u/Motor_Mycologist6537

Me and my ex broke up the 3rd time and ig from her words the “final” time 1.5 months ago, I have been constantly manifesting. First it came out of lack, obsession and desperation. But lately I’ve been calm and feeling flat, and 3d has been getting better or worse idk she unblocked me but still refuses to talk. Anyways i tried listening to sad music and it was pushing me to cry but in the end I couldnt, I just dont feel the grief of losing a loved one.

now im thinking did i not love her? or her avoidant tendencies and constant push pull dynamic has made me numb, or is this cause of manifesting that I am in this flat dead state and internally subconsciously I just dont feel like she’s gone, so I just cant bring myself to cry and grieve and accept what happened..

i’ve been trying to manifest my ex after our 3rd breakup a week ago, a few days ago i kept asking for a sign and when i didn’t get anything i got sad so i just took the bus to downtown to walk and i ran into my first gf after 3 years. i never saw her before, there were times i wished but i never ran into her. idc about her so i just said hi and left.

today i decided to go out and spend a day alone, thrift clothes have fun i was manifesting my ex. as soon as i get into the bus i see my ex’s boss. then i look out the window for one second after 15 mins of looking at my phone and in that fleeting second, i see my ex’s coworker.

i go buy my clothes, i open my phone to pay its 5:55. i get back on the bus and its nearing this one stop where me and my ex sat and waited a long time after our first date after breaking up last time, so i was just thinking about the memories. And then the bus stops working and i hv to get out on that “same stop” and wait for the new bus.

I wait for the new bus, i get in and her coworkers the same one i saw earlier is in that bus. the coincidences kept getting unreal whats happening?

Me (M23) and my FA (F22) broke up 3 times over 7 months, our recent or in her words “final” breakup was really messy. I went to get my stuff from her house but she never came out to talk to me in person and silently blocked me everywhere. I only left when i heard her mom inside yelling at her to come out and end things on my face.

A few days later, she unblocked me and apologized for her behaviour. After this I showed up at her volunteering place to have a last in person goodbye but she felt uncomfortable by that. She blocked me again after that.

I am a really big movie buff and over the course of our relationship i made her install letterboxd. She’s someone who doesn’t watch films but she knows letterboxd was a big quirk of my personality. Ever since we broke up in 3 days she has posted 2 reviews, one on the day we broke up and one on the day after i showed up unannounced.

One of the films was 500 days of summer and in both the reviews, shes talking about how relationships are nuanced and no one’s evil or wrong, people are just young and flawed and no one’s in the bad. I feel like shes trying to communicate with me in the smallest way possible cause she knows this is my hobby, watching and letterboxding and she never did this until we brokeup and now shes trying to process her feelings through film but then they’re also targeted towards me cause she knows i can read these.

Is there any chance she’ll unblock me in the future and try to reconnect? When i saw her she seemed very happy and ig relieved but that could be cause shes a FA. Meanwhile I haven’t smiled in days.

We started seeing each other casually in october a few months after her breakup with her ex she never liked, she said she had just been making out with random guys and now wanted to try a situationship. we started one but one day she admitted being jealous when i was talking to her friend all night, she decided she doesn’t like situationships and only wants a relationship. I agreed to one we began to start acting like a couple, but after a few weeks she asked i dont think i wanna be in a relationship with you cause your grades are bad, you’re immature, you’re not career oriented. we took a 2 week break, decided to be friends instead but couldnt hold onto that and then she finally said i actually missed you and i only said all of that cause you didnt fit the mental blueprint of the guy my grandma has told me i have to date. after 2 months i finally asked her out, we became official, but then after a month she said lets breakup i dont feel right in this relationship and gave me a bunch of reasons i dont like how u talk to some people it just doesn’t feel right its u as a person. we didnt end up breaking up. then we went strong for a month and she randomly broke up again saying you’re just not the right fit for me and gave me stupid reasons like i dont like how you talk in slang and the same reason i feel like it will anyways end cause u remind me of my dad and my stepdad who both left. after a week of space i managed to convince her she even made me talk to her mom when i described her avoidant patterns and whenever school got stressful she would breakup with me and how she has feelings of abandonment cause of her moms relationship who all left her and her mom alone. we had the best month now, for the first time she said i love you to me, something she had said before she ll only say when she means it cause she was forced to say it to her ex. another thing to note is when she gets in this avoidant numb phase she becomes like a robot and has said stuff like i dont like my mom, dad or my dog. finally i saw us communicating and beginning to have a normal relationship but then she went on a school trip to south africa. we had trouble during the long distance where i said she doesn’t text me enough, she said shes sorry but after a few days she said shes been having the same doubts and shes been telling everyone new around her about our relationship and everyone thinks im manipulative and i always guilt trip her into coming and we should break. she also told me one of the guys whos been listening to her admitted to liking her tho they didnt do anything physical. at this point i got really anxious called texted a lot but only got ignored, finally she came back home sent me 10 lines max describing why she wanted to breakup and then blocked me and told me shes throwing my stuff out on her porch at 8 and i can come take it but dont knock or come up. she treated me like she was firing me from the relationship rather than breaking up with me. instead of 8 i came at 6, i rang the bell a few times but no one answered so i thought maybe she ll come back home at 8 but at 8 she opened the door threw my stuff and closed it i lingered longer screaming pls come out talk to me but then i heard her mom yelling at her telling her to go outside and tell me to my face that shes not interested and go away or else i ll keep coming back. she never did she couldnt look at me, after hearing her mom yell at her and me indirectly i left. she blocked me everywhere imaginable. now i wanna ask will she come back or apologize or miss me, i wanna take her back cause ik she actually loves me she said a lot of shit to me but never said i didnt mean that ily and she was still very attached and couldnt look at my face during breakup. any advice what to do or how she ll come back in the future?