u/Medical-Beginning783

Currently a CNA at mission and it’s destroying me. I’d prefer to work with families independently. Does anyone here have experience with that? I don’t know where to start. Just trying to leave mission man…

For context I’m a 23 year old female.I swear they (staff)do this on purpose. He has thrown stuff at me, threatened me, called me profanities. All of this is fine tbh but it’s the lack of nurses in the general area and he’s aware of it. They have yet to respond to my assignment change request. 8 hours to go. Heart rate is currently 160 a min 😭

Fuck man. I thought i would thrive in my twenties but i feel like im going backwards. It’s like im missing the part of my brain that makes me care about anything. I’m 20k in credit card debt because I’m irresponsible. I rely on coke to get me through my days. I’m behind with multiple payments. I don’t eat right. I don’t drink water. I’m so unhappy. The thing is, i know what i need to do to change, i just haven’t put in the effort to do it. I’ve lost all motivation. My job is killing me. I’m scared. I’m not living up to my expectations and I’m aware of it. I feel stuck in my bullshit. The only thing going for me is that I’m working in healthcare, which is my passion but I’m starting to feel burnt out because i have to work two jobs to survive. I need to do better. I know I’m better than this. I’m tired of going backwards. I had a giant wake up call recently about how my actions are affecting my future. Thank you for listening. Peace to you all.

Edit: i have already reached out to my old therapist who has really helped me in the past, and have started reaching out to credit card companies to come up with payment plans. I will get through this.

Already late with vitals and blood sugars before breakfast and two full assists decide to shit themselves at the same time. I’m the only tech on the floor. I can’t believe I’m here until 7.

I love bonding with my little old ladies. Seeing them proud of themselves when we celebrate moments of independence. How about yall?

I guess i could’ve googled this but id prefer to communicate with a real person. I’m in an online class, however there is no direct instructor. Was hoping that i could ask for some pointers here. I’m learning the signs well, along with basic questions and statements. However, I’m having trouble putting signs together and asking my own questions because I’m so used to English syntax. I’m trying to efficiently learn so i can effectively communicate with patients of mine who are hard of hearing and/or deaf. Thank you.