u/Narrow-Mountain4416

Why tf did this guy “like“ me and then I look on his profile which his instagram images are linked and I see he posted an image from a video game saying he loves that new model, which is a trans and has literally no mistaking it’s a penis is outlined and sticking out the panties is a penis. These men gy, we already know that. Who wants these disappointments, be fr. I never choose any of these mf. I bet he gonna act as if he didn't pay no attention or recognize that lmfaoo. Then the next image was a huge bbw and he says how he likes bigger girls. These men just disgust me. (Not talking about bigger girls) Just like why like me though if you like all that. Gtfo, I don’t want you 😂😂😂💀💀💀 Yeah, this is what they really want and prefer is you to be a man. And btw, they will claim how they’re not gy. They like it because femininity, then they will go and encourage women to be masculine and also claim how oh it’s a woman. Basically they like any and everything, they have no bounds. They use anything to justify how they love dck and hate women.

I feel it’s hard to not feel resentful for the past. Such as when I tried to seek help and find and utilize resources to help me better my life or put me on a path for a better outcome. I just have been so lost, but I tried seeking help, only to reach setbacks instead of actually getting the help. I did online classes, which was a waste since I wasn’t allowed to complete the externship in time. I‘ve done a lot of researching on what I could do. Went to a place that helps people find jobs or school, she basically didn’t allow me to get help for the classes I wanted to take because she said it’s about finding your true passion. So instead of helping someone to get a better career and improve their life, you deny them that help based on it not being their ideal dream job or passion. Lmao. I would love to know who would be passionate about that particular career anyway🙄 It just feels like every time I get met with setbacks until I just checked out altogether and decided idgaf. Not sure what I want, who I am, how to get that, if I even want to, etc.

If you have a family who was involved in your life and helping you get prepared for your future, it’s really a blessing. I feel looking back, it was total neglect. All those moments of like when it was time for me to get my license, things like that, I just was late for everything and not experienced because of neglect. I didn’t have any guidance, now I just go with the motions. I am blessed in ways that I don’t want to be ungrateful for, I know things could be worse. I know mindset is a factor. I know that I live comfortably, despite not checking certain boxes or being able to say much for myself lol. I manage to be independent and don’t have to rely on anyone, so I’m grateful for that. I just see how my mom’s only focus was herself why I was struggling when I needed her most. Now she has the nerve to actually be jealous and hold me back or claim how I’m so beautiful and young.

How she wouldn’t want me to wear a bikini or “I have nothing to prove” or making passive aggressive comments, just all this stuff, yet she will gladly give compliments to other girls. It’s like she doesn’t want to with me. She had the nerve to say it’s not all about looks, yet growing up that’s all it was all about her own looks or worried about getting men or whatever meanwhile I was getting made fun of and she only spent money on herself or cared about herself looking good, so that’s real funny coming from her. Lmao. She had the nerve to still not want me to shine and feel threatened by it to this day. When I struggled so much and was more like playing a mom role when I should have been a teenager and getting help and prepared for my life yet I was doing all the housework and my brother and stuff like that with no guidance to get out of that situation. She just makes me sick tbh to still not be happy for me or want the best for me all because of jealously. Idk why she doesn’t want her own daughter to shine yet she will for random girls. But it’s like she views me in a competition way. She admitted she was jealous, then quickly said but I’m happy for you.

Sometimes it seems like she really wants to show me off and proud of me, then other times it seems she wants to hold me down and I feel I can’t trust her that she wants the best for me. So I feel conflicted. I don’t wanna believe this, it’s hard to come to terms with it. She also only supports me to be with a man if he has something wrong with him such as in wheelchair, if he has some mental disability, she is totally against me to be with a guy and be attracted to him. Which I guess because she went for an ugly guy herself, but they’re the worst tbh. She claims it’s because those are the guys you should go for like as if they will treat me right. Sorry, I actually care about attraction. If a guy is a horrible person either way, I’d rather him at least be attractive lmfao. She mad her man ugly and an asshole on top of it lmao. I really just go minimal contact and involvement with her. I feel way better the less contact.

