried explaining this to her because my sleeping issues are different from hers, and she just kept fighting me, basically accusing me of lying.

Eventually, I was just like, "You hear this shit?" to my mum, and my aunt just went "okay you can leave now" as if she could tell me, a 21 year old who is not her kid, what to do in my own home.

I called her a bitch and told her my medical problems aren't the same as hers, and she called me a whore.

Sure, you can claim I was immature calling her a bitch. I was angry, but she chose to call me a whore because she knows my past. This isn't the first time she's done this. She's made it clear multiple times that she sees me as nothing more than a slut (I'm celibate by choice because of my past).

Previously, she also told me to kill myself when I was 17 (again on speaker) and went on a long rant about how I was to blame for all of mum's problems because I was evil. This was because I called her out for defending three transphobic men, I think from the news, who were sexually harassing their mtf coworker. She's spent the last several years denying this and my mother defends her. She was there.

I have no one who will take my side. My dad will likely take my mother's even though he doesn't like my aunt either because she's also a bitch to him, and we all know what side my mum is on.