Is this normal? Or if not what is it???
Apologies if this is not an adequate forum to discuss this. If this is true, please disregard.
I have times when I like look in the mirror or a photo and be like that's not me when like it is me but it genuinely doesn't feel right like something's off? Or like I'm sitting somewhere and I look at me legs or hands or smthn and I'm like those aren't mine or sitting and are like I'm not supposed to be here, like this isn't my body? And also like I sometimes will feel like I'm looking at everything in 3rd person??? It's so weird. It used to happen like rarely but it's almost everyday now. And it genuinely throws me for a loop. And it'll happen with places sometimes too or other people? Like "you look like so and so but something's wrong you can't be" or "this might look like this place but it's lying". And also I have the constant feeling of "they're lying, waiting to trick me and watch me fall" with almost everyone. Even super close people and strangers. I feel like the latter is just me being paranoid??? But I genuinely have times when I have to find ways to remind myself I'm human, and in the past that had resulted in SH as I could see and sometimes feel the things reminding myself I'm me. But sometimes it's not just that I'll see myself in the mirror but I'd be so convinced it's not me. It really shakes me to the core especially looking back at times. :P anywho anyone else get this? Or like if I'm crazy anyone know anything about it so I can research it? My therapist is currently not responding to me pfft (summer Vaca since I use one through a college)
I've spoken with a friend who commonly dissociates but they said they experience some of that but the not believing you are who you see or the places or other people is definitely not it.
I just wanted more input and possibly a bit of guidance if anyone does know what it is or just simply I'm fine and I need to get over myself??? Haha thank you!
Also, I will add if this add to anything that I do have BPD, only been diagnosed for about a year now as my parents don't believe in mental disorders. So if that ends up playing int it, ig there it is? BPD along with severe depression, anxiety, and Anorexia but I don't think those play into it. I have yet to be tested for ADHD or Autism. Haha thank you