u/No_Flow334

Finished my internship last month, and honestly? The experiences still haunts me. I made mistakes almost everyday. There were days i wish no task will fall onto me but at the same time, i feel insecure when I wasnt provided one.

Pinaka tumatak talaga sa’kin yung feedback sakin sa practice activity ko. My supervisor told me. “Parang ganto lang yan e, alam mo yung, parang connect the dots? So dapat magmamake sense yan altogether” pati yung narinig na jokes about sa “Bawiin na natin sa HR yung letter niya”

I was provided real project tasks and i feel like, because of me, project deadlines were pushed back. Starting then, they started entrusting me with low stake tasks.

Honestly, i took everything as it is. I learned a lot because i got schooled a lot. I wasn’t used to doing tasks na mala thesis, kaya mabagal at clumsy ako. I thought what i learned in uni was enough but then i performed badly at my first ever private company HTE.

Anyways, overall, i struggled, finished and overcame it.

I will bring my newfound experience onto my new internship.

I feel like there's so much negative discussion around people who are "lutang". I can attest to this. These discussions are valid as they may be an unavoidable topic of discussion in groupworks, work, orgwork, or any self-sustained or collaborative activity.

Ever since i was a child, as early as grade 1, I've always had bad body coordination. I couldn't follow simple instructions, couldn't connect one dance move to another (things my peers could easily do). Naturally, my advisers (also the choreographers) and parents chastised and excluded me. I also couldn't do sports.

I wasn't like the other kids who were fully attuned to their surroundings. Truthfully, I don't think I was "aware" till the pandemic hit (SHS).

All I know, i was cruising through life and suddenly SNAP. I was aware. Routine and schedules were laid before me, I just had to follow. Suddenly, I had to think for future.

"Follow" I cannot do. I've always had a problem with processing things someone just told me milliseconds ago. I am deaf as fuck. So if the input and RAM is fucked, putangina saan ako pupulutin nito.

There have been many times I lost points or failed a quiz or exam just because I didn't understand the verbally explained instructions. There have been many times I failed a subject because I couldn't grasp the material as fast as peers did, losing same-day assessments on discussions.

Anways, my point is. Sometimes, that lutang person you were talking shit about, actually has a learning disability. Or probably they're not in the right condition to be properly "functional" in your eyes. Who knows. You don't. You jumped on the shit talking train fast.

Being lutang is hard. The best I could describe it is, it's like a momentary out-of-body experience (disassociation). Have you guys experienced not being tethered to your own, singular body? Not a productive activity i'm telling you. It's fun to escape from reality once in a while, but being untethered, unbeknownst to my own knowledge, is freaking scary.

I have always been that lutang girl who make do with the little wit she has. And if you know someone like me, please give them some grace. A push/difficult talk is fine, but please remember, they're aware of their own shortcomings, please don't rub the salt on the wound with the intention to hurt them not to help them. you're no better than a bully.

I believe my shortcomings originate from lack of friends, playing outside and stimulating activities during my formative years. I was barred from playing outside. I can't do sports. I can't dance. All I had is my quiet self who savoured undisturbed time as a learned behaviour from being barred from playing outside.

Stay health and active kids.
I've already joined orgs. I still suck at listening and following orders at my OJT. I'm even a community leader.

I'm legally an adult now. Hays. and I still have old habits brought from grade school. i'm slowly ridding parts of myself, one experience at a time.

I hope everyone knows that they're trying their best with the cards they've been dealt with. And if you're like me feel free to share your story,.

Best Regards,
that person who hasn't reached their full potential yet.

I feel like there's so much negative discussion around people who are "lutang". I can attest to this. These discussions are valid as they may be an unavoidable topic of discussion in groupworks, work, orgwork, or any self-sustained or collaborative activity.

Ever since i was a child, as early as grade 1, I've always had bad body coordination. I couldn't follow simple instructions, couldn't connect one dance move to another (things my peers could easily do). Naturally, my advisers (also the choreographers) and parents chastised and excluded me. I also couldn't do sports.

I wasn't like the other kids who were fully attuned to their surroundings. Truthfully, I don't think I was "aware" till the pandemic hit (SHS).

All I know, i was cruising through life and suddenly SNAP. I was aware. Routine and schedules were laid before me, I just had to follow. Suddenly, I had to think for future.

Follow I cannot do. I've always had a problem with processing things someone just told me milliseconds ago. I am deaf as fuck. So if the input and RAM is fucked, putangina saan ako pupulutin nito.

There have been many times I lost points or failed a quiz or exam just because I didn't understand the verbally explained instructions. There have been many times I failed a subject because I couldn't grasp the material as fast as peers did, losing same-day assessments on discussions.

Anways, my point is. Sometimes, that lutang person you were talking shit about, actually has a learning disability. Or probably they're not in the right condition to be properly "functional" in your eyes. Who knows. You don't. You jumped on the shit talking train fast.

Being lutang is hard. The best I could describe it is, it's like a momentary out-of-body experience (disassociation). Have you guys experienced not being tethered to your own, singular body? Not a productive activity i'm telling you. It's fun to escape from reality once in a while, but being untethered, unbeknownst to my own knowledge, is freaking scary.