I am a pretty detached person, but I also have empathy, unfortunately. I really hate being this way, this situation has really hurt and there’s nothing I can do about it. I’m sure it’s being emotional and overreacting lmao. They basically say that men don‘t have empathy, so don‘t feel bad for them. I may be projecting my own nature onto a guy. I just never wanted to be source of like cause someone to think that way. I felt like he seemed like the type who’s minding his business, doing his own thing and keeping to himself, which I related to that. I avoid people. I know what it’s like. I just feel bad to have made a stupid ass assumption and I also just feel embarrassed all the way around in my interacting with him, it just seems half-ass re*arded. Because the same thing happened to me. A guy messaged me with some assumption and I unmatched him, so I can see how it was off-putting or seemed offensive. Which was not my intention at all. But I just said something that came across wrong and it was what it was. Maybe this happens because I found him on the cuter side, I wasn’t hung up on him at first, it was just whatever and I wasn’t sure. But it seems like guys I have zero attraction to see my best side. We write books back and forth and have in-depth conversations and just seem to connect more easily. Can’t say the same for a guy I feel an ounce of attraction to. 😂💀

Usually I become instantly turned off by being rejected by a guy, but I put myself into his shoes basically. Like, girl, just leave it alone. You said what you said. He got offended and was put off. It was a misunderstanding. It must have happened for a reason to prevent us from actually meeting. Maybe it was a sign. I just know that we matched multiple times and he would initiate. If I thought he was straight up rejecting me, I would instantly be put off to him and disgusted by him, but since I felt it was based upon the misunderstanding, is what led me to still be open to him. But I liked him again and was blocked that time around, so now he‘s inching closer to my shit list, which would be the point of no return. Which I kind of feel bad for him what he missed out on without even being aware. So he had me at a point of like okay, I don’t fully hate him since I felt I could understand why, but now, I’m getting past it and it will be total irrelevance, might as well get on your hands and knees begging and I still feel disgust. If I truly hate the guy or dislike a man/sexuality no longer exists for him in my mind. I do not see him as someone I would be near. They say there’s a fine line between love and hate.

Absolutely hilarious. When guys think you’re insecure about something and use it as an opportunity. I had a pic where I did a close-mouthed smile. A lot of guys seem to be liking that pic in particular and then here comes this older man who sends it to me thinking I'm gonna fall for this nonsense. He writes a whole ass paragraph on how I shouldn’t hide my smile or be self-conscious about my smile, that he works in the medical field or some shit and with my structure I have the structure or blah blah blah lmfaoooo. I said I already know ✌️✌️✌️✌️ & unmatched lmao. They really try it. 😂😂 I have posted pics with my teeth as well, but these men really think they’re running shit. They just want to be the one to say something. They want something to complain about or control you on.

They find your most highly attractive pics that turns them on and they know other guys are feeling the same, so they wanna establish some sense of control. They wanna stand out from the other guys or create like make you question yourself for his old raggedy ass. You might forget for a moment that you don’t even find him attractive AT ALL. 😂 That’s the goal and hope. That you get your mind off the fact is he even attractive to you.

Just like another one of my pics that men really liked, then here comes this guy stating his own preference thinking his say matters. WHO WTF ARE YOU. I had zero percent attraction to him as well. Funny how that seems to be the case. He claimed I didn’t have to make that face (kissy face) & then references my other pics, like how he prefers my straight face. When every other man kept liking it. I get it can be cringe, but it was one of my most popular pics lol. The audacity of these guys is crazy. They go out of their way just looking for something they can say. They look for and create problems on their own. If it wasn’t that, it’d be the opposite with them. Just ignore them at all costs.

Just saw the most disgusting video which gave insight to how men really think- pretty horrible. Pretty fcked up. I will say they need a wake up call though because it’s actually laughable what some of them seem to think of themselves or what they deem as “Chad” lmfao. Tell me again how tf these men have the nerve to think they’re Chad if you're the one desiring me, asking to take a pic. Glad I didn’t take a pic with his ass💀💀 I can’t be fcking near your face it’s so hideous to me. Tell me why I was so turned off then if that’s what Chad means like wtf lmao. I think these men are fcking delusional to the highest power and need to stop living their lives revolved around other men so much. Can they think for themselves for once. Is that even possible. They go by materialism. They go by if she‘s rich, popular, those factors. Which, obviously those factors can play a role in boosting anyone, to be fair. But it makes me think they don’t actually think for themselves. They’re followers. How about what’s actually genuinely attractive to you and let that be that.

