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Ok so ever since high school iv been very tired all the time. I got diagnosed with a couple different anxiety disorders and went to the doctor for blood tests and all of the came back normal if not perfect health. I was so confused what was contributing so this fatigue. Iv suffered from constant racing thoughts and blind optimism. Iv tried to think my way through every problem iv ever had. Iv also never been particularly emotional in fact the opposite. I hate crying and feeling sad. I started meditating consistently 2 months ago. I do 20 minutes every day trying to focus on the present moment. In the last 2 weeks iv paid more attention to being present in my day to day which has been significantly harder than I anticipated. In the last week I have felt the most grief and emotions I have ever felt. It's like a constant weight on my forehead. It's weird because I workout and eat healthy and feel physically great. My nervous system has also significantly regulated since starting meditation. The weird part is that I feel more energized now but the sadness is lingering and I have no idea how long this feeling will last. I'm trying my best to just sit with it but wow it's not great. Iv never just let my emotions linger like this and it's a strange feeling. Im wondering if the fatigue was caused by suppressed emotions and if this feeling is pure sadness or grief.

Iv been meditating now for around 8 weeks consistently. I do 20 minutes every day of just sitting on the floor and deep breathing while trying my best to focus on my surroundings and being as present as possible. I had horrible attachment issues and still struggle. My mind was always elsewhere and I used to think someone else would be able to save me. After meditating Iv come to the realization that the only person that will ever be consistent is me and iv been feeling heavy. There's many things that iv sat with and had to come to terms with rather than avoiding and it's peaceful but also a bit sad at the same time. It's like maybe i'm starting to accept the fact that all good things must come to an end and I can no longer latch on to those fantasies as those are just figments of my imagination.

Honestly when I was younger I always thought women and men were always on the same playing Field. I had never experienced misogyny or any type of unfair treatment up until a couple years ago when I turned 18. Any job I work I feel like i'm never taken seriously. I get blamed for mistakes that men do and if I try to explain myself I get labeled as the angry woman who can't control her emotions. Dating life feels impossible. Every single man doesn't care about actually getting to know me. They beg to sleep with me and then once I do I get ghosted or some bullshit excuse as to why they can't be with me. Obviously some of this I set myself up for on a level but it's difficult when they spend hours begging to have sex with you. Iv been hanging out with this guy for 2 years now and it's frustrating. I'll be talking and trying to have a normal conversation while having to pry his hands off of me like i'm a fucking animal. Like I can't have a normal fucking conversation without the guy looking at my body and trying to have sex every second. At work the male managers blame every thing on me while the other men working don't do anything. Also the standards men have are insane. They need you to be some classy christian woman who has big tits and ass or else your not the one. Oh yeah and the amount of times iv seen men do the most awful shit (drinking and driving, abuse, etc) then turn to Christ as a way to feel least guilty about being a shitty person but then continue to make the same mistakes. It's honestly disrespectful to actual christians. In order to be in an actual relationship do you just have to be a pushover to deal with this behaviour??

I ordered a package from revolve on wednesday night and realized last night i ordered it to my old address which is hours away from my current house. I called this morning (friday) and asked if i could change the receiving address and was told I couldn't do that and needed to sign up for soemthing or I couldn't change it and then told me to call revolve. So i called revolve and revolve said they would send a request to ups and call me later today to let me know. It's 6pm now my time and they have not called me and im pretty sure their office is closed by now. Should I be worried?? The package was 100 dollars and there's no way I can drive up 3 and a half hours to retrieve it. I'm super frustrated that I couldn't directly change the address straight through ups. The estimated delivery for the package is june 8th which is 3 days from now so I'm hoping there's still time to undo the damage and receive my package.

Iv been meditating for around 3 months now and have been very consistent with it for the last month. I do 30 minutes of meditation every day. All I do is play meditation music and sit and try my best to be present and focus on my breath. It's been expecially harder the last couple weeks though. It feels near impossible to clear my head. I have severe generalized anxiety disorder and I have noticed improvements in my anxiety after meditating. The issue is that my overthinking is so bad to the point where even if I try my hardest to clear my head I can't. I can do it for small periods and focus on the music but other than that I feel like my thoughts take over. I really do enjoy this practice and feel mentally and physically better but I just don't know how else to clear my head. I workout most days but on the days I don't I feel extremely anxious. I'm a 19 year old girl and feel as if i'm often wasting away my days thinking instead of taking action. I think about the past, boys, school. Just usual things that spark my anxiety. I guess i'm just asking for any sort of advice on how I should manage these thoughts during meditation and how to make the most out of it. I really do want to get better and heal but some days it just feels unbearable.

