Both of them( A n K ) are in relationship rn , A is kinda been a long time in relationship but K is new to it just few months and bhaiiiiiii 😭 he talk to her so much , i woke up and he was talking to her , he is in college so he was on video call with her all the time while getting ready and even when going to college . Later he talks to her in college ( he is in some medical course and during their hospital service or some time he gets free ) and then he talks while coming back if she is free obviously. And fuckkk bhaii 😭 he talks to her in the evening and even while making food or having dinner . Itna wtf do they talk 😭. And The A is . Gotta go I'll tell ya later ( I am so freaking jealous 😭😭😭😭)
My preference list is :
Mbm - cse
Mbm - Ai ds
Mbm - IT
CTAE - Cse
CTAE - Ai
Skit - cse
Jecrc - cse
I got Skit cse but now I am getting to know that it's kinda strict n jecrc is better than skit .
Should I apply for upward or just accept my fate
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Long story short I have prepared for jee for 4 yrs ( 11th 12th + 2 drop ) took cuet ug as backup too . For some reasons i didn't do well in these exams .
**So i got Deshbandhu Bsc Hons maths thru Cuet**
**And SKIT CSE BTECH jaipur Thru Reap ( mock allotment me kal 100% sure hoke btata hu)**
**Toh i am confused what should I choose**
**I like maths , and umm idk what else to mention here so u can ask me**
**Deadline is 29 😭😭😭**
**( Dont tell me i should choose what I like cuz idk and I am freaking moody guy , i chose to take double drop cuz I was getting bored 😭)**
Urgent situation️ guys⚠️⚠️⚠️
Long story short I have prepared for jee for 4 yrs ( 11th 12th + 2 drop ) took cuet ug as backup too . For some reasons i didn't do well in these exams .
**So i got Deshbandhu Bsc Hons maths thru Cuet**
**And SKIT CSE BTECH jaipur Thru Reap ( mock allotment me kal 100% sure hoke btata hu)**
**Toh i am confused what should I choose**
**I like maths , and umm idk what else to mention here so u can ask me**
**Deadline is 29 😭😭😭**
**( Dont tell me i should choose what I like cuz idk and I am freaking moody guy , i chose to take double drop cuz I was getting bored 😭)**
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I am fucked up, I am at the worst phase of my life .
I fucked up carrer wise
I am fucked looks wise
I am fucked physique wise .
I gave my best , prepared for jee for 4 fucking years ( 11th , 12th n 2 drops ) but fuckkkkkk where am I now , from being the topper to average. I chose cuet as backup thought kuchh to hoga but fuck my kismat , fuck the NTA , fucking hell wo bhi Fucked up ho gaya saala paper hi 3 hr baad chaalu Kiya NTA teri mkc .
I fucking got the worst genes possible, everyone in my family whether dad's side or mom's side is atleast 5'10 or 6 normally but fuckkkkkk me I am just 5'7 chalo i thought that's fine but fuckkkk then i got the hairfall and I am just 18 . My hairs are almost gone . Like fuckkkkk I got that mom's height was short so i inherited it but whyyyy hairfall, receding hairline why can't i inherit hairs from mom side why dad's side. Fucking hell . Chalo i thought I'll be fine but nooooo I am not fine i gave up on hairs for studies fuckkk me i lost both fir i thought I'll focus on hairs next month's se when I join clg then I'll see a dermatologist n all but fuckkk something happened at home and i fucking too tension n all i m losing my hairs so much everytime I put my hands in hairs they fall fuckkkkk . I get that i should see a dermatologist n buy minoxidil n all but fuckkk me i dont keep money on my own and i don't wanna ask parents for money ( not becuz they won't give but i just don't like that's why I was waiting to join clg and i m from rural - urban area yk not fully a city but also not a village so everyone just fucking keep commenting like fuckkkkk.
I got no skills nothing. No social , communication, technical physical nothing at all
Fuckkkkkkkk i Fucking stopped talking to my friend as to not get disturbed n now I got no friends 😭😭😭 i never been to relationship, i never tried bunking classs I m so boring my life was boring af I m feeling so shitty .
As mentioned I am confused af .
I want to study mathematics further like msc phd level type shit but my marks are low af 😫 ( dont ask why i have already told so many times ) so i chose Bsc Hons maths Bsc Hons Stats and Bsc prog mathematical sciences as courses to do , but now I can't arrange the order of clg cuz I know nothing Abt du n all ( I have been preparing for jee for last 2 yr this was backup) so what am I supposed to do now
Just as mentioned I am 19M and I am scared and panicking. I haven't really cared Abt hair 😭 ( ik my fault but that's just the kind of place I grew up ) . I thought it will be fine , but no it's not fine 😭. I dont wanna go bald , I'll be joining clg in next month and I am scared , my confidence has hit rock bottom.Pls Tell me what should I do . Ik nothing Abt haircare n all .