The video was basically saying how these men are dating down or women they don‘t really want due to the fact they can get away with less effort and an easier time and they can get their ego boosted because the woman will desire him or think he‘s attractive. How they are pissed off when they actually walk outside and see all the women they can‘t get that they feel they deserve and are actually attracted to and like wow I’m so mad and disgusted how come I can’t get my ”looks match” how they don’t want to take these girls on a date, they want to just do basic low effort do nothing, be assholes. Well, it just made me laugh and think of something. Because what do they really consider themselves to be. I mean, the guy was tall.. didn’t like it. The guy had muscles.. didn’t like his body type. Is that all they got?? It just made me think of that guy because that’s what he was trying to act like he was based on those factors.

I’m in a weird situation because I‘ve always been considered attractive. But I was overweight as a kid, so that led to issues obviously. Despite the unattractive and unhealthy body I had, I always had men talking to other guys like how they found me attractive, it’s just something to where I always knew my face was attractive, but I wanted to lose weight. I eventually lost weight. I don’t go out much, but if I go out, attraction is clear and obvious. I attract weird experiences of men trying to get my attention. But I basically aged in reverse so I can look younger now than I did back then. Anyway, I have issues that I work to overcome based on my past. But I’m just trying to say I’m considered conventionally attractive. But because I don’t a certain mold of rich, popular, outgoing. However, people assume I’m rich at time or have nice things based on how I carry myself, I can easily look like that lol and I take care of my life to the best I can with what I have. To be fair, I mostly get compliments and men complimenting me and my things and how I am, yet from that guy, he did the whole negging thing and felt intimidated basically. He was highly insecure and it was very obvious.

So I just found that video sad, really sad. I mean, what I say and how I feel about that guy, I'm sure men would find me to be pretty heartless for how I actually feel. I’m sure they’d rush to his defense. I’m sure they’d feel some type of way of a woman going in on her complete lack of attraction to a man, on how it should be on what’s on the inside in that case lmfao right .. (his inside was 🚮🚮 too) but you get what I’m saying lol. So it’s all well and good because I’m doing the same shit and only going for looks now and actually being attracted to the guy. That means bad news for a lot of guys. Even guys who have XYZ or fit certain criteria, won’t make the cut. Pure sexual desire for a man from a woman’s perspective is pretty brutal and will eliminate the majority of guys. I can perfectly recognize a guy as being even cute, attractive, whatever, & have zero sexual interest. He can be rich, whatever other factors you wanna throw and on the flip, it could be a guy that doesn’t match anything you’d expect that I want more. If I go by actual sexual attraction, a lot of these guys egos would crash.

I do feel men should pursue who they’re actually attracted to. And there‘s nothing wrong with that. When it’s based on nonsense as her car makes a girl pretty, materialistic factors, hair color (when bitch your mom looks like a smoker sundamaged so go get a blonde like that and knew I was the best thing you could ever possibly get in your life, which is why she was trying to get him to take it serious and work it out with me lmfaooo) his mom already knew. She was like take advantage of that opportunity. In shape, healthy, youthful baby face, get accused of way younger than my age, easily look put together and classy, but also can give free spirit vibe, very feminine facial feature, priortizes my health. I am so blessed to have not end up with a guy I couldn’t ever even kiss or desire. I deserve to actually be attracted to the guy. Attraction is important to me too, hell. 😂😂 they base it on nonsense instead of actual desire. They have a rating system, and who runs that. Other men? Oh she has a lot of guys (automatically means I must be attracted to her too, right) literally had a guy state that was a factor for him like she’s pretty because she has a lot of guys liking her. I feel these men are gy and can’t even think for themselves at all. Are they even real. Wtf are they actually. This is how men think. And as you know it’s everything opposite of what they claim or what they claim they don’t like in women lmao.

That’s why that guy was a pedo, that’s why he was on so much sketchy shit, he was attracted to me due to looking underage, he accidentally let it slip how he couldn’t believe I wasn’t carded as well. He knows he was let down after I was watching those predator catcher shows after he mentioned he used that app, so it made me think of that and he got weird. He then seemed upset when I said I was glad I didn’t have kids that if I did, I wouldn’t be allowing these guys around my kids. There’s so many guys specifically seeking single moms or not only putting that, they actually put things like “I’m good with kids.” “I’m totally fine with you have kids, it’s a plus.” “Women with kids to the front.” “I love kids, looking to play Lego’s with your kids.”

