u/Melodic-Singer605

Just really really frustrated, it's like I wanna have someone i give my all too but there is no such person out there, and it all feels even shitier when I have an awful day, feel like shit, and nobody, literally nobody cares enough to ask if something is wrong, not even the people I try to always be there for, be it family or friends

I am tired of being there for someone or the other expecting reciprocity just to get none and at this point? I just wanna ... I don't even know man, it feels like noone gives a fuck, I wanna run away and not talk to anyone, cut everyone off, but then again, I am weak.. I don't think I could even if I try, one "hi" is all it will take for me to be back

Recently just got out of a "situation" so to say, just a lot of ghosting, then reappearing, and then ghosting again (obviously from a self proclaimed "clingy" girl, lasted for a month or two), and while this wasn't my only such experience, but this one did hit a bit hard for a few reasons-

1. On the first thought of someone "clingy" being interested in me, as an actually clingy guy I was convinced that this was it, as stupid as it may be.

2. I didn't used to talk to many people cuz well, I was a bit fat, and my self esteem was shit (used to get bullied for the fat), but then i burnt all the fat and joined the gym, and this was the first person I was talking to like that after my self esteem went up. So getting ghosted did send me straight down.

And well, even outside of that, I just feel very empty, in an uncomfortable way.

Like I have all this that i must express to someone special, but there is no one special right now.

Well, i was talking to this girl a few months ago, lots of texts, started with "you're clingy and obsessive too? Same here!"

I felt like I found someone I could genuinely be unfiltered and intense with, but in some weeks, she got irregular, chugged it up to be temporary, but then I started getting ghosted, multiple weeks on end,

I tried to "distract" myself (if you can even call it that) by trying to talk to other people, texting people i hadn't texted for months, but I would go back to her every time, a checkup text, then two, then 3, and soon, too many

But well, I finally grew a pair today, she replied a few days ago, something vague about "something came up", and I did respond, but got ghosted again, and that was it for me,

I deleted the chat, and blocked her, not sure if it's the correct move, but it felt right, and currently, I feel like I have a tad bit more control on who I go crazy for.

I am probably still a clingy , i still have some trust issues, I would still cling like hell, but atleast not to her anymore...

With every interaction with people in general, I get a reminder that I have still not found someone to love, or to obsess over, and I wanna do it so badly...

Idk man, I just want someone who is obsessive like me, who won't let you breath, and I do know that it's not gonna randomly happen, but I can't help but hope that it somehow does, i don't really care how..

And about it not being good for you? I know it's not, but at this moment, I couldn't care less

Idk man, tons of larpers, not necessarily here, but in general

They'll come guns blazing about how "obsessive" or "clingy" they are, but it wouldn't take more than a couple days to see the inner larper in them..

Bruh, say normal things and go to normal people if you can't do intense, that's perfectly fine, why all the yapping?

Got around 3.3k rank in wbjee (home state-west bengal) and I was curious what is the best option I can get though it given that I am not exactly interested in the CS grind and currently, the managemental path seems really interesting to me...

Well, I am not gonna stay in wb and will be soon headed to Bangalore (got a decent enough rank in comedk), but I was curious about my options,

Idk man, I am trying to be more social, hang out with different people, meet new people and so on, but it's like, nothing is happening, noone seems "correct", noone seems to be on the same frequency as me, and all i can think about is her, which is, really really stupid cuz I will probably never see her again, no point obsessing over her,

Idk man, I guess I am just trying to find someone worth getting obsessed over, moral implications aside, but everyone looks like a no go

Have been pulling the nonchalant gimmick for a couple weeks, but cortisol just spiked with 5 minutes till 4

I mean, out and out stalking could be troublesome morally and legally, but it's only bad as long as it's non consensual right?

All you have to do is to find someone who doesn't mind it, and that should make it fine...

Welp, I am a dude, 18, and always had this, idk, kinda inkling, never understood why "trust" cuz like, how can you trust someone who isn't you? The only way is to be just, weird as fuck, just hold them so close that they can't leave no? I mean, it's how i see it atleast, so I do know, that if and when I do love, it will be the obsessive kind, not out and out yandere cuz I can atleast control when not to love, but I really really fucking wanna,

As in, I just wanna be that weird ass dude who is on phone 24 7 with the exact details of what's up, and I want my partner to also be like that, and if they aren't, I am sure there must be something I could do about it

But what makes it difficult? Well, I am introverted as shit, can't bring myself to talk to new people for the life of me🫩, and you gotta atleast talk for something to click no?