For the last 5 years iv had crippling anxiety where I tend to shutdown and avoid my problems. I went on various medications all of which did not help me. I spent 2 years laying in bed for all my free time and would end up avoiding everyone because I convinced myself everyone hated me. A couple months ago I began to mediate everyday for 30 minutes straight and I think my life has changed. I always thought meditation was stupid until I tried it. The first couple sessions felt impossible but then I noticed how much more productive iv been. My head is so much clearer and I'm actually not tired anymore. I had so much anxiety weighing me down and had no idea. I also yawn when I mediate which I find interesting like I feel like my body is releasing stress in some way. Anyways iv slowed down in my life significantly. Iv been happier. Iv had horrible attachment issues to everything and made myself miserable and iv slowly just let life take its course and put so much less pressure on things I can't control. Iv also been able to get myself to do things that used to sound overwhelming. For example, the sound of going to the gym used to make me shutdown but now im able to get my body up and drive there and do as much as I can or whatever feels right. Instead of laying in bed all day I do things that make me happy and clean and take care of myself which all used to feel like big liabilities. I wish I knew about this sooner. It's like my mind has re calibrated itself. I used to wake up with thoughts just running so fast and I felt frozen. Now I wake up and go through my life slowly without thinking about what's going on next. Obviously not everything is sunshine and rainbows and I still get anxious but I never thought such a simple practice would fix so many of my problems.

Did the moms or abby ever disclose if Chloe actually won and abby made sure maddie won on purpose or did maddie actually win irl and they just happened to mess up the scoring? Watching it back I still think Chloe deserved that win. Her turns were beautiful and she really flowed through the movements. Some say Maddie won because she had a front ariel instead of a side which adds more points. Abby was cruel for talking to the director of the competition so maddie could win. I am just confused if it was abbys doing or a genuine mistake.

We all know Chloe wasn't a favourite but I never knew why. At one point she was head to head with maddie and why wouldn't abby want to salvage that and make it healthy competition? Abby made sure maddie would win in the you can vs be anything solos. She called Chloe cocky and yelled at her many times. She made fun of her eye. In a more recent interview she said she never wanted Chloe to win. She asked Chloe to be like maddie more. Like she just had such strong cruelty towards Chloe and loved Maddie more than anything but for what reason?

I don't know much about philosophy but I'm super interested in learning more of it and majoring in it. I'm curious to know some common beliefs philosophers have on things like spirituality,witchcraft,astrology,God. Good vs evil, Karma, fairness and things alongside these topics. I love learning and have learned in great detail on different religions and learned about theories debunking christianity and the logic behind it. My main question is what exactly do philosophers beleive in? I know how complex this subject is so i'm not expecting a black and white answer but I would love to hear any opinions. The reason i'm asking this is because I know philosophy has allot to do with questioning things and the reason of what is and what isn't and there are so many different ideas out there and some say that these are all just man made ideologies.

When I was 14 years old I was starting to get insanely tired all the time. I did competive swimming and had to quit because of the level of fatigue. Around that time I started to get depressed and had horrible brain fog. I took a vitamin test a couple days after my spring break where I spent the whole week tanning. My levels came back at 30ng/ml and everything else was normal.The doctors said that 30 was a perfectly normal and healthy level so I ignored it. Around 4 years later the fatigue, brain fog and depression got worse and I had no idea what was wrong. I even went on a stimulate to try to fix it and I would just end up crashing harder. Over summer I was a lifeguard and would sit in the sun for 5 hours multiple times a week. I live in the hot south too! I got too college and would walk miles every day in the blazing heat and sun and my symptoms were the same. I got my blood levels checked again and my vitamin d came back 26ng/ml. Looking back I realize that is crazy for the amount of sun iv been in. Anyway I started to take 50,000iu a week and it's been around 4 months now and i feel so so much better. I have energy to workout and the ability to focus again. Iv also been way less anxious and depressed. It's crazy how doctors often look past it and brush it off like it's nothing. I'm also curious as to why I don't asorb vitamin d well. I take magnesium and calcium and have been for a while. I don't get tan or burnt easily either.

Hi i'm at the point of my life where I'm figuring out what I wanna do with my life and what I should major in college. Everyone says to do what you love and you're passionate about and I'm obsessed with philosophy. If anyone is into astrology I have a sagittarius midheaven and have always been super into the meaning of life, theories, metaphysics etc. Anyways. I'm super conflicted on majoring in it. I love the subject but obviously the job market is slim and I feel like i'd have to go to grad school if I were to major in it. I also feel like there are no direct jobs in philosophy. Has anyone gotten a philosophy degree and done something useful to it that they enjoy or are there zero jobs out there regarding this major?

Maybe an odd question but I don't live in london or anywhere in the UK and many of my friends don't know who matty is other than the ttpd drama. It seems as if he walks around LA like a normal guy and it has caused no issue for him. At the same time he's also friends with extremely famous people and A list celebrities and the 1975 has tons of listeners.