The list goes on and on with the creepy ass shit they say in regards to seeking kids basically when they have no kids themselves and seem to see no issue or how it seems like a red flag lmfao. Well, let me tell you how he also mentioned his 1 other match on there (lmfao) how she apparently didn’t put she had kids on her profile, yet he found out she does. Can you guess what made him interested to pursue that … lmaooo. He went on and on how he was a “good guy.” He was truly disgusting and horrible. I hope he didn’t end up having access to that woman’s kids.. creeper status. He grabbed my foot out of nowhere like he couldn’t resist it, completely out of nowhere and squeezed it. Then he got close to me after I said I was good sitting away from him.

Rubbing and touching on me after I said I didn’t want to be near him and was clearly not attracted or into him. I came out the bathroom and he was insinuating me to sit on his face and wouldn’t move as well. He also provided alcohol, which I wonder why shortly after I could barely keep my eyes open, and he was watching me to see how I was reacting and touching on me. That’s why he forced everything. Forced me to kiss him when I couldn’t bring myself to and clearly was so turned off by him and zero attraction. Forced everything when I told him multiple times I didn’t feel comfortable with things and didn’t even want him staying at my house. He kept manipulating me.

I can’t stand these men of other races liking me- well, that’s really not fair since it’s all men who list something like they won’t pay for OF or won’t pay for things or just lists anything of that nature on their profile. Half the time these men look dusty and crusty, not always though. Some even have kids. They have absolutely no issue in listing what they want to use the woman for themselves or saying they’re looking for sugar mommas or 50/50, just looking for a woman to simply ”cuddle”, this and that. 🤮🤮🤮 they disgust me to no end. Instant swipe left/block. And that’s coming from a girl who isn‘t even materialistic. It’s usually guys who are more materialistic than me and care about all that kind of stuff, but it’s a really huge turn off. I don’t go looking for rich men, I will look at any man with irrelevance- no matter what he has. None of it matters. Actions is what matters. If you’re already starting things with a negative and selfish mindset already and feeling the need to say those things off the bat, yet you don’t see how you’re trying to use. I get no one wants to feel used, that includes women. They are being truly disgusting and terrible, selfish. Their logic is to use a woman instead and that’s all fine with them. They see absolutely nothing wrong with that, but a woman is terrible if she works something out with a man which will leave her more comfortable to engage with that man. Just disgusting and evil. It truly sickens me to no end and the utmost disrespect.

When will they even realize that they expect sex and it will never be worth it. They will have to come with something else for it to ever be worth wasting your time and safety with a man. On the opposite end, if a woman gets pregnant by a bum, then it’s all her fault as well and she should have been picky and went after a man that had financial resources and was a provider. LMAO. Dealing with men sucks in every way, I just refuse. There’s no fucking way. They are incredibly selfish. Women are more at risk by nature in every way. We also are more likely to actually be pleased on our own, the sex itself is not worth it. I can cum in less than 5 mins on my own. A man will interfere with me actually being pleased unless I run the show. So tell me how tf I would subject myself to that. Who wants to go 50/50 with a man stating he’s seeking a woman to join him with his two sons lmfao and be a hard worker and this and that oh HELL NAH. 😂😂😂 Take your old ass tf on and I don’t even like most blck men I see. I guess they don’t have comprehension to know how offensive that shit is to women, they only see through their own lens of selfishness. The only blck men I would ever swipe right and even consider are the ones smart and reasonable enough to include they have a job and not writing some negative nonsense like that on their profile.

Do men not actually want the woman who will actually desire him sexually and feel comfortable with him specifically in that light, she chose him to let that side out. My guess is not lmfao. It seems that every man that I can feel sexual thoughts for or imagine in that light, it’s like they take something wrong or there’s just always some issue in preventing things to progress to that. I do feel maybe he has no idea that I think that way about him. There’s guys who I can see look attractive in my inbox, but it doesn’t hit the same. I don’t have a desire to even respond to the majority of guys, regardless if I can see he looks attractive or has yada yada. Then the few guys I actually would meet up with and would see myself feeling comfortable and sexually attracted to.. I just have no words lmfao.

