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Hey all, I’m about to be 5w tomorrow and placement scan at 5w2d.

I’m part of some bump groups, and feeling…really displaced. I’ve had 3 chemical pregnancies and have a bad tendency to think of all the things that can go wrong in general.

Everyone in these groups are announcing to family and all excited about their scans, meanwhile I feel like I’m going to cry just thinking about my scans. I’m so scared they won’t find what they should or something will be wrong.

We went through failed iuis and 4 failed ivf transfers to get here, and I had major surgery too. I honestly didn’t even think anything could work at this point, but here we are.

I’ve had great betas(98.8 9dpt and 259.9 11dpt) and my tests have darkened appropriately to the point they’re useless now. But I just can’t get myself to feel excited. I’ve been trying affirmations and reminding myself that right now I’m pregnant, but it’s just not helping. How did you make peace not knowing until the first few scans? No matter how good the odds are, I’m still terrified.

I’m 4w4d with great beta numbers(98.8 at 9dpt and 259.9 at 11dpt) and scheduled for our first scan on Friday 5w2d. I know from reading the only thing I should “expect” to see are a sac and MAYBE a yolk.

My tests have all darkened to the point they’re useless(which is a good thing overall) but gosh I’m so nervous. I have bad ocd(diagnosed) and I’ve gone down so many rabbit holes on what can go wrong that I’ve got a million worries.

Not sure what I’m looking for, maybe just some emotional support, success stories and the like. My nurse seemed very optimistic and not the least bit concerned, she just kept congratulating me saying how good the numbers were, but there’s so much uncertainty in these early days.

Who has had success after 4 failed transfers? I have my 5th transfer Monday and I’m feeling so discouraged at this point.

Tw: we’ve had 3/4 transfers implant but all ended in chemical pregnancies. I’ve had a ton of testing done(including RI) and recently had laparoscopy to remove stage 2-3 endometriosis with a specialist. I’m trying to be hopeful but when you see the “3 transfers for 94% live birth rate” it feels so discouraging.

I’ve had so many tests and started transfer 5 protocol today. It’s so hard to have hope this could work.

Any success stories after laparoscopy? They removed stage 2-3 endo and performed a d&c. Not looking for advice because I’ve had SO MUCH tested at this point, just looking to hear if laparoscopy helped others. I have RPL.

I had my surgery a little over 2 weeks ago, and I feel like I’m going crazy. I always have some insomnia, but I suddenly can’t get more than a couple of hours at a time and I’ve had heightened emotional distress since my surgery. I thought for sure most of this would be cleared up by now.

Is this still linked to my surgery or is this my new norm? I am losing it. Even my strongest sleep meds aren’t helping.

I had laparoscopy last friday(so a week ago now) and I’ve been feeling all out of sorts. Can’t focus well and can’t distract myself from my surgery recovery at all. I cry randomly and just don’t feel like myself anymore.

Has anyone ever felt this way? Is it normal?

So all…I got my long awaited excision surgery on Friday after a bunch of heavy debating. Rough recovery but!

Stage 2 or 3 endometriosis removed, waiting to confirm with pathology and my doctor. But they removed endo from my bladder and urethra, from the back of my uterus and my peri rectal area. They also drained a cyst and had to free my ovary that was adhered to the back of my uterus. So I’m leaning towards it likely being stage 3 or higher based on just this limited information.

So far I haven’t gotten the chance to really feel good, but already having less issues with my bladder and bathroom habits. So yay I think? Anyone have similar experience? How did your transfer go post excision?

In about 12 hours I have to leave for my laproscopy that I’ve been waiting 7+ months for and my doctor is expecting to find significant endometriosis.

I had to do bowel prep and was told I didn’t need to take the dose last night due to already loose stools this week. I took my dose today and have been going, then was supposed to do an enema. Turns out one of the ingredients in the fleet enemas I’m severely allergic to. I’m passing watery stool that’s basically clear, but I’m SO scared it won’t be enough.

I called the nurse line and she just told me to do my best but if I couldn’t find any enemas(I can’t, went to multiple stores) to just tell them when I get there for my surgery I couldn’t do one.

Anyone else had a lackluster bowel prep and still had successful surgery?

I was wondering if anyone has been told this. I was instructed to do bowel prep…just to avoid having to use the bathroom for a few days.

Like I get it, but at the same time it’s odd to me. I am already in a bad flare right now and having bowel issues, so I am worried about being able to work the next 2 days through bowel prep and how bad it’s going to get since I’m already HAVING loose stools. Should I call my office to see if I need to alter prep at all to account for this? This is for my lap

Tw: loss

It took me months to get to this point(about 6-7) and my lap is in a week.

