u/MirrorIntelligent398

Hi 👋
So i m planning to practice cbt i but the problem is that i ve been taking medications for anxiety and insomnia laroxyl and serroquel for a long time and it stoped working effectively so we increased the doses and now i m in the roof for my age and i m scared cause i don t want to take more meds and more doses also i don t want to take meds for my whole life
Please if anyone tried cbt i while he is taking meds please help me figure it out as well
My goal is to be able to sleep naturally without meds

I just hit a certain reality that no one cares about me especially since the beggining de ma soufrance étant plus jeune à maintenant où je suis jeune encore mais voila dans mes debut de vingtaine but I m so weak and vulnerable
A decision is gonna make me either want to live or die
I swear i feel like i can t live with a negative respond to somethibg related to my future i think i might intoxicate myself with meds and i m afraid of what the decision will be cause it is gonna dictate either i m gonna live or die
I speaked up i explained myself i gived the arguments
But if they refuse to help me then they re basically gonna kill me

Like i’m shocked bli makayn 7ta ressource inside morocco we can chat with or call en moment de détresse and of huge anxiety and thoughts of s*****e z3ma ina lilah wa ina ilayhi raji3on anyways i did my best to explain without using the word . Bla manssde3 l entourage diali awla nass like khass ykono des services b7al hakka payed not by me but by dawla it should be free but of course machi lilah fi ssabili lah bien sure khass kima 9lt dawla tkhless cause if u know u know life is hard as fuck and makayn la 7nin la r7im bnadem psychopathe kaychoufek machi tal lhil kayd7ed 3liik awla kay9ol lik chi 7ajja katzid tzmerha 3liik w chaat la 3ala9a kayzid ykmel 3liik 9assaman billah ila wlit kan7ess brassi kanss3a les droits diali
I m so disappointed by everything and everyone
And oui kanmchi 3nd psychiatre w i tried so many and i m as i sayed super disappointed

Ok so i have already posted here before .
Well i m getting suicidal and i can t open up to anyone in my circle cause i m afraid they might add to my pain cause i have already done an attempt it is been years now for another reason
But now it is because insomnia ruined my future and my potential
And i wanted to do a white year we call it année blanche but it is too late i guess even though i have my reasons
Anyways nobody could give me this chance to live properly
It really means a lot to me
But they wouldn t want to help me
And now it is unbearable pain life is really unfair and i feel beyond sad
I can t escape this pain and i m thinking of a forever escape and a long sleep

Hi everyone . I’m looking for help about this topic .i know that there are plenty of solutions . I myself reached for psychiatric help my doctor gave me some meds and they have worked until they are not working anymore .why ? Because with my situation :

-studying in a university where not assisting is punished so i have to always try my best to assist or else i will be banned from passing rattrapage or i have to go to a doctor and pay money for a certificate to justify my absence .

-also i’m studying engineering not only it is hard but it wants u to be mentally strong to be able to focus on only your studies .In my case i stuggle with sleep issues and anxiety and also bullying so i’m not mentally strong enough to be able to study without encountering many difficulties to focus on only studies so i feel like a failure in my studies as well.

-at home , nothing is stable i don’t feel safe i have always fear of so many different things fear of loss fear of not being able to feel peace i don’t want to enter into details but i guess u get it .

-i feel incredibly unlucky not gonna lie :the fact that i’ve lost one of my parents in a young age , aslo being scammed and seing your other parent loose all the money and having to go trough poverty aslo being hitted and having violence in your home where you are supposed to feel at peace aslo because of violence you found yourself with a broken nose and the operation being botched as well and suffering on top of all the suffering i was going trough as if it wasn t enough like suffering with bullying as well for a long time . And then seeing yourself failing in studies knowing damn well that i used to be so excellent and so smart at studying now u can t focus on studying anymore and becoming basically a failure .

So yeah my meds with all of this combinations of problems stopped working cause of huuuuge anxiety that no amount of meds is able to beat it . And also the schedule of my university i just can t take powerfull meds or else i will wake up groggy and not able to go to uni .

When i tried going to bed until i m tired once i m in my bed my heart starts pounding a lot like i m having a panic attack i just feel like my body doesn t want me to sleep like it wants me dead or something .cbt i i can t really practice it because of studying and also for that i need to be on no meds . So i m just here struggling i swear i’m so tired i ve reached to God buy i just feel like i m not being heard at all like i’m tired of this whole situation . I’m tired of always feeling tired i’m tired of seeing myself failing .