u/MxBonesMarrow

Jax is my favorite character in TADC. I hate seeing fan art, and toys of this character. Probably more for person reasons, so this is gonna be a bit of a vent and also contain spoilers but at this point that's a good portion of the sub.

First, I don't like how the series has been so merchandized. I work at a department store and the toy isles often have lots of plushies of these characters. Which, for a show that's basically a psychological thriller, is already a bit.. off. But the thing that fucks with me most are the plushies of Jax, but one more than the rest. Jax in the maid outfit.

To me, the toyification of maid Jax feels incredibly gross. Jax it's a trans character who dies/abstracts before ever coming out. The few instances the show had of them breaking the gender binary was as an egg, and either in extreme duress or doing it to mock someone else (the finale). The toys I see of this Jax is always them being horified. It's their discomfort and humiliation made into a toy. That's just ick.

This is where I get a little meta, and I apologize. My only trans relative was a trans woman. She passed away a few years ago of an overdose, still in the closet. I knew about her truth because of some links in profiles which lead to a few online spaces where she existed as herself. That was hard for me. She was my cousin, but I never had an opportunity to be really close to her. Seeing Jax's story progress, it felt like someone who was constantly struggling not to loose their grip, until they let go. It reminds me of what happened to my cousin, the repression, the abuse, the drowning in silence. It's hard.

Jax's misery being made into a toy twists my stomach something awful. Almost as bad, seeing fan art of Jax. Her being fem, happy, healthier to be around. It's almost like an alternate timeline she exists in. It erases so much of Jax's real toxicity that makes them a relatable character. I was that person. I hated that person, as much as Jax hated himself, and I treated people just as bad then as Jax does in the Circus. Not glorifying being an asshole. People struggling and repressing things tend to be very toxic and awful people. Jax's story is relatable in a way that's raw, and painful. Reminds me of myself, and also of my cousin.

So seeing people making fan art of this character, in a way that the show never depicts them, feels odd. Feels like it's erasing a core part of Jax's character. Honestly, it makes me wish that Pomni was able to unabstract Jax just so that, for once, that show could have a happy outcome. Though it'd go against how they've framed abstraction overall, and would create its own issues but at least we'd have canon transfem Jax and it wouldnt undo the terrible shit they've done. It wouldn't absolve her, and she'd still need to grow, learn, and adjust to being a better person. Instead, we get a trans character who dies before their egg cracks. Who, in life, was a bitter self serving asshole that drove everyone away.

Even though they are my favorite character for personal reasons, I almost feel like Jax it's the worst but most honest reprentation of trans people. It's honest in the mental health outcomes of repression and isolation, and how it can doom a person. But it's the worst representation of us in the aspect that if any cis person watches, and connects those dots, I don't trust them to not assume all trans people are like Jax.

I don't know how to feel about this show. I love it. I hate it. It's made me think and feel more than any other show since coming out. For a lot of reasons, especially things like hopelessness. I feel like Jax is the epitome of all that. Idk what else to say but thanks for reading my rant <3

Anyone know a place a girl can talk about cars with like minded trans people?

I've been in prog for like 6 months now, and haven't noticed any of the libido changes Ive heard about. Until I started injections a few weeks ago, going from tablets. Holy fuck. This is some pretransition levels of libido wtf. I'm constantly craving physical touch, and can get off like 4 or 5 times in a day. What is going on, I feel like a teenager what the fuck lol. The saving grace is that I don't get aroused nearly as easily as I did as a teen.

I'm looking for something a bit more toxic than The Witch of Mercury (though that show is so unbelievably goated). My partner has been reading Warhound recently, and it's making me crave something really toxic for purely fantasy reasons

One of the things I love so much about this game and DE generally is the amazing amount of queer and neurodivergent representation this game has. This post is to highlight some of these characters, and what makes them awesome. Okay, from the top!

