u/National_Cream_9555

I struggle with dating and want an older woman and just don't know what to do... (I'm in Atlanta Georgia,) I don't really want a black woman though and I don't know how to go about things. I just want communication, loyalty, honesty and transparency. (This is all aligned with my BPD) I have this very specific emotion where I get jealous easily and hate hearing about others being happy or their positive sex life or positive love life and like seeing all types of different people just makes me feel sad and alone and I keep getting emotionally hurt and I don't know how to handle it and seeing everyone have what I want sucks and I have a specific type in women like ethnicity and some stuff and I worry about getting hurt or if they won't want the same stuff I would or wouldn't be open minded
I'm so isolated and I get hurt by the tiniest things and it's hard for me to be non judgmental about things. I'm stuck in an infinite loop of pain and wanting to change. Not having therapy is just hard
I had really bad suicidal thoughts 1-2 weeks ago
and they keep coming back over and over again
Except that time I almost did it but stopped myself because I know my family and friends care about me and would suffer without me and my friends would too. It just feels like I can't escape the pain. I'm jealous of couples around me and I'm attracted to a lot of different types of people and I get so jealous seeing all of them and all types of shit and it hurts so much. I'm alone and I want to be motivated to actually go to the gym and fix my weekly planner and habit tracker and clean my room and do all these things but I'm just stuck and there's so much more to all this and my doctor thinks I have BPD as well as my family and I just want love and to help myself and I'm in pain. But like I want specific stuff too, like white, european, latina, middle eastern and I want them to be loyal and not wanna cheat/microcheat and communication and honesty and I just want something healthy and positive and someone older to help motivate me. I also just can't ever be alone like I have to sleep in a call with someone every single day..

Does anyone know the exact time period of when the game is? I'm very curious about it. Also, the commando droid in the game is cool as hell.

18 M, 5'11, White Male
I have plenty of male friends but I also enjoy having a female support system as well, especially older women that know how to comfort me when I could be having an episode. I like F1, movies, video games, gym, sleeping in calls, psychology, and hiking. I'm interested in some pretty cool shit, but I'll save the more appealing things for my dms

I struggle with dating and want an older woman and just don't know what to do... (I'm in Atlanta Georgia,) I don't really want a black woman though and I don't know how to go about things. I just want communication, loyalty, honesty and transparency. (This is all aligned with my BPD) I have this very specific emotion where I get jealous easily and hate hearing about others being happy or their positive sex life or positive love life and like seeing all types of different people just makes me feel sad and alone and I keep getting emotionally hurt and I don't know how to handle it and seeing everyone have what I want sucks and I have a specific type in women like ethnicity and some stuff and I worry about getting hurt or if they won't want the same stuff I would or wouldn't be open minded
I'm so isolated and I get hurt by the tiniest things and it's hard for me to be non judgmental about things. I'm stuck in an infinite loop of pain and wanting to change. Not having therapy is just hard
I had really bad suicidal thoughts 1-2 weeks ago
and they keep coming back over and over again
Except that time I almost did it but stopped myself because I know my family and friends care about me and would suffer without me and my friends would too. It just feels like I can't escape the pain. I'm jealous of couples around me and I'm attracted to a lot of different types of people and I get so jealous seeing all of them and all types of shit and it hurts so much. I'm alone and I want to be motivated to actually go to the gym and fix my weekly planner and habit tracker and clean my room and do all these things but I'm just stuck and there's so much more to all this and my doctor thinks I have BPD as well as my family and I just want love and to help myself and I'm in pain. But like I want specific stuff too, like white, european, latina, middle eastern and I want them to be loyal and not wanna cheat/microcheat and communication and honesty and I just want something healthy and positive and someone older to help motivate me.

(This is all aligned with my BPD) I have this very specific emotion where I get jealous easily and hate hearing about others being happy or their positive sex life or positive love life and like seeing all types of different people just makes me feel sad and alone and I keep getting emotionally hurt and I don't know how to handle it and seeing everyone have what I want sucks and I have a specific type in women like ethnicity and some stuff and I worry about getting hurt or if they won't want the same stuff I would or wouldn't be open minded
I'm so isolated and I get hurt by the tiniest things and it's hard for me to be non judgmental about things. I'm stuck in an infinite loop of pain and wanting to change. Not having therapy is just hard
I had really bad suicidal thoughts 1-2 weeks ago
and they keep coming back over and over again
Except that time I almost did it but stopped myself because I know my family and friends care about me and would suffer without me and my friends would too. It just feels like I can't escape the pain. I'm jealous of couples around me and I'm attracted to a lot of different types of people and I get so jealous seeing all of them and all types of shit and it hurts so much. I'm alone and I want to be motivated to actually go to the gym and fix my weekly planner and habit tracker and clean my room and do all these things but I'm just stuck and there's so much more to all this and my doctor thinks I have BPD as well as my family and I just want love and to help myself and I'm in pain. But like I want specific stuff too, like white, european, latina, middle eastern and I want them to be loyal and not wanna cheat/microcheat and communication and honesty and I just want something healthy and positive and someone older to help motivate me.

