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I’m biologically male and my chromosomes are XY, but I was born with partial androgen insensitivity syndrome (PAIS). In simple terms, my androgen receptors (e.g. testosterone receptors) don’t respond properly to hormones like testosterone. In my case, this means I was born with a functional, penetrable vagina, but no uterus.
To be clear, that means I have no dick.

I don’t really grow facial hair (not that I’d want to anyway), but I still have typically masculine features and a pretty twinkish appearance, partly because I keep my testosterone and estrogen levels stable.

I mean, from the outside I just look like any other guy.

Anyway, I’m gay 😂

Ich bin biologisch männlich, meine Chromosomen sind XY, aber ich wurde mit einer partiellen Androgeninsensitivität (PAIS) geboren. Einfach ausgedrückt reagieren meine Androgenrezeptoren (z. B. auf Testosteron) nicht richtig auf Hormone wie Testosteron.

In meinem Fall bedeutet das, dass ich mit einer funktionsfähigen, penetrierbaren Vagina geboren wurde, aber keine Gebärmutter habe.

Ich habe zum Beispiel keinen Bartwuchs (und würde ehrlich gesagt auch keinen wollen), habe aber trotzdem typisch männliche Merkmale und sehe eher twink-mäßig aus. Das liegt zum Teil daran, dass ich meinen Testosteron- und Östrogenspiegel stabil halte.

Ich meine, äußerlich sehe ich einfach aus wie ein ganz normaler Typ.

Ach ja, und ich bin schwul 😂

Sono biologicamente un maschio, i miei cromosomi sono XY, ma sono nato con la sindrome da insensibilità parziale agli androgeni. In parole semplici, i miei recettori degli androgeni (es. per il testosterone) non rispondono correttamente a ormoni come il testosterone. Nel mio caso, questo questo significa che sono nato con una vagina funzionale e penetrabile, ma senza utero.

Non ho tipo la barba (e comunque non la vorrei), ma conservo comunque tratti tipicamente maschili e un aspetto twinkish, in parte perché mantengo stabili i miei livelli di testosterone ed estrogeni.
Voglio dire, all'esterno sembro un ragazzo come tutti.
Comunque sono gay 😂

**scusate eventuali errori, non parlo spesso l'italiano

I'm a 22 yo gay guy.

I feel like a guy, but I suffered from genital dysphoria, so about a year ago I had PPT vaginoplasty (which, I promise you, turned out really well after spending almost €30k). Let's just say it closed off possibilities with some guys, but opened them up with others. Anyway, I did it for myself, and now I feel good in my body.

So anyway, about two weeks ago I went out with a bisexual guy who I'll call Kevin.

Kevin, like a lot of guys, was, let's say, curious about sleeping with me, but even so, from the very first moment he was such a sweetheart. You know, one of those people you look at and think they wouldn't hurt a fly.

He was a bit awkward but super cute, and after a few minutes I already had butterflies in my stomach. I won't bother explaining what falling for someone feels like, since everyone already knows.

Anyway, after dinner he said he'd forgotten his medication at home and asked me to walk him back. I walked him home, and, without getting into details, we slept together. Kevin didn't last very long, but I have to say he was really good 😂

Afterward he said it had been amazing, I smiled at him, and then he added, "Wait, let me get the door for you, the handle's a bit stiff." HONESTLY, IT FELT LIKE A PRETTY BLATANT EXCUSE TO SEND ME HOME.

I don't know if he said it with that intention, or if he's just so sweet and clueless that he wanted to help me without even thinking I might have wanted to stay over.

Today he texted me, "Want to come over tonight? 😘" I said, "Sure, what time?" and he replied, "Whenever you want, after 9pm, I'll be home waiting for you 😘"

On one hand it was really sweet of him to use those emojis, but on the other, I don't get why we're not having dinner together first???

What do you guys think his intentions are? I mean, I fall for people easily, but with him I really, truly have so many butterflies, and I don't know what to think.

Se il me di 2 anni fa leggesse quello che ho scritto, gli prenderebbe un colpo.
Non voglio dare troppi dettagli, ma in pratica quest'anno sono diventato maestro di sci in Austria.

Per la prima volta nella mia vita sono felice, mi sveglio e non vedo l'ora di vivere la giornata.
Per me insegnare a sciare ai bambini é davvero qualcosa di unico.
Ogni momento di ogni mia giornata é, seppur spesso faticoso, speciale.
Potrei raccontarvi da quando siamo in seggiovia oppure quando ci sediamo in rifugio e devo tagliare le milanesi.
Poi ho per la prima volta dei veri e proprio amici.
Penso di aver trovato, a 19 anni, ciò che molti cercano per tutta la vita, cioé la felicità.

Io ho la opportunità di studiare in una università prestigiosa dall'altra parte del mondo, ma sinceramente non me la sento di rinunciare a questo.

Sono un fallito? Ho paura di deludere tutti.
Tutti mi ritraggono come un ragazzo con una grande intelligenza e sono sicuro che tutti direbbe che sono sprecato.
Ma alla fine la felicità non é l'obbiettivo della vita?