u/MissAmberR

I have considered my self trans for a long time, it started in my early teens if not sooner, I tried my best to shut it down until I started therapy about a year ago, I started and stopped hrt a couple of times but not for long and not really long enough for much physical change but while I was on it my mental state was so much better.

I still don’t feel like I’m a guy but don’t feel like I want to transition and be a woman but still do all the stuff I used to when I was planing on transitioning , like wearing female clothes , and skin products and grooming , paint my nails and on and on.

No I feel like I don’t know what I am and like I’m in some sort of identity crisis, idk if it’s just because I’m afraid to transition from fear of rejection , I did come out to my partner and she’s been kind of ok with it, I some time struggle to imagine myself as a woman and presenting in the world as one.

So yeah right now I’m just kind of lost and feel like I don’t know who / what I am or where I’m going it’s quite difficult.