They don't even matter...
I made it 3 days, its not even r3al sh, it only hurts a little and burns, they bleed but not for long, I can't cut deeper with what im using... I feel so dramatic and stupid
I’ve been cutting myself every day recently, problem is, i’m going on vacation in a hotel where there’s a beach with my family in 4 days. The cuts aren’t going away. It’s on the top of the thigh.
Any ideas on how i can hide it when i’m in a swimsuit ? Or any excuse i could give ?
Thank you so much !
I have self harmed before a few months ago, with a needle, I wrote bulky letters, filling them in. A few days ago I was given razors by a friend, so I decided to cut again, I got cat scratches first, until I came across how to cut deeper, and my friend also told me how she does it, so i cut deep, and then I cut deeper, did baby beans, then wasn’t sure what to do, put gauze and gauze tape over it, and had to rip it off a bit ago, I then stitched up the wound, at first it was going good, until I just kinda started doing whatever which I could’ve followed a more professional approach but I didn’t, I’m dumb. I hope it heals, I hope this fits here.
For anyone wondering I am fine now, I got stitches. I usually only do fascia/beans so this was an interesting experience, didn‘t hurt as much as I thought it would.
i go to the park every single day for fun, i stay there for hours and i have bad scars from the swing itself, i keep picking at it and it always bleeds, burns and stings very bad
(this is on my thigh)
how bad is the scar would you say, and how can i help it recover
does anyone know if it would be safe to put makeup on these to hide them? i did them this morning. it's about 7 or 8 hours old. they aren't bleeding anymore either.
I somewhat recently started cutting, nothing super deep more cat scratches than anything, but I’ve been making do with what I have so currently I’m cutting with a cheese knife 🤦🏽♀️ - picture of almost the exact same one I have
What would anyone recommend to help the healing process? Would using a razor blade or some other thing help the cut be smoother and less jagged and have a less painful/itchy scab?
i didn’t mean to even break skin last night, i just wanted to lightly feel the blade to help calm me down but ended up pressing down a bit. this obviously isn’t that deep but i’ve never cvt on my shoulder before and need to know if there’s certain things i need to do to help with the healing. atm i just have antibacterial cream on it with a bandaid.
Idk how to stop. I'm doing my best not to reach muscle again but it doesn't hurt enough I'm not satisfied.
I mean what even is this shit.
Also does anybody know why the bottom one is so orange? There was some liquid before blood came, why?
And at what depth does sh leave scars (hypertrophic scars)?
Ok so does anyone have tips on how to stop fresh cuts from burning so bad 🥹🥹🥹
i feel disgusting
Right leg carries a mix of scars as old as 6 months and as new as within the month. My arm scars are from 3 years ago.
For some reason the right leg has been developing skin infection after skin infection. They get huge and swollen and full of pus and I squeeze it out then more come. I’m guessing it’s because of the sheer amount of wounds in one area have caused my immune system to give up. Any suggestions or what this is/ how to avoid it would be much appreciated.
first time posting here.
i feel like a unloved piece of shit 💔
I know this message will probably be deleted given its content, and ts is why I use a throw-away account.
I've been stuck in a cycle of SH since multiple years. I've never actually been able to get rid of it, despite my efforts, and I've been doing impulsive and dangerous acts out of instantaneous stress/frustration. I was tired by all the hiding and the shame and the "What am I doing, I have to stop!" circus. And despite always thinking "No, this is bad, self harm is bad, you should'nt do it" I couldn't restrain my movement from harming myself.
I tried talking to close ones, because "talking about it" is the primary advice people always give. But let's face it, it's very naive vision of things. People are not infinitely kind and patient, if you complain too much, and show them too much of your problems, they'll tell you to fuck off while therapy requires time and money I don't have. And from my personal experience, having to regularly attend therapy can be a source stress by itself.
Anyway, after so much time and so many relapses, I've come to my own conclusion : I've accepted my SH as part of my life from now on. It'll never "heal", it'll never disappear. It'll just be there, as a part of my functioning, no matter what people think of my decision. And god, god, GOD knows I've been feeling so much better since I've made that decision.
I'm not ashamed anymore, since I've accepted SH as part of me. I don't feel post-SH guilt, because I've acknowledged it does make me feel better, and admitted it does help me regulate my mood. When I'm too stressed, angry, sad, when I feel an overwhelming feeling that prevents me from working, or that is socially not acceptable, I have a way to quickly get rid of it so that I stay in some acceptable state, whether it's for focusing on a given task or avoid social exclusion.
Strangely, realizing I won't have exterior help somehow gave me hope. Because now, instead of being obsessed with conforming to a "non self-harmer" lifestyle, I can instead use it to get through life.
I understood that when my close ones told me to stop SH while crashing out on me when I try to talk about my problems than self-harming, they are more worried about me conforming to social norms than my actual pain. They don't especially care about me being alright, they just don't want to see "ugly scars", or know that I "mutilate my body". As long as I they don't see my pain, they're fine with it. And I mean, I'm human, I'm a social creature, I can't live in eternal loneliness. What I can do, however, is find a way to feel better without making them live a negative experience. That's what I've done.
Tbh, I'm not angry at people because they don't want to hear me rant all day long. I'm mad at them because they tell me they can be a shoulder to cry on just to reject you when trying to seek comfort. I'm fine with people not wanting to comfort me or take my pain, but be honest then, be straightforward. Just say "I don't want to hear about your problems, if you want to complain about something, don't do it with me". And I'll be fine with it, as long as those same people acknowledge I still need something to manage my mood, and don't interfere with my SH. "I don't care about your well-being, but don't SH" is just imposing a standard, not giving actual help. Listen, if you don't want to hear about my problems, that's okay, but then don't order me around like you actually care, stop pretending.
Now that I have this new mindset, I'm not trying to stop SH anymore, I'm seeking people that'll understand my way of functioning and let SH when I need to, because excepting them to tank all my negative emotions is unrealistic. As long as they don't have to see my sessions or my injuries, they don't get to be mad at me, in my opinion, because that's the best I can do to stay in an acceptable state while not being a burden to them.
I don't want to be healed anymore, because I never will, I want to be understood.