I have this very specific emotion where I get jealous easily and hate hearing about others being happy or their positive sex life or positive love life and like seeing all types of different people just makes me feel sad and alone and I keep getting emotionally hurt and I don't know how to handle it and seeing everyone have what I want sucks and I have a specific type in women like ethnicity and some stuff and I worry about getting hurt or if they won't want the same stuff I would or wouldn't be open minded
I'm so isolated and I get hurt by the tiniest things and it's hard for me to be non judgmental about things. I'm stuck in an infinite loop of pain and wanting to change. Not having therapy is just hard
I had really bad suicidal thoughts 1-2 weeks ago
and they keep coming back over and over again
Except that time I almost did it but stopped myself because I know my family and friends care about me and would suffer without me and my friends would too. It just feels like I can't escape the pain. I'm jealous of couples around me and I'm attracted to a lot of different types of people and I get so jealous seeing all of them and all types of shit and it hurts so much. I'm alone and I want to be motivated to actually go to the gym and fix my weekly planner and habit tracker and clean my room and do all these things but I'm just stuck and there's so much more to all this and my doctor thinks I have BPD as well as my family and I just want love and to help myself and I'm in pain. But like I want specific stuff too, like white, european, latina, middle eastern and I want them to be loyal and not wanna cheat/microcheat and communication and honesty and I just want something healthy and positive and someone older to help motivate me.

I have this very specific emotion where I get jealous easily and hate hearing about others being happy or their positive sex life or positive love life and like seeing all types of different people just makes me feel sad and alone and I keep getting emotionally hurt and I don't know how to handle it and seeing everyone have what I want sucks and I have a specific type in women like ethnicity and some stuff and I worry about getting hurt or if they won't want the same stuff I would or wouldn't be open minded
I'm so isolated and I get hurt by the tiniest things and it's hard for me to be non judgmental about things. I'm stuck in an infinite loop of pain and wanting to change. Not having therapy is just hard
I had really bad suicidal thoughts 1-2 weeks ago
and they keep coming back over and over again
Except that time I almost did it but stopped myself because I know my family and friends care about me and would suffer without me and my friends would too. It just feels like I can't escape the pain. I'm jealous of couples around me and I'm attracted to a lot of different types of people and I get so jealous seeing all of them and all types of shit and it hurts so much. I'm alone and I want to be motivated to actually go to the gym and fix my weekly planner and habit tracker and clean my room and do all these things but I'm just stuck and there's so much more to all this and my doctor thinks I have BPD as well as my family and I just want love and to help myself and I'm in pain. But like I want specific stuff too, like white, european, latina, middle eastern and I want them to be loyal and not wanna cheat/microcheat and communication and honesty and I just want something healthy and positive and someone older to help motivate me.

I have this very specific emotion where I get jealous easily and hate hearing about others being happy or their positive sex life or positive love life and like seeing all types of different people just makes me feel sad and alone and I keep getting emotionally hurt and I don't know how to handle it and seeing everyone have what I want sucks and I have a specific type in women like ethnicity and some stuff and I worry about getting hurt or if they won't want the same stuff I would or wouldn't be open minded
I'm so isolated and I get hurt by the tiniest things and it's hard for me to be non judgmental about things. I'm stuck in an infinite loop of pain and wanting to change. Not having therapy is just hard
I had really bad suicidal thoughts 1-2 weeks ago
and they keep coming back over and over again
Except that time I almost did it but stopped myself because I know my family and friends care about me and would suffer without me and my friends would too. It just feels like I can't escape the pain. I'm jealous of couples around me and I'm attracted to a lot of different types of people and I get so jealous seeing all of them and all types of shit and it hurts so much. I'm alone and I want to be motivated to actually go to the gym and fix my weekly planner and habit tracker and clean my room and do all these things but I'm just stuck and there's so much more to all this and my doctor thinks I have BPD as well as my family and I just want love and to help myself and I'm in pain.

I have this very specific emotion where I get jealous easily and hate hearing about others being happy or their positive sex life or positive love life and like seeing all types of different people just makes me feel sad and alone and I keep getting emotionally hurt and I don't know how to handle it and seeing everyone have what I want sucks and I have a specific type in women like ethnicity and some stuff and I worry about getting hurt or if they won't want the same stuff I would or wouldn't be open minded
I'm so isolated and I get hurt by the tiniest things and it's hard for me to be non judgmental about things. I'm stuck in an infinite loop of pain and wanting to change. Not having therapy is just hard
I had really bad suicidal thoughts 1-2 weeks ago
and they keep coming back over and over again
Except that time I almost did it but stopped myself because I know my family and friends care about me and would suffer without me and my friends would too. It just feels like I can't escape the pain. I'm jealous of couples around me and I'm attracted to a lot of different types of people and I get so jealous seeing all of them and all types of shit and it hurts so much. I'm alone and I want to be motivated to actually go to the gym and fix my weekly planner and habit tracker and clean my room and do all these things but I'm just stuck and there's so much more to all this and my doctor thinks I have BPD as well as my family and I just want love and to help myself and I'm in pain.