How to really find the perfect balance … I mean, I’m not attracted to “bad boys” lmao or assholes at all, it makes me lose attraction, I don’t like it. However, I find there needs to be SOME kind of toxicity or I just don’t want it lol 😂😂🤷‍♀️ need something for the sexual aspect, really want a guy who won’t back down or run away from my own toxic side and my own aggressiveness. But obviously don’t want the man to be fully toxic because hell nah, I’m way too pretty for that lmao. I just wanted to be with a guy I can actually desire sexually unlike that guy who had to do all kinds of manipulation and stuff and me trying to have my first relationship, I’m scared to ever experience that again. A man who was hideous, inside and out. The sex was complete trashed and he forced it. I completely did not want to be anywhere near that guy and hated every single thing, down to the last detail of him. Even him being tall couldn’t save him lmao, it actually turned me off too 😂😂💀 Shit was dry as the desert for him lmao. Absolutely zero attraction or chemistry. I don’t want trash shit like that ever again. Men are a complete waste of time unless you actually find him attractive for a sexual encounter or he‘s providing something to you for it. Also, unless I have control. The end. Won’t happen again.

Hated his scent, we were not a biological match at all. Could not even imagine or force myself to kids him. He had to force all that and he wanted all that and was into the situation. Did not want to be near him, he got near me anyway and touching me and all that. He gave spiked alcohol. Hated his face especially. Hated his personality. (Nothing like he portrayed himself to be online lmao) Hated his body type. (thought he was a Chad because of the gym & height) Still didn’t help his case 😂😂🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️ literally could not find one single thing to like about that guy, and I tried to unfortunately. Thought he was a so called good guy, a nice goofy type of guy. Was overlooking countless red flags all because of societal standards of having a relationship means you’re worthy and that’s the ultimate goal supposedly. Well, that’s all it took for me to decide I do not want one. It is not for me. I am not changing who I am. I want to be left alone. I will never go for a guy trying to be a nice person and overlooking outside appearances again. It is completely trash and worthless. The fact he wanted to insinuate 4in is average, so therefore he‘s above average. Mf that one sec of d was complete and utter trash and worthless and useless. Be ashamed, stay highly insecure which he most definitely was. He wanted to take pics with me, he was so desperate. Hmm.. tell me again why is that. If you are trying to act like yeah, I’m pretty, but you’re the one giving me a chance like trying to flip the script lmfao. Hmmm… why is that. Can you explain how he was the one wanting to take pic with me to show me off. You exposed yourself in each and every way. I don’t fall for none of that nonsense when men can’t hide their attraction. Nice try with your bullshit, I wouldn’t wanna ever claim you. I’m the one who didn’t want you and had to be forced to near you and to kiss you back because he turned me off in every possible way and I had zero desire, I had repulsion.

As much as I regret ever speaking to that person to try to give things a chance. He took advantage of someone not in the right headspace. He orchestrated everything. I regret ever being on a dating app because I know for 1000% certainty that I would never notice that guy or be with him if it were left up to nature and meeting naturally in the real world. I guess I have to use it as a learning experience, now I take ownership of my sexuality. A man doesn’t automatically assume control. That’s gonna be a big HELL NO for me. 😂Yeah, obviously it will push away a lot of guys, but I don’t care because that’s how unsatisfied and a waste of time it was. Am I willing to work out a situation where the guy can also have his way, sure, but I will definitely be getting mine and be way more picky and involved with this shit. What the absolute fck. That shit has you pissed to no end. For one thing, had no business since we were genetically incompatible. His natural scent repulsed me. There’s no way on earth I could get into him and I tried to make it work and actually give it a chance. I really actually did. I can’t deal with bad sex or not getting off, I will definitely stay alone. The only thing that would make it worth being the man‘s way was If he‘s actually providing things in exchange to deal with that complete nonsense lmfao. I will definitely CHEAT and he deserves it, completely awful human being. Disgusting person who deserves nothing but the worst. And I’m naturally someone who would be locked in with the guy who’s in for me. But I gotta say I would get enjoyment from cheating on that POS.

”I’m a good guy.“ “I'm a good guy” he said that all the time 🤮🤮🚮🚮 dude you’re not hot for that nonsense

Can you ask a guy to pretend to be the guy you really want … lmfao. Trying to find a guy who looks similar to get the reward of my sexual desire for him instead. Definitely his loss and I’m sure he has no clue, that’s the funny part lmao… oh well. He’s not worth feeling bad for or trying to explain myself to, which I won’t do. If he shut the door based on hurt feelings and a total misunderstanding, then so be it. Not gonna make any efforts or try to track him down. Get f’d ✌️✌️ I felt bad only because I understood how it could have came across, that is the only thing that kept the door open for me for him, but it is what it is.

