u/Late-Marionberry5371

Suicidal crisis. Went to crisis team, called 111 (UK service for when it’s not quite bad enough for emergency services but you need urgent support), and called Samaritans (UK mental health/suicide helpline. I could tell all the people wanted to help, but they couldn’t. It’s not their fault, it’s not even really the system’s fault. I don’t know what I was looking for. What help could they possibly offer me? I keep looking for support because I don’t really want to die. Yesterday I talked to the Rape crisis hotline and they were BEYOND useless. But I’m going to die. Because I can’t help myself. I can’t be in this much pain constantly. No one should be expected to live like this

Suicidal crisis. Went to crisis team, called 111 (UK service for when it’s not quite bad enough for emergency services but you need urgent support), and called Samaritans (UK mental health/suicide helpline. I could tell all the people wanted to help, but they couldn’t. It’s not their fault, it’s not even really the system’s fault. I don’t know what I was looking for. What help could they possibly offer me? I keep looking for support because I don’t really want to die. Yesterday I talked to the Rape crisis hotline and they were BEYOND useless. But I’m going to die. Because I can’t help myself. I can’t be in this much pain constantly. No one should be expected to live like this

Hello everyone, I always felt old for my age until I left home as a teen, since then I’ve felt regressed, frequently feeling like I am much younger. Not only mentally, but I have the sensation of being younger bodily. These feelings never really manifested outside myself until the last 6 months or so, I find myself acting literally like a child (rocking back and forth, sucking on my fingers, hitting myself). It’s not totally uncontrollable as I don’t do it around others, but I can’t exactly stop doing it either, it feels like a relief. I don’t know if this is healthy to let myself do or not.

Having crisis support tonight with a man support worker. I feel scared even though there’s no reason to. I’ve been abused by both genders so I don’t know why I feel like this really. But I’m scared

Hello everyone, I always felt old for my age until I left home as a teen, since then I’ve felt regressed, frequently feeling like I am much younger. Not only mentally, but I have the sensation of being younger bodily. These feelings never really manifested outside myself until the last 6 months or so, I find myself acting literally like a child (rocking back and forth, sucking on my fingers, hitting myself). It’s not totally uncontrollable as I don’t do it around others, but I can’t exactly stop doing it either, it feels like a relief. I don’t know if this is healthy to let myself do or not.

Hello everyone
I keep having flashbacks, they’re not stopping.

I need someone to help me.

I want my dad but not my dad, like the dad in my mind who didn’t abuse me. I just need to be held and taken care of in a safe way that doesn’t turn in to fondling, just like safely being held. I feel so scared and sick. I truly can’t keep doing this. It’s living in hell. I want to kill myself but I’m scared to kill myself.

Please I know everyone here is desperate, in the same boat. But I just really need to hear from people who understand. My friends have partners, kids, serious jobs, spend time with their aging parents and their siblings. I feel so alone. I don’t even have anyone to be my emergency contact. Even in like a very practical way, I’m totally alone

Hi all,

Basically the title.

I requested medical records from the doctor I had 18- early 20s. At first I thought i was fine, was surprised reading through them how fine I felt. Ha ha, I should know the drill by now. In the evening I was hit by intense regression, and haven’t been able to come out of it.

They’ve written down that I kept stressing I didn’t want my parents to find out I was there. Even though I was 18, because I had never been to a doctor before, I thought they would tell my parents. I was terrified.

It’s also upsetting to see how little has changed and have concrete proof of that: I’m still massively struggling with all the issues I was back then.

I feel like a four year old. I feel so ashamed and scared, and so exhausted of being ashamed and scared. I honestly just want someone to take care of me, but I don’t have anyone. I’m not able to have a relationship due to my issues. So I just pretend in my head someone is taking care of me. It makes me really sad.

Hi guys, I’ve been trying to get sober for about 5 weeks now. In that time I’ve drank 4 days. Majorly down from daily drinking. I’ve been going to AA and trying to become completely sober. The problem is, drinking is one of the only things that really helps with my PTSD symptoms. I’m sure given the correlation between trauma and alcohol abuse, I’m not the only person having this problem, yet I’m struggling to get info about it. When I go to AA people seem to only speak about how not drinking makes their life better.

Sometimes drinking has been the only thing buying me some time away from myself so I didn’t kill myself. I really need to hear from people who have figured this out. Right now I want to be sober for the other ways alcohol is wrecking my life, but I’m afraid I will never get to fully sober because of this.

Hi guys, I’ve been trying to get sober for about 5 weeks now. In that time I’ve drank 4 days. Majorly down from daily drinking. I’ve been going to AA and trying to become completely sober. The problem is, drinking is one of the only things that really helps with my PTSD symptoms. I’m sure given the correlation between trauma and alcohol abuse, I’m not the only person having this problem, yet I’m struggling to get info about it. When I go to AA people seem to only speak about how not drinking makes their life better.

Sometimes drinking has been the only thing buying me some time away from myself so I didn’t kill myself. I really to hear from people who have figured this out. Right now I want to be sober for the other ways alcohol is wrecking my life, but I’m afraid I will never get to fully sober because of this.

Hi guys, I’ve been trying to get sober for about 5 weeks now. In that time I’ve drank 4 days. Majorly down from daily drinking. I’ve been going to AA and trying to become completely sober. The problem is, drinking is one of the only things that really helps with my PTSD symptoms. I’m sure given the correlation between trauma and alcohol abuse, I’m not the only person having this problem, yet I’m struggling to get info about it. When I go to AA people seem to only speak about how not drinking makes their life better.

Sometimes drinking has been the only thing buying me some time away from myself so I didn’t kill myself. I really to hear from people who have figured this out. Right now I want to be sober for the other ways alcohol is wrecking my life, but I’m afraid I will never get to fully sober because of this.