I want to ask NHS workers what's happening? I was a teenager during the 00s and my mum was an NHS nurse. The service back then used to be fucking stellar and I might be misrembering but the way the NHS services have gone downhill since the 00s has broken my heart. The way NHS staff are constantly rushing whenever you're in A&E. I watched a man waiting for service for ever and then he started complaining to the nurse about it. Like.....look around man. There was an elderly gent with dementia constantly waiting for a car service and he kept trying to get up. I kept rushing to keep him down so he wouldn't hurt himself and fall. The nurses were very sweet and like you should be a nurse....lol no I couldn't hack it. I see the nurses in the NHS trying. I see them straining. I see the GPS working their buts off. I have no doubts that the doctors/nurses are doing everything they can. I wanted to ask NHS workers. What are the barriers? is it lack of funding? is it red tape? Is it over-subscription? The tory cuts are brutal and doctors and nurses are not paid enough or supported enough IMO. The NHS is being run on sheer goodness and it cannot last. I fear where we are headed with the NHS crumbling at the hands of mismanagement but I speak as someone who has never worked for the NHS.
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I have had two experienes of ST-ing with a local group and my first time was super embarassing. I made a lot of mistakes. I'd like to re-write that memory and get started. I am also really nervous and I don't want to run a game like at set event. I think doing it causually might be better. Do any seasoned STs have any tips for how they got started and built their confidence? I have never ever game modded either so it made my ST debut even trickier and I didn't love the way it was handled by the person teaching me. So .....any tips?
I don’t know if I fully identify as a man. I’ve been on T for one week and ive not hsd top surgery. I’m bisexual and i’ve noticed something….unusually. I’m still attracted to men but now when I speak to them I feel a little different when I talk to them. Im still wildly aware I’m being read as a woman and have no male privelege so I’m still wary when men talk to me. Note I just had a very dark relationship with a cis man so this isnt helping. But…. With women. I complimented à random woman in her 30s, im 33 who was buying a top in a store and she was looking at me and I started blushing like a teenage boy and awakrdly walked away. My attraction to women I’ve been aware of since I was 14. But I went to catholic school and had a homphobic mum. I admitted this to her and she flipped out. I’ve has almost no experience with women. They’ve always… intimidated me and I’m wary of acting like the men in my life who’ve made me uncomfortable. Im also not ready to date, but T is bringing up …. Something I didn’t expect. À deep attraction to femmes. And by femmes I mean transfemmes and cis women. It kind of doesn’t matter. It’s all just… right there. I don’t want to be gross around women now I’m on T.
Is this an unhealthy goal? I'm asking as non-binary person who doesn't aim to pass. I had, and have fears of putting myself in danger by tranistioning and being openly trans. I've just started low-dose T and I'm still scared of what will come when I can't hide behind cis-passing privelege from not transioting. But I've met many people who do not 'pass'/are visibly trans. Whether they started their. transition later in life, whether they're early in their stages of transitioning. The concept of passing to me feels like .....an unhealthy goal. I don't want to upset anyone who really wants to pass and i understand why. But passing for the sake of safety/lack of harrasment vs wanting to be seen as your assigned gender are two very different things. And it makes me sad that that's a pressure on trans people. Passing = privelege but it's not the same as safety. Do any people have thoughts on passing as trans folks and what it really means?
I'm 4th gen armenian/greek. I have often wondered how armenian I look and thought the kardashians look more armenian than I do. But the more I think about it the more I think the kardashians have nipped and tucked their way into looking like 100% american women. There's nothing inheritently wrong with that but I find it a bit.....sad? That they have absolutely given up on their natural looks to become this way. This opinion doesn't just apply to armenians I generally find people who've had plastic surgery quite....uncanny. They frighten me. They don't look human anymore. They look like dollies. Does anyone else get this uncanny valley feeling with people who've had mulitple plastic surgeries? I'm not talking about about one or two ops I mean people who have had many many procedures.