They disgust me saying things like cuddling or asking would you rather watch a movie in the theaters or on the couch cuddling and cozy🤮🤮 instant unmatch!🚮🚮🚮👎👎👎👎🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮 one way to for sure eliminate yourself lmao. Hate cuddling & hate men who try to get out of taking you on a date, nah, I def prefer the theater bruh. 😂😂👎👎👎 they make it too easy to reject.

Get all this bullshit off my YouTube… can’t open the app without it all being about men lmfao. God idgaf 🖕👎👎👎✌️✌️✌️✌️✌️ shit absolutely disgusts me. All this bullshit advice from so-called “simple” creatures lmfao. Give me a fucking break thinking someone is gonna jump through hoops to be miserable and to be unsatisfied at that. No wonder I look at most men with complete and utter irrelevance, doesn’t matter what he has or if he seems rich, if he’s objectively good looking, nice body, height, whatever, etc. That doesn’t mean I want that man in particular or would ever consider it, that’s the thing. It’s actually rare for me to look at a man and actually imagine him sexually or romantically. So when I do, yeah, it might have led to what seems to be on the surface read as “desperate” really, it was a desire for a little toxicity and intensity of the sex it would bring.. little did he know and miss out on. Had no clue I’m highly independent and known for being independent, have absolutely no desire to sit under a man or text and call all day. That was that one guy who did that to me, wanting to talk 24/7 & I hated it. He said he didn’t think I was ready for a relationship and he was afraid of that since I wasn’t wanting to talk all day long. Lmfaooo so much for “men are simple” I could go on & on, they really ain’t shit & can go straight to hellllll. I don’t want any shit like that guy ever again in my life, so sorry if I was willing to “like” a guy again & if that seemed to come across as “desperate” sorry I care about sexual attraction, then I’m dropping his ass just as fast. I don’t seek some mediocre shit with a man I have zero attraction to. Sorry that I wanted some makeup sex & to have a little fun time with a guy who I felt I could actually see in that light.. that doesn’t mean shit.. but I have nothing to prove. It’s most definitely their loss on that & glad they eliminated themselves. Idk if I actually would have felt the same had I met him in person. I might not find him attractive or want him at all, just like that other guy lmfao. Sorry if I’m the type who wants something more than some boring shit with an ugly mf, if I’m gonna waste my time with a man, I better get the man I actually want and the situation I want and what I want from him. Sorry his little hurt feelings turned me on, not my fault I would have his up.

Guess I must appear trashy or low value lmfao, due to blck mem liking me on fb dating. I mean, whatever.. better than that guy of the past. Not all whte men are good options AT ALL either, so whatever. Keeping an open mind, it’s hard to get past certain biases. I guess they can tell I got some a from one of my pics ??😂😂 I just would like to appear more on the classy side, which is what I do in person. But maybe it’s not going over well on my profile, not sure lmao. Or maybe it just is what it is and all kinds of men likes me.. whatever, I have to accept it instead of taking offense. Lol.. No offense. Better than that neanderthal from the past.. then some guy seen me that I wish did not see me on there, damn, I hate being liked by guys I don’t want to even see me lmfao.

I guess it might as well be over with for me lmao. At my age - despite they had to verify my age and couldn’t verify until I uploaded my ID and despite people think I look underage. I guess none of that matters that I take good care of myself and trying to work on things and better myself from past issues and overcoming my issues. Lmao. I mean, I really fail to see the problem. I know I’m not perfect. I know men talk about how they find me so attractive and I can see how they react to me as though they’re attracted. I can see people find me attractive when I actually leave the house lol. But anyway, I feel so humiliated. I feel so embarrassed. Wish I just stayed off Fb. I never wanted to go back ever.

Don’t want to be seen by certain guys or people at all. Just felt so much better without social media. Had to go back due to needing marketplace, but then it led me to trying out dating again. I guess I have shit pics lmao. I’m soo upset past the point of humiliation. I had no business even trying to put myself out there. Hope that guy who has been on my mind didn’t see me on there. Or I guess he’ll block me again.. I just don’t understand. Intimidation, age related? Idk… I joined.. added a few pics. I only got around 5 likes and then no more.

Only like two seem to be real guys. I do live in a small area, but Fb dating used to be my best app that I ever used and I had tons of matches and messages. Did my bridges burn with like every guy possible already lmfao. I just paused it. I then added some interests, unpaused it and no likes still. Paused it again. So I guess I just feel cast aside and everything is worthless now, I mean, I don’t want a man anyway, but damn. Why do they act like they’re attracted in person. I’ve been told intimidation. Why do they talk about me how I’m so attractive. I always have got that men talking about me in that light and now I have aged in reverse after I lost weight and got healthier and started focusing on self care and learning how to take better care of myself. I mean wtf lmaoo… I guess I’ll delete it.