I have always been that lutang girl who make do with the little wit she has. And if you know someone like me, please give them some grace. A push/difficult talk is fine, but please remember, they're aware of their own shortcomings, please don't rub the salt on the wound with the intention to hurt them not to help them. you're no better than a bully.

I believe my shortcomings originate from lack of friends, playing outside and stimulating activities during my formative years. I was barred from playing outside. I can't do sports. I can't dance. All I had is my quiet self who savoured undisturbed time as a learned behaviour from being barred from playing outside.

Stay health and active kids.
I've already joined orgs. I still suck at listening and following orders at my OJT. I'm even a community leader.

I'm legally an adult now. Hays. and I still have old habits brought from grade school. i'm slowly ridding parts of myself, one experience at a time.

I hope everyone knows that they're trying their best with the cards they've been dealt with. And if you're like me feel free to share your story,.

Best Regards,
that person who hasn't reached their full potential yet.

Alam kong gago ako. Pero mali ba ako sa part na nakikipagkatwiran ako sa mama ko na wala naman mali sa ginawa ko at dahil sa paulit ulit na sigawan namin nasabihan ko siya nang wala "akong respeto sayo" at "hindi ka respe-respeto".

Today, this evening, bumaba ako (F/21) para mag dinner. Pagkatapos ko mag hapunan ng isda at kanin. May nakita akong avocado. Pinisil ko--okay hindi gaanong malambot pero nagdent siya. Pinili ko yung pinaka malambot na nasa plastic. Noong hiniwa ko, color yellow green siya, hindi maputla katulad ng sayote. Na-scoop ko na yung isang half nang napansin kong may blisters or puno ng itim-itim yung isa pang half. Panandalian kong nilagay sa isang tuppwerware, katabi ng balat ng half na na-scoop ko na para durogin yung unang half. Inabot ko yung other half na may itim-itim para yukumusin at mas madaling madurog sa ng kubyertos nang biglang sinugod ako ni mama. Yup, sugod. reminds of that armored titan meme, or erling haaland meme. Basta, for some fucking reason, she dashed toward where I was at the right at the far end of the dining table.

"Ikaw talaga wala kang kaalam alam sa mundo! Puro ka kasi computer!" Ako naman nagtataka bakit ako sinisigawan.

"Bakit na naman?" sabi ko.

"Alam mo bang hilaw pa yan?" Oo duh pinisil pisil ko nga diba.

"Ano naman okay lang sakin."

"Hindi yan kinakain nang hilaw! Alam ko na yang ugali mo! Itatapon mo na naman yan."

??? eh kakainin ko nga? kasi gusto ko nang panghimagas.

"Bakit nakakalason ba kung kakainin nang hilaw?"

From this point non-verbatim na kasi paikot-ikot na ang usapan namin.

Mula sa "hilaw na avocado" na di ko kakainin, napunta sa bakit raw nakikipagsigawan ako at hindi nagpapakumbaba.

Habang sinisigawan niya ako, hinahaluan ko ng bear brand at asukal yung hilaw na avocado. Medyo maalat kasi nahaluan ng luha ko. Pero overall, masarap at malambot.

"Alam ko na uagli mo! Sasayangin mo lang yan"

"Oh talaga? Alam mo bang bisexual ako? Kasi diba palagi akong nagkwkwento sa'yo? Kaya kilalang-kilala mo ako."

"Sa isip mo lang yan."

Sabi ko, "Sana magdasal ka nalang ulit sa Dyos mo para maging tahimik ka uli."

Nabring up yung part na porque pinalaki akong komportable, wala na silang ibang pagkukulang. Na para bang sobrang faultless na nila sa ibang bagay.

Bakit raw di ako marunong magpakumbaba.

Sabi ko, "Minsan hindi karespe-respeto ang mga pinaggagawa mo." Sinugod ulit ako. Tas sa part ko na to di ko na matandaan kasi binubugbog na ako hehe.

Nagbitaw ako nang masasamang salita katulad nang, "pag laki ko hindi kita bibisitahin." na sya namang tinungunan niya ng: "maiintindihan mo rin pag laki mo."

sabi ko, "ayoko maging katulad mo pagtanda ko. mas gusto ko pang mamatay."

"Pagkatapos kitang palakihin?!"

"Mga generation niyo talaga walang modo!"

"Porque malaki ka na ganyan na ugali mo sa akin!"

Paikot-ikot na yung usapan hanggang sa hinahatak niya na ako papuntang pintuan kasi lumayas na raw ako ng bahay. Nagpumiglas ako papuntang sofa. Sigaw. Sigaw pabalik. Sandali kong hinugasan yung mangkok ko at umakyat ako sa kwarto ko para makaalis sa sakaniya. Nagmessage ako family gc namin. OFW si papa. Active siya twing gabi. Sinulat ko yung mga nangyari kanina--yung puno't dulo ng argumento at yung katwiran ko kanina. Nagleave ng GC si mama at blinock ako. Heto ako ngayon, nagsusulat at nagkwkwento sa internet.