Got around 61 marks in wbjee, not sure exactly how much cuz I didn't check the response sheet (i cant anymore dawg 😔🥀) could be a couple more, could be a couple less,

What rank should I expect? A best case possible and a worst case possible

I got around 61 in wbjee, and was curious if any branch in JU is possible for me

Recently finished 12th with 84% (PCM) (not as well as I would have liked ,due to a number of personal reasons) and 95.6% in 10th. JEE didn’t go the way I wanted, but during the whole process I realized I’m much more interested in management/business-oriented roles than pure software or coding paths.

Right now I’ll most likely be joining RVCE for Industrial Engineering & Management through COMEDK (could get Mech too, but IEM interests me more). That also means I’d eventually fall into the “GEM” category for CAT.

My plan still remains to focus heavily on skills, internships, projects and employability during college, get real work experience through internships, perhaps even get a job right after college, but ig now the idea of possibly pursuing an MBA later (through CAT, GMAT, or another route depending on where things go) has also entered my thoughts

What I’m trying to understand is

As a GEM candidate with these academics, how realistic are top Indian Business schools if I perform very well in CAT later? Or would you rather recommend international schools despite the much higher fees?

What should I actually focus on during college if management/strategy/business roles are the long-term direction?

Is work experience before MBA generally the better route in my situation? Also, I head somewhere about certain companies financing an MBA degree for an employee they deem valuable, is that really a possibility in the Indian job market or is it more of a western thing or another extremely rare occurrence?

Would appreciate honest guidance from people who’ve gone through this path.

Recently finished 12th with 84% (PCM) (not as well as I would have liked ,due to a number of personal reasons) and 95.6% in 10th. JEE didn’t go the way I wanted, but during the whole process I realized I’m much more interested in management/business-oriented roles than pure software or coding paths.

Right now I’ll most likely be joining RVCE for Industrial Engineering & Management through COMEDK (could get Mech too, but IEM interests me more). That also means I’d eventually fall into the “GEM” category for CAT.

My plan still remains to focus heavily on skills, internships, projects and employability during college, get real work experience through internships, perhaps even get a job right after college, but ig now the idea of possibly pursuing an MBA later (through CAT, GMAT, or another route depending on where things go) has also entered my thoughts

What I’m trying to understand is

1. As a GEM candidate with these academics, how realistic are top Indian Business schools if I perform very well in CAT later? Or would you rather recommend international schools despite the much higher fees?
2. What should I actually focus on during college if management/strategy/business roles are the long-term direction?
3. Is work experience before MBA generally the better route in my situation? Also, I head somewhere about certain companies financing an MBA degree for an employee they deem valuable, is that really a possibility in the Indian job market or is it more of a western thing or another extremely rare occurrence?

Would appreciate honest guidance from people who’ve gone through this path.

I didn't have the courage to calculate the marks till today, but after a lot of pestering from dad, finally got to calculating, and outside of bonus questions (if any) am getting around 63...

Used to average 90-100 in mocks... Not sure if there is any chance for JU... I mean, I might get JU, but I want production engineering in specific, will probably drop till metallurgy, but that's it, but well, it is what it is,

What rank do you think could I get at this?

It's weird as hell, cuz all my exams are done, so theoretically, now I am supposed to have fun, but I lowkey feel guilty for having fun...

Like bahut bura lagta hai ki besharam ke jaise time waste kar raha hu 🥹

Anyone else feeling something similar?

Tbh the maths was very ridiculous, probably on the mains level (some might argue it was even worse than mains this year),

I have given the previous year papers as mocks, and I am being fully honest when I say that a WBJEE maths paper has never been this difficult, the cutoff will and should drop, i saw people who scored 99%ile in mains but could only attempt 32 marks worth of maths,

Dont try to discuss marks vs rank cuz noone knows the exact numbers, anyone claiming to do is trying to farm karma

Hours till i go to sleep, but i still feel weird with that forgot this forgot that's shit,

And , honestly I am not even stressed anymore, I just feel like I forgot everything i studied in the past few years and can't imagine myself solving anything, thinking is a drag...

I mean i do have good backups, but idk man, no longer feeling super confident about Jadavpur