Idk what’s going on. I feel a shift in the dynamics now that my birthday happened. Idgaf about being alone, but I was open for a situationship, but it is what it is. It’s funny how they like men though and fck those gys no matter the age or how they look or if they’re fat or whatever. I am so hurt like wtf is wrong with men. That’s really what I’m told constantly is like what’s the problem with men or how is it possible I’m single. Anyway, fck this. I’ll delete it again. Maybe my pics are awkward angle or not flattering or whatever the case my be. Maybe pics not the best. Maybe I already talked to every guy available, even multiple times before lmfao… nevermind then. 

What would be your thoughts on this situation. I originally lost a lot of weight a few years ago. I then had a period of the whole keto and carnivore thing until I discovered this approach lol. I have since gained muscle through resistance training, though, I have fell off on staying as consistent. Btw, I was diagnosed with PCOS. Despite I try to focus on lower body, but my arms always seem puffy and swollen because I use kettlebell, so I haven‘t really figured out what to do with my workouts as of now.

Anyway, so far, I‘ve had two skin removal procedures, which included lipo. So that makes me wonder am I more prone to having fluid retention issues or something. I also seem to have some sulfur issues, such as bloating and problems I never used to have. I notice sometimes my stomach makes loud noises while eating as well, I was tested previously and was negative for any allergies or intolerances, but I do think dairy was a culprit and the high sulfur diet. Didn’t seem to have any issues with Fair life milk though.

Once I added carbs back, I immediately put on like 10lb water overnight. I have dealt with chronic bloating or water retention issues ever since, it seems. It seems like I‘ll have one random day where I feel noticeably lighter and feel good in my clothes and comfortable, and then immediately go back to being swollen and uncomfortable. Stomach seems distended and swollen, arms get huge and puffy. I still have some loose skin on my upper arms that I plan to get removed. But it’s just very uncomfortable and I really don’t know what to do lol.

All I can think of is should I go back to force myself to drink more water than I have been and reduce salt? Which obviously goes against this, but I’m beside myself because I eat a pretty simplistic and whole food diet, I eat at home for the most part. I try to keep things balanced. I know I deal with stress and anxiety issues. I take collagen. I use red light over my stomach. I try to massage to move fluid. I have recently been trying to reduce sulfur as well. I just don’t know lol.

Just two days ago, it went down and I felt soo much better in my body and then I'm right back. I will say I may not be perfect since I had a period where I added Diet Coke back briefly, but then I moved to Zevia. So yeah, that could be attributing to things, but this has been going on when I wasn't drinking that as well. I know when I added sourdough bread and butter bread to my diet previously, I blew up, but I’ve since cut that out of my regular diet lol. And I would say I’m pretty basic and restricted as of now to the best of my ability.

I’ve been taking L-theanine & K2. I take magnesium occasionally. Started back using progesterone- trying it out again. I do have some molybdenum as well, the first two times I’ve tried it has caused shaking and cold sweats and nausea. Took the first time on an empty stomach by mistake and took the 3 drops it recommended. The next time took it with a meal and two drops. I have also taken some pepto-bismul. I don’t currently have health insurance, so just trying to figure things out best I can.

If I fully could not engage in the kiss with a man, he wanted to kiss me and i just had to give him a peck, i could not make out and i did not like his natural scent. i felt really turned off and had zero attraction to him or be near him, is it a sign of no genetic compatibility and why did he want to make out then, he still seem turned on like he was attracted to me and wished the light was on and make out all that, but i had no attraction to him at the least, i wasn’t attracted to him to begin with and did not want to be near him, but being close really was apparent that i could not get into him, he manipulated that situation because i did not want to, should it be different for a guy I’m actually attracted to.

I have some bio-progesterone gel. I was using it kind of here and there and sometimes it causes even more intense anxiety and bad, depressed mood and other times it would make me calm and sleepy. I just couldn’t really figure out how I should best use progesterone and I just fell off from really trying. I had PCOS. I do have a period each month. I am in much better health now. I originally got a cream and I believe I was using it on my face. I don’t really remember all the details. I then moved to the gel, was using on gums.

