u/N0_Cure

I started a new job making roughly %50 more, so for the first time in my life I don’t have to scrape by, BUT the job is MUCH more stressful and I have to work in person (even though it could easily be done remotely).

It’s one week in and I want to give up, and it’s mostly due to working in person. I also have a chronic illness (dysautonomia), so everything is amplified. My health went from being at the best point in my life to dramatically going downhill. The added stress of commuting and losing 3 hours of my day is pushing me over the edge and I don’t know whether to stick with it, try to convince them to let me work from home, or just quit and pray that I can get my old job back. I have only been at the new job for a week. I now have one hour of free time per day then I HAVE to sleep, otherwise I’m fucked. I’m even having nightmares every night.

I’m so fucking tired of following my ambitions, then being brought back to the reality that I have severe limitations and have to live a life of extremely minimal stress and human interaction. Anyone else?

As title reads. I was hired as the lead (only) QA engineer for a company. I figure I will set up tracking first (jira ?), then just start documenting the workflows, creating the regression suite, move on to edge cases, figure out automation, etc, etc. There is zero documentation available.

I wanted to know what a senior engineer would say about this.

Also, what practical AI use cases would you suggest to help a one man team? I’m particularly interested in how it can help me with tracking / documentation.

I had awful misophonia as a child, and it gradually subsided as a grew older. Dinner time was always a nightmare for me. I was never medicated as a child, but I had an inordinately stressful childhood.

Since starting stimulants a year ago my misophonia has come back in full force, I cannot even be around certain people when they’re eating. Anyone else? Do I need to just go off stimulants?

It’s the same with every stimulant I’ve tried as well.

If I sit against a flat surface, like a booth, or if I sit in a narrow chair for around 10 minutes it will eventually feel like I cannot take a full breath, like I’m gasping for air. Sometimes if I massage the sides of my neck it will alleviate the sensation.

This is not an issue when I have lumbar support and my upper back area is unrestricted.

Could this be some sort of diaphragm disfunction? I literally cannot sit in certain chairs because I cannot breathe properly in them, it’s so weird.

For some history, I have autonomic disfunction, lived in a cold mold infested apartment for 3 years and became extremely ill, got my second vaccine and thought I was going to die. My health has never been the same. I have endless pain and my nervous system is essentially broken.

So basically, I live in Canada, but support for dysautonomia is nearly non-existent here or there are multiple year long waitlists (I'm not joking).

I have lived with this condition for my entire life. I have periods of feeling alright because I will be mostly sedentary, then I will gaslight myself into thinking that I'm normal and try to participate in normal life things, and I will get a flare up, then it all spirals from there. I have literally been reliving the same pattern for my entire life and it took me until a few years ago to actually ask myself why the hell I feel this way.

My body will remain in fight or flight mode for prolonged periods, and I'll experience the usual dozen or so symptoms (brain fog, persistent fatigue, chronic neck/back pain, dizziness, not being able to breath properly, digestive issues, etc). It affects literally every facet of my life and has cost me jobs and relationships. Most of all it has cost my ability to live a normal life.

I have been on LDN since last year and it helps slightly, but not enough.

I'm tired. I don't care how much it costs, I want treatment, I want answers. I know I will probably never feel normal, but some element of closure and validation would be a comfort.

I don't care where, I will travel anywhere in the western US, I just want recommendations for the best specialist out there who actually knows about this stuff.