u/NightshiftWorkr

When you hear a certain song, does it remind you of me?
When you see an old movie,
does it bring back memories?
When you see a couple holding hands does it remind you of us?
After so much time that has gone by , do you sometimes think about me?

You can throw away old pictures, delete texts & emails, block & unfollow, but damn, you can’t delete the memories in your mind or erase & block the feelings in deep in your heart..

As the waves of this limerence storm begin to subside, it’s time to let go of my LO,
This experience the past few months have been intense,
From exhilarating euphoria to the lowest of lows
I’m giving up on the idea of meeting with her, as much as it pains me to say but there is nothing to be gained from meeting, especially from her perspective, although she has no idea about what I have been going through, she deserves to live her life in peace, without needing to know about the emotional troubles of her old high school boyfriend, now to move on, and use this experience as motivation to make some changes in my life, once again I thank everyone, being able to share this experience has been a huge help.

As the waves of this limerence storm begin to subside, it’s time to let go of my LO,
This experience the past few months have been intense,
From exhilarating euphoria to the lowest of lows
I’m giving up on the idea of meeting with her, as much as it pains me to say but there is nothing to be gained from meeting, especially from her perspective, although she has no idea about what I have been going through, she deserves to live her life in peace, without needing to know about the emotional troubles of her old high school boyfriend, now to move on, and use this experience as motivation to make some changes in my life, once again I thank everyone, being able to share this experience has been a huge help.

Somewhere out there, my LO is living her life in relative peace and happiness and probably does not have the faintest idea, that she is the subject and the center of an alternate parallel universe that her ex boyfriend from high school for reasons unknown, has recently created in his mind 😳

Since my LO was my high school girlfriend from 1987-1990
These songs definitely won’t be familiar with some of the younger people here,
to me, these songs will always have a deep visceral emotional reaction because each is connected to special moments.
In no particular order:

1. “Love will lead you back “ Taylor Dane.
2. “ I still believe” Brenda K Starr
3. “Don’t disturb this groove” The System.
4. “Electric blue “ Icehouse
   How about you?
   And thanks again to this group, this is the only place I can talk about any of this. 🙏

I don’t know if this happens to any of you, but any time I go somewhere whether it’s a baseball game or theme park or the mall I’m always on edge but also secretly hoping I might run into my LO 😳

I’m going to be completely honest, those moments of euphoric energy I was feeling through this limerence high was intense but now that it’s gone, i think, it’s gone..
I now feel dull and uninspired

It’s time for me to finally face my LO in person, it’s been 36 years since we last saw each other, I know it’s probably not the best idea but I need to see the real person not this rose colored 16 year old high school version I have stuck in my brain, maybe it will finally bring me back to reality, right? What could possibly go wrong?

I’m having a hard time deleting my LO’s Spotify playlist I created from 1987-90, listening to it, is bitter sweet, I don’t want to forget those years, but if I keep listening to it, I feel I’m gonna go through another limerence cycle. Now I really understand what “caught between the Scylla and Charybdis” means…

How do I? a 55 year old married man become low key obsessed with my high school girlfriend, yet here I am, how did I get here? Here is some context. The last 8 years have been tough, lost both my parents, my marriage was in a very rough spot, I was feeling depressed, emotionally numb, then one day I was going through boxes of pictures and I found and envelope of pictures from high school, and most of them were of my girlfriend my first love from 1988, so I uploaded them, the next thing I know, I created a Spotify playlist of the music we would listen to, and began to listen to it religiously every day while I worked out, I even created some Ai clips of us, then I felt like I had some kind of awakening, for the first time in a long time, I felt, happy, hopeful, I felt alive, I’ll be honest, the feeling was intoxicating, like I was in love with her all over again, like an old wound that was cut open and bleeding, I didn’t understand how this was possible, I have not seen her since we broke up in 1990, I knew this was completely irrational, but I was feeling so good, I didn’t want to stop, if I could figure out a way and ride this feeling because it was helping me heal, my next illogical step was to try and reach out to her via social media through the different social media apps, but she has not responded to me, I was heartbroken, I went from the ultimate love high to really low, but in a way it was a good thing, she didn’t respond because the state of mind I was in, had she responded and somehow wanted me back, I would have walked away from everything, the worst part is not being able to talk anyone about this, especially my wife. But now that I know what limerence is, and finding this place to vent, is really going to help me, thank you.

I thought I was losing my mind, I’m a 55 year old, married almost 30 years, I recently became fixated over my girlfriend from high school, almost as if I was falling in love with her all over again, and the crazy part is that I haven’t seen her since we broke up in 1990 😳
I’m kinda relieved that I found out what limerence is, now I have an answer for what I have been going through