Drug addiction, high demanding job, and depression/anxiety
Hello everyone! I’m a 23m for reference.
I live with roommates. I’m not one to complain and I genuinely hate feeling like a “victim”, and I think I harbor a lot of self hatred for the way I’ve been feeling lately. I work in sales, I’m making about 80-90k a year and quickly heading for 6 figure territory. I’m super stressed/depressed. I’m making great money for my age, but I’m spending anywhere from 1-2k a month on drugs. It just keeps getting worse. I’m headed for a collapse and it feels like all I can do is watch. I’ve grown very accustomed to the lifestyle I live and I can’t imagine taking this drastic of an income hit while I get my shit together.
My issue is that I’m fully dependent on drugs. Opiates to be specific. I’ve always had depression and very bad social anxiety (I’m diagnosed autistic when I was 21) and I cannot function unless I’m blitzed. My income drops to probably the 40-60k range if I’m sober. I just have such bad crippling social angst. I guess I’m just ranting. I don’t know. I know what the comments are gonna be. Anyways, anyone in a similar situation?