Friend is too much of a shut in for me to be happy being his friend
I, a 20 year old guy, met my best friend in 4th grade.
we've been best friends for like 11 years.
same age as me yet i feel like we've grown to be two incredibly different people past the point where we can happily be friends lest something change.
i, over the course of the past few years just evolved to be more open minded, willing to do stuff just because, willing to try new things, learn new skills, and to not make a big deal of what doesnt need it.
I've grown to wish to be a person who lives life rather than sits by as a product of it.
My friend has grown to be the total opposite.
In his room all day, and he never does anything.
theres always some reason why he cant do something.
Every time i have a "Hey we should do X" it gets shut down and he *never* openly speaks of just stuff we should do.
every hangout is just us at his house doing the same stuff we do every time.
He'd rather drive to a gas station to get snacks every other night than come to my place to do something different once.
He's convinced he'd get in trouble for doing shit, he lets people walk all over him and is basically the errand boy for everyone in his home.
He's so worried about stuff that goes wrong that even though it doesnt, he never does anything for risks that arent even real.
He's always tired, his "social battery" is always empty. which i get that but its not like he's helping himself. He actively pays for a gym membership yet never goes and is constantly getting terrible sleep and is terribly overweight and does *nothing* about it. ive tried in the past to help but after getting repeatedly shut down over and over again I just cant in good faith help someone who chooses not to be helped.
90% of the time when i try explaining to him that no, his entire world wont fall apart just because he chose to go somewhere and do something with his free will, or to fix the issues that he openly stated he doesnt like about himself, he'll get super defensive and mad at me and it ends with me just saying "yeah, man" and then we go like it didnt happen.
Anything that has him get off of his ass to do something for any reason outside of it being mandated, isnt worth it. He'd rather sit there watching youtube shorts for hours than have a decent conversation for 5 minutes.
i used to think he was my ride or die but at this point im pretty sure he wouldnt even show up.
And i cant just end a friendship because im the only one making an effort for us to do anything, for us to experience life together, and actually be there for the other.
And im pretty much his only friend.
He has a few friends from college(or just one, i cant remember but still) but i know they dont talk on the same level we do. he's known said friends for 6 months and i for 11 years.
And i know that for him to put himself out there to actively become closer friends with someone is basically never gonna happen since he's as social as a rock.
So if i cut it here, i feel like im actively making a decision that hurts him but this friendship just isnt what it used to be and i feel like none of my efforts to be a best friend are even acknowledged in anyway.
Just dont know what to do or how to tell him how i feel and how we can fix things because i dont see it getting better without him knowing how it actually is.