Lotus is plural, very close to what we would consider DID but different because SCIFI. We still don't know the exact lore that led to it, but Margulis's memories and personality were put into Natah from a deal between Ballas and Hunhow during the Old War. The outcome, Lotus, was a mix of Natahs hatred of the Orokin and Margulis' love of the Tenno. This is why she ultimately failed to complete her task, because she cared too much for them. In Lotus Eaters, she talks about how she still feels them both, and we are now able to use either of the 3 as our main mission giver. Cannonically, Lotuses story is written to at least be analagous to someone with DID.

Rell, everyone's favorite non player Tenno, is cannonically Autistic. Playing through that quest make it very clear that he struggles with interoception, and it seems like emotional regulation. Very relatable, love Rell.

Albrecht is married while also having a lover, making him either bi and poly OR in a lavender marriage and gay asf for Loid. Love our toxic yaoi.

Varzia is the second to last Dax, and is hinted at crushing on Teshin and Maroo. Originally I stated she was dating Maroo which is i correct, makes me very sad. Bi, not explicitly lesbian.

Ticker in Fortuna is the doll who helps you save people from debt slavery, and is the games first trans character. She's amazing, go give her some love.

Rude Zhuud has her sisters in her head (kindasorta) through the powers of scifi, similar to Lotus but different. In Zhuuds case, her story reps obvious ptsd as well as psychosis through her memory sharing with her sisters.

The Hex and Triad are all willing to date Drifter regardless of gender making them all either bi or pan, and potentially poly. Some are very explicitly bi through their kim stories, like Eleanor and Quincy <3.

Speaking of Protoframes, Flare and Temple are nonbinary, finally bringing us to our PCs. Flare is also cannonically plural!

Xaku is also nonbinary, devs giving Xaku they/them pronouns.

Next are our less confirming but still binary gendered warframes, I'm considering them honorable mentions.

Nezha is a male warframe shrouded in controversy since their introduction due to their feminine appearance from a Western perspective but this isn't actually the case (thanks to people in the comments for correcting me). The reason for Nezha's androgynous-like appearance is because he's based off the Chinese stories of Prince Nezha whom I am told is a child god. His innocent look, and ribbons are direct ties to those myths. Leaving this as a correction of myself, and to help inform those who don't know. Thanks for your patience yall.

Next is Equinox! She effortlessly shifts her expression between a masc armored dame, and a femme fatale queen. (Seriously though this is actually me, Im genderfae which is to say genderfluid without full masc and she's SUCH an icon to me).

Last, but certainly not least. The Tenno. Whether you are queer or not, the Tenno can be played however you want. Literally. Being able to make the Operator a Boy and the Drifter a Woman opens the opportunity for you to canonically be trans, intersex, gay, lesbian, polyamorous, monogamous, or even cisgender and hetero. The Tenno can be played in any of these ways making them sooo open ended and ultimately the best source of representation in the game.

Thank you Digital Extremes. None of these characters are, or feel like tokens. Every year, from the Pride celebration stuff in game, all the way to how you depict queer and neurodivergent people, it really feels like you folks care. As someone who is coming up on 25, and has been playing since they were 14, you've helped shape me into the person I am today and I know I'm better for it. Happy belated Pride, yall. I love you all <3

I'm the kinda gal who will flirt up a pretty lady, and shower her with complements and praise while her boyfriends sits a foot away.

I like to think I'm lowkey evil, make out with a girl when her boyfriends not around kinda evil. Make a man find out I'm better in every way kinda evil. I'm the girl she tells him not to worry about, kinda evil

( This is just me hyping myself up, I'd never let someone cheat for me :3 )

I started using Mint like or 5 months ago. I have an older tower, it's got a Maximus Ranger VIII , 1070sc, i7 6700k, and 16gb of DDR4. I use this rig mostly for gaming, which it's starting to show it's age. I'm trying to get a little extra life out of it but using Linux, but Mint just isn't cutting it. I've gotten told many many times that I should switch to a rolling release distro.

