u/Kabuut

Looking to get 4 girls within the next month or so. I have the tank all set up but have no idea where to actually find any other than feeder mice or ones from the pet store, which I'm trying to avoid. If anyone here knows where I could find fancy mice in that area let me know! :)

Moved out with my bf a few months ago and everything other than this has been great so far. I was clean from b/p-ing for several months after I completely stopped buying any junk/high calorie food which was always my biggest trigger, and the urge to binge all the time went away almost entirely.

My bf has never been the cleanest eater, but has an absurdly fast metabolism and couldn't put on weight if he tried. He occasionally comes home with chips and other snacks from the gas station or whatever, which isn't the worst thing in the world, but he has a family member who puts together these "care packages" which are basically just big baskets completely filled with junk food. Chocolate bars, candy, chips, sugary cereal, etc.

As much as I really like this family member and appreciate the gesture, it has been a nightmare for me. We've gotten one at least once a month and every time it sends me into multiple b/p sessions. I've asked my bf several times to stop bringing junk food into the house, and to tell the family member to at least tone it down with the sugary stuff, but he doesn't want to because he still enjoys having it.

After we recieve one it's a week or two of us just "trying to get rid of it", and once it's all finished and I feel like I can finally get back to having healthy food in the house again, suddenly theres more fucking junk on the shelf and it just becomes a viscious cycle.

I've told him in the past about my history with EDs, especially bulimia, but I don't know if I can bring myself to tell him I've been actively fucking throwing up the things that have been gifted to us, and the things HE buys. My face is starting to get swollen again and I just hate myself for being like this. I know the only way to do anything about this is to just have a serious conversation with him about it, and I'm sure he would understand, but the shame is making it really hard to even think about having that conversation.