u/LostRaspberry5457

Take it off

Smoke and mirrors

The games I wouldpn't play

Manipulation i saw through

The excuses

The "no-show"

The. delays

The ghosting

The breadcrumbs

The eyes always watching , everything i say, where I go, who I interact with, and see on screenall

The one's chosen over me

The push and pull

The magyk thrown my way

The nasty words spoken behind my back

The anger at me with no cause

This is a manual that I received a long time ago go. It describes "the mask" you wear, the one you've chosen to stay in, the one that keeps you stuck on repeat. You wonder why your numb, bored, youve built walls so high thinking its protection. Its not, its keeping you in this tiny world where you are no longer at the helm. Lack of new experiences, new people only hinders new thoughts, new ideas and creativity! Instead you have been slowly succumbing to a world of fear. It grows like a cancer in your brain and keeps into your body.

I've been fortunate to see you without the mask. The first time I saw a great king, a leader, a man with great integrity and stood solid in his authentic self. A man with great passion and stood on solid ground on his core beliefs. Being you, just you is the most beautiful thing i've ever known. Your mask is your ego and it has caused you more pain, struggle and that constant yearning for satisfaction. That's what drives your impulsive behavior, the urge to feel satisfied, which never happens. Numb! That's what you get, more and more numb. It makes me sad to see the man I love hold onto a mask so tightly, when he should be holding me.

I don't like you in this moment, you weren't being nice. However, I am on solid ground with my love, and I've not once wavered on how I feel. Take it as u wish, do with it as you want. However, look deep and choose the path that suites you. I'll not stand in your way, look closely i am not the enemy. Just because I choose me and no longer allow others in my energy that treat me poorly. I have been patient, translucent, vulnerable, kind and l will always love you. However, i draw the line has been drawn. It's your choice as to how we proceed (u always want to control the outcome and share your version with your fans, so now they can see clearly that there aren'tany victims here, just choices)

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u/LostRaspberry5457 — 1 day ago

Take it off

Smoke and mirrors

The games I wouldpn't play

Manipulation i saw through

The excuses

The "no-show"

The. delays

The ghosting

The breadcrumbs

The eyes always watching , everything i say, where I go, who I interact with, and see on screenall

The one's chosen over me

The push and pull

The magyk thrown my way

The nasty words spoken behind my back

The anger at me with no cause

This is a manual that I received a long time ago go. It describes "the mask" you wear, the one you've chosen to stay in, the one that keeps you stuck on repeat. You wonder why your numb, bored, youve built walls so high thinking its protection. Its not, its keeping you in this tiny world where you are no longer at the helm. Lack of new experiences, new people only hinders new thoughts, new ideas and creativity! Instead you have been slowly succumbing to a world of fear. It grows like a cancer in your brain and keeps into your body.

I've been fortunate to see you without the mask. The first time I saw a great king, a leader, a man with great integrity and stood solid in his authentic self. A man with great passion and stood on solid ground on his core beliefs. Being you, just you is the most beautiful thing i've ever known. Your mask is your ego and it has caused you more pain, struggle and that constant yearning for satisfaction. That's what drives your impulsive behavior, the urge to feel satisfied, which never happens. Numb! That's what you get, more and more numb. It makes me sad to see the man I love hold onto a mask so tightly, when he should be holding me.

I don't like you in this moment, you weren't being nice. However, I am on solid ground with my love, and I've not once wavered on how I feel. Take it as u wish, do with it as you want. However, look deep and choose the path that suites you. I'll not stand in your way, look closely i am not the enemy. Just because I choose me and no longer allow others in my energy that treat me poorly. I have been patient, translucent, vulnerable, kind and l will always love you. However, i draw the line has been drawn. It's your choice as to how we proceed (u always want to control the outcome and share your version with your fans, so now they can see clearly that there aren'tany victims here, just choices)

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u/LostRaspberry5457 — 1 day ago
▲ 2 r/FearfulAvoidants+1 crossposts

You like to stomp on that one boundary, the only one I ever spoke to you about. Well, thank you again for a lesson in healing that from my past! me allowing you the opportunity to stand me up and leave me hanging, taking a whole evening waiting on you. You who doesn't see my worth, you who turns a blind eye to my love, kindness and the amazing woman I have become. You who pushes me away, knocks me down and speaks lies on my name. I am OK with it, I have learned the most lessons from you and I am grateful to you. The bully, the boy ruling the man, the runner and the one who said he loves me, the one with a non-stop excuse of why... I heard every one and i pondered each of them. I came to a solid conclusion, I'm just not one to live my life on excuses. I want to experience life, even if it hurts, at least I'll know that the outcome is based on the choices I made. Choices I made, not a partner acting out of fear, "what if'", or excuses. I may not make the best choices, and that's okay. I will take accountability and hold truth and wisdom in knowing, that I AM Captain of my vessel, I am the controller and nothing or nobody is taking the wheel. control is only sought by those living in fear, I have no desire or need for control. Peace

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u/LostRaspberry5457 — 24 days ago