I’ve had 3 different opinions and everyone is telling me doing lap is useless for ivf. If I was trying to get pregnant naturally, sure, but not with ivf. We’ve already suppressed with medication and have had 4 transfers, 3 chemicals, all very early.

PLEASE READ WHAT IVE HAD DONE BEFORE SUGGESTING.

My testing is very extensive, including hysteroscopy, HSG, and extensive bloodwork. Even an RI, no clotting issues, everything has been clear. My lining is 7.6mm tri. Treated for endometritis. I am getting a repeat hysteroscopy before our next transfer. Even my inflammation markers were astronomically low. We’ve done modified natural and medicated, we did suppression and do prednisone and baby aspirin. Even had Claritin and Pepcid with this last loss. 2/3 losses were tested normal.

Everything is normal on paper, yet I can’t sustain a pregnancy so far.

I’m not at a point that quality of life is really my priority right now, and that’s all I’ve been told would improve. I don’t do well from anesthesia and my job is going to totally screw me over if I do the surgery, to the point it might prevent me from doing it at all…

Yet in groups(not this one) I’m being treated like a fool for not just doing a laparoscopy and being told I’m going to waste the rest of my embryos by not doing the surgery. I don’t know what to do, risk my job for the surgery, or proceed without anymore treatment. I’ve gotten multiple opinions and been told not to do lap for fertility.

I just feel totally lost at this point. Our 3 leftover embryos aren’t tested, and I’m wondering if I should do another retrieval but this time test this 3rd round. But what good are embryos if they can’t stick? Ugh.

Tagging this as pregnancy/infertility because it’s all related.

Tw: loss

It took me months to get to this point(about 6-7) and my lap is in a week.

I’ve had 3 different opinions and everyone is telling me doing lap is useless for ivf. If I was trying to get pregnant naturally, sure, but not with ivf. We’ve already suppressed with medication and have had 3 miscarriages, all very early.

My testing is very extensive, including physical tests, and bloodwork. Even an RI.

Everything is normal on paper, yet I can’t sustain a pregnancy so far.

I’m not at a point that quality of life is really my priority right now, and that’s all I’ve been told would improve. I don’t do well from anesthesia and my job is going to totally screw me over if I do the surgery.

I don’t want surgery and never have. Literally only started this process because of my infertility. Not sure what the point of this post is, except to just vent about this whole situation. Am I totally crazy for considering canceling it?

Tw: loss

Looking for some hope…I have endometriosis and everything else looks perfect on paper. I’ve been doing ivf and can get pregnant rather easily…but I can’t STAY pregnant. I have lost 3/3 pregnancies I’ve had, all before first ultrasound. We already tried using medication for suppression and I’m going through our 3rd loss now.

I’m scheduled for laproscopy in just a few weeks, but my doctors all think this will be completely useless. They say yes, the endo is causing this, but tell me there’s not much I can do.

Has anyone ever been in a similar situation and had success staying pregnant after surgery? Or what did you do?

Anyone else had multiple doctors just tell them not to do a laparoscopy because it won’t help? I’ve now had 3 total doctors tell me there’s a high risk it won’t do anything for me with getting pregnant.

Two REs and an endometriosis surgeon(specialist, she’s on Nancy nook’s list before anyone comes at me saying she’s not). I’ve got endo but not sure on stage. I do have pretty severe symptoms, but I’ve also had 3/4 ivf transfers end in chemical pregnancies. Never had a good beta.

I just don’t want to do a surgery if it’s not going to do anything for me with my issue currently. I’ve lived with my endo for years and I’m honestly used to the symptoms, I hate surgery…

My second opinion thinks my 7.6mm lining is the reason I keep miscarrying. My current doctor has no idea and keeps saying it’s bad luck. I’m going to at least ask for a biopsy for progesterone timing(I think receptiva?) and for endometritis. We did treat for it, just in case I have it, but I know there’s always a risk it wasn’t enough.

Should I do laproscopy or try something else? I’ve heard so many people say lap was the answer but just as many say it was useless. Anyone have thoughts?

Edit to add: we did 2 months of suppression and then had our 3rd chemical. This time though, our embryos are untested. So that is always a possibility.

My RE and surgeon told me it likely won’t help me since suppression didn’t. I keep losing the pregnancy every time.

I’m finally scheduled for a laproscopy next month. I have a ton of awful symptoms and IC, but I just am so drained right now from so much grief I don’t even want to deal with surgery recovery if there’s 0 chance it’s going to help me.

Is it really worth it? And yes, before people ask, it’s with a specialist who is going to do excision.