u/Joeuriel

19 years old finished my exams 3 weeks ago waiting for my results in 2 days

I am currently unemployed studying to get my drivers license

But mostly working on my dream of becoming a great comic book /cartoon artist.

-I am more productive than ever before

-It's been a couple weeks since I hung out with my friends

-Currently intermittent fasting while lifting weights

Went from 255 lbs to 250 30% bf at 5.11 ft in 4 days

-I walk outside everyday

-jump rope everyday

-Practicing typing creative writing every week

-Reading classical literature

Not playing videogames

(But still watching adult videos)

I feel extremely exhausted and depressed but somehow I can work and stay focused for 5+ hour straight everyday

YouTube keeps recommending blackpill videos even though I always click uninterested I feel like my soul is under attack

I have no girlfriend planning on staying single but not getting any play either

(To be fair I am not approaching anyone)

19 years old finished my exams 3 weeks ago waiting for my results in 2 days

I am currently unemployed studying to get my drivers license

But mostly working on my dream of becoming a great comic book /cartoon artist.

-I am more productive than ever before

-It's been a couple weeks since I hung out with my friends

-Currently intermittent fasting while lifting weights

Went from 255 lbs to 250 30% bf at 5.11 ft in 4 days

-I walk outside everyday

-jump rope everyday

-Practicing typing creative writing every week

-Reading classical literature

Not playing videogames

Sleep at 11 pm everyday

(But still watching adult videos)

I feel extremely exhausted and depressed but somehow I can work and stay focused for 5+ hour straight everyday

And preform my prescribed duties

YouTube keeps recommending blackpill videos even though I always click uninterested I feel like my soul is under attack

I have no girlfriend planning on staying single but not getting any play either

(To be fair I am not approaching anyone)

19 years old finished my exams 3 weeks ago waiting for my results in 2 days

I am currently unemployed studying to get my drivers license

But mostly working on my dream of becoming a great comic book /cartoon artist.

-I am more productive than ever before

-It's been a couple weeks since I hung out with my friends

-Currently intermittent fasting while lifting weights

Went from 255 lbs to 250 30% bf at 5.11 ft in 4 days

-I walk outside everyday

-jump rope everyday

-Practicing typing creative writing every week

-Reading classical literature

Not playing videogames

(But still watching adult videos)

Go to sleep every day at 11pm

I feel extremely exhausted and depressed but somehow I can work and stay focused for 5+ hour straight everyday

YouTube keeps recommending blackpill videos even though I always click uninterested I feel like my soul is under attack

I have no girlfriend planning on staying single but not getting any play either

(To be fair I am not approaching anyone)

I a not a musician but everyday I get original tunes repeating in my mind.

it started to become frustrating, like i have something that is stuck inside me that's gonna haunt me until I express it

I paint, and do creative writing (prose,screenplay)

So I have a creative mind but unlike with words or strokes

I can't use sounds to create a cohesive vision

I really don't care about the theory to the extent of reading charts and everything not conducive to creating. my desire is to be able hear music in my mind and put it on a track. to then be able to use it as a form of expression

Also I use a akai mpk 3 mini

Thank you in advance

am 19 and will soon start a new job

In parallel I will launch myself into a creative project which is what I really want to do with my life. so it's like I have 2 jobs instead of one

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I also want to learn skills like :

-Creative writing

-Filmmaking

-Interpersonal relations (htwfaip)

-Marketing

-Music production

-The Japanese language (because why not)

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While practicing the skills I already have

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Also getting in shape

Reading classical literature (one of my personal interests)

Reading comic books

And playing videogames

As a hobby and inspiration

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And have a social life if possible

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What should I do ?

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A-Cut off the least important stuff

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B- have elite level time management

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C-do the most I can

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D-all of the above

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E-just give up

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F-work on each one periodically while keeping up with the most important projects

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am 19 and will soon start a new job

In parallel I will launch myself into a creative project which is what I really want to do with my life. so it's like I have 2 jobs instead of one

​

I also want to learn skills like :

-Creative writing

-Filmmaking

-Interpersonal relations (htwfaip)

-Marketing

-Music production

-The Japanese language

While practicing the skills I already have

​

-Also getting in shape

-meditating every week

-Reading classical literature (one of my personal interests)

-Reading comic books

And playing videogames

As a hobby and inspiration

​

And have a social life if possible

​

​

What should I do ?