Right now, my options are CachyOS, Pop!OS, and Fedora (specifically Nobara). I don't want to rush this decision though, whatever I move to next will be the final OS for this rig before I build I new one next year.

My name is Mayven. I have not had much experience fronting or existing outside of a mental cage. I don't really have anyone to talk to or introduce myself to, so I'm here. I remember liking Skyrim when we were younger, but that was ages ago. I've been listening to music too, I really like Grim Salvo. Helps us feel normal. Anyways, that's me, hiiii 🖐

We have around 8. Jane, Jay, JJ, Wendy, Viper, Rose, Ada, Vox, and a mute. Vox and the mute are weird, Vox is more like a tool than an alter, its the front we use when we're rapid switching or extremely depersonalized and it's hard to know whose at the front. Mute is a nameless nonverbal entirety that lurks in the cracks, and hides things that need to be forgotten.

They aren't anyways present, often time they're not. Sometimes it's just one or two active, sometimes a whirlwind. What's it like for yall? For those who are over 10, how long has it been like that? And does it get painful or chaotic to have so many parts?

How do yall typically feel about buying expensive clothes? Not like, buying expensive "punk" clothes or luxury fashion pieces. I mean like high quality hand crafted pieces. Things like jeans from Naked and Famous Denim, boots from places like Nicks etc. I'm tired of disposable, low quality fast fashion pieces that will fall apart in a year or so. Id rather just spend 200 dollars on a single pair of pants that will last me a decade than a 50 pair that I'll need to replace in 6 months. Boots are the same way, Docs are shit, Solovair are better, but real high quality work boots will last until I'm dust.

It might also be telling that I've been watching a lot of Rose Anvil lately, and really enjoy the content he makes. The breakdowns, deepdives, collabs. Real good shit, and the blood core leather pieces he's had built all look amazing.

Im 24, both of my partners are in their 20s (24 & 26). It's a running gag that I like gilfs. Well, not so much of a gag, I just don't date outside of my age range. Grandma's be hella hot though. Like Sara Conner from Terminator Dark Fate as a PRIME example.

One day, me and my gf were riding in a car together and a convertable cuts us off. She's like "ugh, this asshole" then they convert the car to open or whatever and it's this rockin old woman with short white hair and aviators on. My gf is like "I wanna be her so bad" and my response? "Would." LMAO I still can't believe myself with that.

Anyways, a few months later, she's hits me with the titular quote. Something akin to "You date like an investor", basically investing in their youth to see what they're like when they're old. And honestly, yeah. Let me live a long happy life with you girl, and when you're a baddy with white hair at least you'll find comfort in that I'll still find you attractive. Sounds nice to me, at least.

Anyone else like this?

So, I've known my best friend (now girlfriend) for 3 years now. As I've known her, she's gotten progressively more goth. She's stunning, genuinely. At one point, she realized that I'm basically a puppy girl waiting to happen. Some positive reinforcement here, some long hikes in the park there, and she ends up getting me to realize that it's sooo true :3 She's talked about liking the taste of blood before, and enjoying leaving hickeys because of that. We start getting closer, cuddling. I ask her to a goth prom, she says yes, 2 months later she asks me to be her girlfriend. I'm realizing how lucky I am. She's amazing in every way, and she tears me up so good. She's as sadistic as I am masochistic. She's from an upper Middle class family, I'm from a lower middle class family (both leftist, both of us hate wealth).

I find it so funny that we're dating now and we complement each other so well. I'm a punk, she's a goth. I'm dog brained, she's a vamp. It's like we're living a Silver X Mina fanfic (if Mina wasnt a bish). She was upset she venting to me earlier about how no one makes blood flavored bubble gum. Like that irony metallic taste blood has (like when you bite your lip too hard). She unironically likes that. Probably an iron deficiency.

No other reason for this post, just wanted to talk about my relationship and how lucky I feel