u/NoBlackberry6948

So I am a childhood sa victim and I remember it vividly because it happened way too many times. I am not exaggerating. So i was 6 and my little sister was 4 but she also remembered it vividly in disgusting detail. And so she gossips about me to my other bratty sisters who are 14-12 and they started this rumor that I had hiv. They even created this narrative about me that I am a s*x worker since the bizarre age of 6. They sl*t shame me every single day. They also constantly remind me that it was all MY FAULT??? And to make it worse they know I never dated anyone and yet they claim I have all these boyfriends I never even talked to tf. How do I deal with this? I need help!!

Tw: childhood sa; self-harm

So when I was about 6 years old i would be left alone with my little sister who was maybe 4 years old in the supervision of my uncle. This became a daily thing so my uncle always pulled me away to r*pe me and I remember it vividly and somehow my sister does too. I also remember he would record it and watch it or show it to me. I believe it happened 40+ times and he would have had a bunch of pics and videos for all the time he did this. I never told my parents because tbh I was very disgusted of myself especially because I started having green vaginal discharge at age 7. As me and my sister got older my sister ended up gossiping about me to my younger sisters who are currently 15 and 13. So now all 3 of them blame me for this. They even started slut shaming me and creating this false narrative against me claiming I had all these boyfriends and that I have hiv. They yell this in public and people laugh at me words even spreaded about me at school. I started cutting myself because lately everyone I know started seeing me as this whore who started doing s*x work at the bizarre age of 6. And that uncle I mentioned earlier he’s making excuses to visit my parents by saying he hasn’t seen them in a while. I told my mom he makes me uncomfortable but my sisters keep telling her ho much I miss our uncle and to call him to visit us. I don’t know what to do. And was it really my fault?!?!?? I learned in childhood sa cases the child is always innocent, is this bs???

I hate this app and I agree with other people. It’s just repetitive brain rot content, clip farms, gen alpha slang. And hood type content. I made an account today scrolled for 5 minutes didn’t get the hype and deleted that shit and no I’m not a boomer if you get that vibe from me. Bruh this rant could go on and on but you get the point. Oh and it also triggered my anxiety too.

So it’s a somewhat popular belief that when you hear a knock or bang at the door usually at night and nobody’s there, you’re letting spirits or ghosts in your house. Is this real? I had this experience yesterday at 2:00 a.m. and I thought it was my neighbor who is a victim of (dv) but no one was there at all.

I feel so alone and I think I can’t be employed bc my dizziness makes me see stars and it’s also causing ear ringing/rumbling. I feel off balance and like I’m constantly swaying and my vision starts to shake violently at times. My doctor says it’s my anemia but idk guys I think it’s not.

So when I was 17(f) in 2024 i had the strangest dizziness in my life. it felt like the room was shaking and swaying violently I couldn’t keep my balance. Keep in mind i got off the bus as usual bee doing this for 3 years btw. But it couldn’t be motion sickness no. And I had this exact feeling twice or so until I turned 19 I had this feeling but it happened 3 times during my sleep and I woke up extremely dizzy and I heard like car engine like rumbling on my right ear. I was told by my doctor it could be my anemia which I had since 17 yes. But I think it’s not my anemia triggering it so I had an MRI done which came back normal. My age makes vestibular migraines seem weird because I heard older individuals get that. I’m not sure because the episodes last either 4 minutes or seconds but feel so long. I’m scared and been praying and going to church thinking it might be witchcraft because I may have messed with an individual whose mom is supposedly doing “brujería” in an indigenous part of Mexico. Let me know what i should do or if you experienced any dizziness like this.

So when I was 17(f) in 2024 i had the strangest dizziness in my life. it felt like the room was shaking and swaying violently I couldn’t keep my balance. Keep in mind i got off the bus as usual bee doing this for 3 years btw. But it couldn’t be motion sickness no. And I had this exact feeling twice or so until I turned 19 I had this feeling but it happened 3 times during my sleep and I woke up extremely dizzy and I heard like car engine like rumbling on my right ear. I was told by my doctor it could be my anemia which I had since 17 yes. But I think it’s not my anemia triggering it so I had an MRI done which came back normal. My age makes vestibular migraines seem weird because I heard older individuals get that. I’m not sure because the episodes last either 4 minutes or seconds but feel so long. I’m scared and been praying and going to church thinking it might be witchcraft because I may have messed with an individual whose mom is supposedly doing “brujería” in an indigenous part of Mexico. Let me know what i should do or if you experienced any dizziness like this.

For reference 4ft 11 in F weight 114 I’m being called hippo and big in public. By my own family who is not beautiful at all they don’t even look like Barbie. I’m very anemic and is constantly light headed every day. I get migraines by my anemia and my ideal weight goal is 85-90 ib. I want a corpse bride type of figure to end all this body shaming because it’s getting to my head. I’m being publicly harassed and recorded in public for the narrative my family placed on me as the hippo or fat girl and people stare and laugh. I need advice because intense fasting and cardio might make me pass out or be fatal right??????

For context there’s this individual named Mia. in 2023 her face went viral and was unfortunately being used for catfishing. On instagram there’s an account called 805babey with 1,600 followers which is suspicious bc it’s private and she definitely had more followers than that. I’d like to mention theres hundreds of accounts claiming to be her but 805babey is the most successful one. This account however changed their username 8 times which is super suspicious. Btw each catfish accounts are claiming to be from 805 area in Cali and I’m from there as well and everyone I met has no idea who she is even though she’s viral and from our area.