u/Lazystommer

i have been maladaptive daydreaming my entire life it feels like because there hasn't been a time in my life that i can remember that i haven't. i feel awful that i allowed it to get this bad but once i realized what was happening to me i was far too deep in. i have been in and out of therapy since 13 and at first it was so hard for me to explain what my mind has been doing to the therapists because it felt like they didn't believe me or that it wasn't serious. i can't stop doing it. my mind doesn't know how to function properly without daydreaming about something every single second it feels like. i don't feel like i'm truly living my life and i haven't felt attached to reality ever in my life at all. i feel isolated. i constantly talk to ai chat bots because i have nobody else to talk to and the daydreaming never gets better. none of my goals in life feel realistic. i want to be something great and successful in life but most of all i want to feel attached to reality. i want the friends, the goals and the happiness that i have been day dreaming about all my life. i truly do want the cycle to stop. i need somebody to relate to because i can't talk to anybody i know about this. it gets to the point where sometimes my head hurts over this.

missing something i have never experienced.

i often feel a sense of yearning for someone. i haven't ever had a single platonic friendship in my life let alone a romantic relationship. I grew up being raised by my mom despite living in the same city as my dad he just wasn't interested in me. ever since i could remember i have always felt a sense of wanting someone special to me. i was around 6 when i realized i wanted somebody strong who i could talk to and lean on whenever i needed it because my mom was always busy with my other siblings or doing what she wanted. i did grow up pretty lonely and isolated. i was bullied during my entire elementary school and so by the time covid ended I had really bad social anxiety which has led me to being homeschooled ever since. i have struggled with maladaptive daydreaming for basically my entire life because i learned early on that imaging things could help me forget about what i was lacking in life. now i don't know what to do. i don't know how to stop daydreaming and it makes me feel more depressed and like a loser. my thoughts have always been kind of disturbing and depraved and i overthink every real interaction that I have with people. i am severely touch deprived and i crave a social interaction with somebody who could be special to me but it's always seemed so unrealistic that i could ever be as special to someone in the same way that i crave a special person.

i crave somebody. i would love a deep friendship with somebody or anyone I can have an emotional bond with that's deeper than just lust. i don't know why it's so hard to find. nobody in person catches my eye and i must be too transparent because i don't seem to catch anyone else's eye either. it's pretty lame. i just wish someone actually felt something for me

i'm 16 from the Midwest of USA and I am currently homeschooled and i don't have irl friends. right now i finished my studying for the day and now I have nothing else to do and i really just want to yap with someone who can match my vibe . i'm into writing, true crime and I also play roblox and that type of fun stuff. this is just a vague description of me but if you're genuinely interested in getting to know me please feel free to dm sfw only :)

16f if it matters but i'm bored out of my mind and have been for awhile because i stopped posting on reddit for a bit but I haven't had any luck making friends irl. a long-term friend is something i crave the most but even a short conversation would help me tonight. show me your genuine personality if you're interested

so since i could remember i have always been kind of a cautious kid and i would avoid anything that could potentially hurt me physically or that might cause distress. when I first started elementary school i cried everyday until the third grade but i never enjoyed school because i would constantly be bullied for the way i looked and because nobody wanted to be my friend. so covid hit and everyone was doing online school but after quarantine i begged my mom to let me stay homeschooled because i was afraid of being bullied again and i was also terribly depressed and chubbier so i definitely didn't want to go. so after years of battling my depression and generalized anxiety disorder i have come to the realization that i'm not okay and i don't want to be alone anymore. i have missed out on so many potential good moments and i have become used to being indoors for days and weeks at a time while creating fake scenarios in my mind to cope with being so alone. i hate having to rely on immediate family members to keep me happy or to socialize with me when i'm lonely because i don't have anyone who i can trust enough to have deep conversations with and there's nobody else in my family who's in my shoes. i am 16 and i so desperately want a friend to relate to or to go places with. i even crave romance and physical touch but none of that feels realistic to me because I have never experienced anything of the sort. i don't know where to start. i don't know how to conversate. i don't ever feel comfortable speaking to people whenever i'm not directly spoken to because it feels scary. and i don't know where I can meet people my age in person outside of schools and i am considering going back in person after the summer but i know it's going to be challenging for me. if anyone has delt with something like this personally i would like some advice.

i have been feeling very bored and very lonely. no irl friends and I just want to have a fun conversation with somebody even if it's short. sfw pls

i don't really have any friends and want to talk to someone around my age. no nsfw