​

A-Cut off the least important stuff

​

B- have elite level time management

​

C-do the most I can

​

D-all of the above

​

E-just give up

​

F-work on each one periodically while keeping up with the most important projects

​

​

Mostly for men, but all can weight in.

If we take exemples of really great men we can often observe their sexual behaviors and put them in two categories

Either hyper indulgent or abstaining totally

Ray Charles,Elvis Presley,gengis khan,alexander the great,Martin Luther King were known to indulge in exapades

But also plenty of other that seem to grow power from sexlessness :

Michael jackson,Steve jobs, isaach newton,Mike Tyson,Frederick nietzche,Muhammad ali,buddha

It seems like prehaps its not the sexual abstinence that make them so powerful but the willpower they build by going against their most hard wired desires that make them so much greater than the common of mortals

Or prehaps they are outliers that are not even made in the same way than all of us

On the other side

Hypersexuality is a fuel that can make you stronger as well because by expressing all these impulsions you can become all that you truly are and express your power totally

Prehaps some of us gain power from intercourse but some others are drained by the act (mike tyson)

Me on my end believe in my ikigai (higher purpose)

A goal so powerful and so insurmountable that I would do anything to be able to achieve it.

In truth, it might be the only thing I care about

And it seems like people that are driven can gain or lose a lot by choosing the way they decide to engage sexualy

My question is if I want to pursue my life mission with all that I have what would be the best course of action:

Be extremely diligent and focused on this aspect but having some level of frustration

Or

Not restraining myself at all or very little and express myself totally in that way at some expanses

At the end of the day everything into life is a trade off

If we take exemples of really great men we can often observe their sexual behaviors and put them in two categories

Either hyper indulgent or abstaining totally

Ray Charles,Elvis Presley,gengis khan,alexander the great,Martin Luther King

But also plenty of other that seem to grow power from sexlessness :

Michael jackson,Steve jobs, isaach newton,Mike Tyson,Frederick nietzche,Muhammad ali

It seems like prehaps its not the sexual abstinence that make them so powerful but the willpower they build by going against there most hard wired desires that make them so much greater than the common of mortals

Or prehaps they are outliers that are not even made in the same way than all of us

On the other side

Hypersexuality is a fuel that can make you stronger as well because by expressing all these impulsions you can become all that you truly are as man and express your power totally

Prehaps some of us gain power from clapping cheeks and some others are drain by the act (mike tyson)

Me on my end believe in my ikigai (higher purpose)

A goal so powerful and so insurmountable that I would do anything to be able to achieve it

In truth it might be the only thing I care about

My question is if I want to pursue my life mission with all that I have what would be the best course of action.

I haven't heard about nightshade or glaze in a long time

And it seems like every social media company is on the ai bandwagon

So it seems like if an artist posts anything his work will likely be stolen

Is there any data poisoning resources in development to prevent that or are the scrapers too quick and resourceful for it to be prevented.

Also what about video and animation?

Or audio

I am an introverted (loser)

No money

Overweight

maidenless

Neurodivergent

Never dated a woman before

No social status

A total nerd

Virgin

I am black btw (if it matters)

All my friends tell me that I should cold approach

And talk to women but. I am really not interested in girls my age. (Might be cope)

I want to lose my v card, I am interested in playing the field and not get into any relationships.

My sole concern is clapping some cheeks.

I am trying to get to a point where I find myself desirable, before trying to approach any women

(Get some money, lose weight,... )

When I get to that point what strategy should I adopt?

A. Let it come naturally not force anything

B. Talk to as many females as I can

C. Try to find one that I'll really click with

D. Give up entirely

E. build roster of girls that I'll "talk to"

People be giving me each and every advice to the point that I don't know who to listen to

I don't want companionship (i like peace)

I just want to mess around

For Those who know ball,bring back some memories