I just got off my period recently. I know you're supposed to use it up until your period, then take a week or two off is basically how I understood it. Last time I used it on my gums it just caused extreme anxiety and depression. I just put two drops on my face earlier today and then I experienced depressed and easily irritated mood. Not sure if I should use it consistently or just be done with it lol? Go down to only one drop or is it more likely to need more? I just don’t know lol. I don’t have any insurance to see a doctor, plus, in my experience they don’t help most of the time. I guess my hope was it would help me with my masculine issues. I am currently using l-theanine, K2, and occasionally magnesium.

Need some help. I think I’m having a problem with sulfur or I’m really dehydrated. I thought it was good to just drink when thirsty and that’s all you should do? Lol. It seems I deal with my urine smells bad. I’ve already been checked and cleared of any infection. I also started getting an underarm smell, but that was after I tried taking lithium orotate. I stopped that months ago. I have good hygiene and take care of myself well, so this isn’t in regards to that lol. 😂 I do know that I previously smelled like ammonia when I was on a super high protein diet before as well. I don't have that anymore. I eat mostly a whole diet. I do eat a lot of dairy. Currently only taking K2 and L-theanine. Occasionally magnesium. I do deal with pretty bad bloating problems/fluctuations. I was tested and negative for any food allergies or intolerances. Any advice for this, just drink more water? I can’t really deal with eliminating when I already eat a pretty basic diet as is and eat the same things most the time lol.

When I finally take the time out & make the effort in actually responding to guys, it just reminds me why I shouldn’t bother lmao. Was I “wrong” for taking days/weeks/etc to respond, maybe. But why do they then respond instantly and make it a dead end. Why not just not respond at all if that’s the case. Not to mention, one of the guys I actually am laughing so hard because I have my age range set for like 19-39. He said he was 30 something on his profile & let’s just say LMAO. I just instantly unmatched most of the ones I responded to yesterday. Which is fine since those were ones I was just matching for friendship with anyway and no attraction. There are a couple who actually had basic respect and interest. It’s just exhausting filtering a lot of guys. I have matches I have never responded to and it just makes me think it will be a waste of time, such as the ones I did respond to.

That’s why I usually wait till guys send me multiple messages. It seems when you actually engage and make the effort. You look into the guys profile and ask him a question or at least try to be interesting or whatever, they just give one word. They ignore your question. They only talk about themselves. They’re boring as can be, even when you literally are giving them something to go on, they don’t use the chance. They act uninterested like they just want you to do everything, yet they‘re the ones responding instantly to you lol 😂 Make it make sense. I am done putting any effort into guys I’m not even attracted to the majority of the time. Half of them don't pass the kiss test. Then one guy was blowing me up over and over up until I actually responded lmao. & they really wonder why they can’t get girls.

I feel embarrassed when I think about it, but oh well lol 😂 it is what it is. I don’t normally post a lot of smile pics. I normally get compliments on my smile in real life. I just don’t usually like how it looks in pics. I posted one and the very poor dark indoor lighting cast some shadow on my teeth and caused them to look messed up upon further inspection lol. At first I thought it looked like they were shiny, then I realized they looked discolored or something. But I was happy with how it looked otherwise. I ended up freaking out and deleting my account. I then took more pics of myself smiling in better lighting 😂 I made a new account and just put that on there. I looks like snapchat adds some automatic AI enhancement to it and then my mismatched bra is showing outside of my shirt. 🤷‍♀️🤦‍♀️ I just feel like I must be portraying myself as trashy and careless and just a hot mess lmao. Maybe (hopefully) I’m being too hard on myself. I know in real life people assume me to be more put together. I just feel like why couldn’t I have took the time to at least crop it or something. 😂 I feel guys may assume me to be desperate for attention or that it’s done on purpose, which if that were the case, it wouldn’t have been mismatched lol. Anyway, I just don’t even have the energy to even deal with it or altering my profile right now. I’ve had it for months and so everyone already seen it anyway lol.

I just don’t have the energy to even change it out or do anything with that profile at the moment, nor do I plan to delete and remake ever again, like I used to all the time lmao. I just keep my account on pause the majority of the time. I have a lot of matches I haven’t responded to, it’s just a mess lol. As usual. I feel embarrassed about how I may be perceived, although, I realize most guys don’t have a shirt on or mismatched and all that stuff as well lmao. So I guess I probably fit in lmao. Am I being too hard on myself about this. What are your thoughts?