u/Mother-Cat-1998

I am writing this becoz I finally need to be completely honest about the wreckage this philosophy left behind in my life. I didn’t just waste 7 yrs of my time chasing NG's concepts...I walked away with clinically diagnosed C-PTSD and OCD..

The Neville community pitches "The Law" as a beautiful gateway to freedom, but for me, it was a psychological prison sentence. When u r taught that "thoughts create reality" n "everyone is u pushed out" (EIYPO), ur brain interprets that as a terrifying burden of total responsibility.

I developed severe "Magical Thinking" OCD. Becoz I believed my thoughts could physically alter reality or harm people, I fell into a non-stop loop of mental compulsions. I spent hours "correcting" negative thoughts, forcing myself into SATS, and doing mental "revision" to neutralize bad moods. The hyper-vigilance was agonizing.

Living this way for 7 yrs is a form of chronic, self-inflicted trauma. I spent nearly a decade in a constant state of fight-or-flight, terrified of my own mind.

I completely dissociated from my actual life, ignored real physical and emotional warning signs, and blamed myself for every bad thing that happened n still i am doing that..

This isn't just "bullshit"—it is highly dangerous psychological gaslighting.

If u are in this group and u find yourself constantly checking ur thoughts, feeling intense guilt for being human, or feeling detached from reality, please stop.

ur mind is trying to survive an impossible ideology. Healing from this is hard, but admitting the damage it caused is the first real step.

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Hello everyone. Hope everybody is doing fine.

I just don't know where to begin, but yeah, I want to because my mental condition has gotten worse. I curse the day, the moment, I got to know about this stupid shit. I was doing just fine before 2019, but from that year onwards I tried to relate everything to manifestation. And here I am, instead suffering from PTSD, OCD, and what more... In short, I am suffering from mental health issues. Being unemployed, I can't even afford any kind of therapy.

This f***ing "everyone is you pushed out" has made me insane. Though I have left those stupid subs, I was once there, and in the back of my mind I still hear those things. I hate this. This is pathetic.

WHY??? JUST WHY????

Why could I not accept that breakups happen...

Why could I not accept that this is a part of life, where people come and go...

Why could I not accept that, after all, these are humans who can't be MANIFESTED... We can't change their decisions or opinions about us unless they TRY or WANT to...

JUST WHYYYYYY?????

I have an exam tomorrow, and for freaking 4 months I couldn't study because of this stupid manifestation effect.

I am having an anxiety attack...

MANIFESTATION never ever taught me how to really love myself. If anything, it only prioritized this for the sake of getting back with your specific person.

I am not solely responsible for whatever happened between me and my specific person.

This shit put me into a guilt trap for freaking 7 years. And whenever I get materialistic stuff, I think that manifestation is real.

Stupid me... Material things can be easily accessible because there are plenty of them, but humans, or becoming an overnight millionaire or billionaire, are not. Atleast to be rich we need action but to get a person back or to love u back like crush n all... HELL NAHHHH!!!

I worked so hard for my master's entrance exam, taking a 2-year drop just to enroll in a university, but I got into an autonomous one.

WHY????

I literally worked so hard, along with scripting and affirming like a parrot, but I still did not get into one.

WHY????

I HATED MYSELF SO MUCH, TO THE CORE, THAT FOR 4 MONTHS I COULD NOT SLEEP WITH THIS GUILT THAT I WAS THE WRONG ONE WHO DESERVED TO CRY...

I TRIED EVERYTHING I COULD, BUT THIS FEAR OF MY CAREER GETTING DESTROYED IS EATING ME ALIVE...

IT FEELS LIKE MY BRAIN IS TRYING TO CONTROL ME... TRYING TO MAKE ME ITS SLAVE...

SORRY TO EVERYONE HERE WHO TRIED TO WARN ME. 😣😣😣