u/MeinSchwert

I don’t rly cut for attention but there’s someone i know and see often due to us having the same friends and they’re scars are way deeper and more profound than mine which are visible. I have a lot of 6 month old deep cuts on my stomach and hips but my arms have gone untouched for years due to parental inspections, plus they were all pretty superficial. you can tell it was self harm but from across the room you’d see nothing. i feel like im getting hustled by this person solely for them visibly just having more scars. it’s a shitty reason to get upset and i realize that i probably do this shit for attention, positive and negative, but i’m really trying to stay clean for someone but opening instagram and seeing massive scars on someone i know makes me want to find my fucking bones. i don’t want to cut and bleed anymore, i’ve cut on hips so deep and so much it hurts just to walk for more than 5 minutes but i don’t know what to do.