u/Negative_Pie_666

I struggle with money counting...and math at all when it comes to double digits I struggled a thousand , I just need to feel like I'm not the only one who struggles this much, I graduated highschool but I felt the whole time like everyone who tried to help me with that class felt more like a hand holding my head down underwater as I drowned in the feelings of being too useless stupid and depressed, my mother swears to got I'm just acting like an [r-word] so no help there

​I'm dumb. I don't know how to do anything for myself by myself unless told to—by my mother, mind you, and I'm not underaged. Some days she's got to remind me to shower and brush my teeth. If she doesn't tell me to do something, I'm fully incapable of doing it by myself. I don't know what's wrong with me. Sometimes when she spends too long without telling me what to do, I start to forget how to function totally.

​Sometimes I do art or crochet to give myself a purpose, but I remember my skills are mediocre. I'm so bad at the only things I'm good at. It feels like the thing I'm truly good at is being a puppy that listens, yet does such a bad job that I can't be relied on—even by the person that put so much faith in me as a child to become something great. She looks at me with a look of such disappointment that I fear all I am is not good enough.or simply just incapable of functioning for myself.