Gordon Cole is a comical character because he is constantly shouting and I won't lie I wasn't sure what to make of the fact that he's just yelling a lot of the time. But he's deaf. His character is played by David Lynch in complete dead-pan and I always took Cole to be....the canary in the mine. He comes to warn Cooper at various points and the scene in the diner with Shelley? He comes in and suddenly.....he can hear her. He can hear every word she says. Gordon Cole is another prophetic/mystical character except this time he represents the FBI. He's the outside world coming into twin peaks. He's coming in with warnings and words and his prescence seems to signal bad tidings. Granted I think I need to watch the series again to think more about his significance. But Gordon Cole took me out from his first scene because he's so bizzare. Every line is delivered very dead-pan with Coop in Season 2, episode 6. But......when he's with Shelley he softens. He suddenly seems alive. He is like...reaching out to the humanity of twin peaks. he interacts with the town. And the moment where Bobby catches Shelley kissing gordon is hilarious 'You are watching two adults sharing a tender moment, brace yourself it's going to happen again'. Anyone got any insights on the creation of gordon? Why david lynch? Why the hearing the aids? Could they be a metaphor for the higher ups being cut off from the world of twin peaks? They are divorced from the reality of the town and its supernatural elements? Is it a television metaphor? I know Lynch doesn't tell people what to think but I'd love to hear people's hot takes on Gordon Cole. Because I really enjoy him as a character but I still feel like I'm not sure what to make of him at times. To me he is the canary in the mine. He comes to deliver bad news to Coop. He comes before Annie is kidnapped and killled. He is the authority figure that brings in the real world crashing down on Cooper's little twin peaks fanatsy. He's there to bring Dale back to reality with a rude awakening. And his shouting is a desperate attempt to communicate to someone with whom doesn't experience the world in the same way. Because Cole is deaf. Cole is both literally deaf and often appears to be at odds with what Coop says/thinks. Again I don't know if I'm pulling this out of my ass. But I have a lot of brain-worms on Gordon Cole and what his periodic appearence in the world of twin peaks means. Let me know what you think of Gordon Cole.
Bobby has the best 'glow up'. He becomes a good man. He goes from kneiving little shit who isn't much better than Leo into a good man. Just like his dad wanted. His arch in the return is so heart-warming and I was proud of our boy. In original series he proved over and over he was just....a slicker, more handsome kind of Leo. Also exploited Shelley. also treated her like crap. And I was so proud to see him. I've only been re-watching the return recently and I need to go back and finish it but his arch made me so happy. Major Briggs is one of my favourite characters and I was really sad he couldn't be in the Return because of the passing of the actor but it made for a really good arch for bobby. I love that David Lynch decided to put some of his characters in status and some he allowed to grow. It was very strange. I still need to watch more of the return to really form a full opinion on it.
Been getting coughy and I feel like I’m losing my voice. Ive also been vaguely sniffy bjt ive hot hay fever. I thiught I was getting sick but someone told me it might be T cold bc my vocal cords are changing. I’ve been on low dose for a week so I don’t know if it hsppens thar fast. I can’t sing as well atm. My throat feels tight. Is this…. Usual for t? I didn’t get warned about this by my clinic.
Sent me presents for my birthday which nice but she insisted on using my deadname. And I'm like........i don't want to start a damn fight over this but damn. It's not a reach. I picked something that literally is used by many cis women and isn't silly.....and she still won't use it. I can't force her hand on this front. I've also started T and I'm not telling her. I don't know what to do. I don't live with her so she can't stop me but generally dealing with her is impossible because she makes everything about her. My being on T and being trans is another thing she'll decide to get pissy about if I don't tell her. But also.....not telling her because she announced at xmas she's a terf and is upset that her friends daughter came out as transfemme. I met this woman once and I called the egg.....felt bad at the time but when she came out I felt relieved I wasn't being judgemental. I don't know what she changed her name to but she's on hormones now and hopefully she's happier. My step-mum absolutely won't understand and already is hard to deal with. I don't know what to do. I don't want to tell her but I'm afraid I'll get more shit if I don't.