Alam ko namang may ugali ako. Hindi ako sobrang mabait, mapagbigay at mapagkumbaba. May anger issues. Most of the time, I wonder, why do i struggle with giving and accepting intimacy? Why do I struggle with my speech? Why am I so clueless in things? Why am I so..why am I the way I am. The evidence all points to my mom.

I am an adult now. I know i have to have full accountability of my actions. My impulses. My failings. My time. My morality. All up to me now.

It's so hard to become a better person when I regularly deal with bullshit like "that". All of that family failing detangling for a "raw avocado".

Mahal ko mama ko pero madalas, ang hirap niyang mahalin. Alam kong mahirap din akong mahalin. Maybe we're like this because of one of us won't change.

For millenials and gen z alike, may ganto rin ba kayong situation. Dapat ba nanahimik nalang ako? Ang gusto ko lang naman kumain nang tahimik pero bakit ganoon, kailangan kong ipagtanggol sarili ko. Hindi ko ba dapat ipilit na makita ng nanay ko yung perspective ko?

Bago nyo pa mapoint out, alam kong salbahe ako pero hindi ibig sabihin noon, di ko gets mama ko. She came from the province. She had to rely to a man bring her life up. She doesn't have a life other than being a mom. I understand she has lot of pent up frustrations. She has insecurities with her intellect and it doesnt help that her eldest daughter doesn't back down with poorly-reasoned arguments or/is always outsmarting her in most situations. I know my mom has depressive moments--that's why she didnt talk to me in an affectionate way during my childhood or teens. She did, but those moments didn't really stick to me. She's always been, well, a nagger. She has always been angry. I wish i met my mom when she was still a maiden, still full of dreams for the future and in peace with herself.

Help, i JUST LEARNED YOU CAN GET FIRED FROM YOUR INTERNSHIP?

The cases i've read are from other countries.

Has anyone gotten fired in our country?

If it's alright, could you share your experience? What was the situation and the grounds? Would you discourage people from pursuing their OJT/internship there?

Note: I'm well aware that there are different expectations from an "OJT" and internship internship. I feel like a discussions like this would bring awareness to inexperienced individuals here.

Got my macbook recently. Only has been using it this month.

My browser is Opera and I have more than 10 tabs open. I do think opera takes up most of the energy.

But in my full 1 and 1/2 week of use, mainly administrative work, it only lasts to 4-6 hours on average.

How about others? I'd love to know!

I interned in a research HTE. My working hours is 9 hours (because I need to skip l My tasks are real projects. My tasks get screened and bounced back to me, and I get more insecure the more I get caught making tiny mistakes. Partida, hindi pa siya totoong "research" part. Not gonna provide anything more than that.

I have a hunch I got in because I was expected to perform well because of my university.

The more I spend time, the more I expose myself.

Has anyone have had similar experiences? How do I make the most out of my internship? Will my real "practice work" really have any bearing?

TyiA

Hi. pa-help naman please, kapapaayos lang ng phone ko, bagong gastusin na naman uli.

May mga naka experience na ba ng di nagana yung port? Nagtry na ako ng powerbank, charger ng pinsan ko, nagtanggal ng dumi sa loob-- ayaw talaga.

Noong isang araw, natalsikan ng mosture yung phone ko tas simula nun, naghang siya. E sabay mababa na charge, nagfreeze siya tapos nagcoconsume pa'rin ng battery, data at nag-uupdate ng notification. Noong nakauwi na ako, doon ko nalang nabuhay gamit nang charger ko. At some point ata napindot ko yung bypass before/after nag hang-- di ko maalala.

Fast forward ngayon, lumabas ako para magjogging. Nakapag charge pa ako kaninang umaga ha. Dinala ko yung Anker powerbank ko kasi lowbat na yung phone ko pero gusto ko mabilang steps ko. Pag-uwi ko, napansin kong di na siya nagchcharge. Triny ko sa charger ko ayaw, sa pinsan ko ayaw.

Ano kaya pwede ko gawin? 3 % nalang siya. Nabubuhay sya twing nagchcharge pero walang nadadagdag na percentage.

May naka experience na po ba nito?

Magkano po magpaayos sa GreenHillls Beyond the box? QCD etc.

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Based po sa picture, sunog kaya yung loob? may mga black spots po.

https://preview.redd.it/qmcfqzoqd0dh1.png?width=1536&format=png&auto=webp&s=8318dae5553a7cfc622ba8b7bf5aad4ecef8baf1

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Tyia po sasagot. Be kind in the comments po. If wala pong added value, wag nalang po ituloy huhu naiiyak na here!

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Hi. Has anyone interned in this company? If yes, could you please share your experience? Would love to get some insights.

TYiA!

Not going to give further information other than:

(1) Voluntary Internship

(2) Company is active in Southeast Asia

(3) Weirdly inactive in social media despite being BIG in Asia.

(4) Hybrid

I already know I'll probably get exploited as a student intern. As long as I have something to put in my resume hays.

May tips ba kayo work-wise? Mga Dos and DONTs in terms of socializing?

I need technical tips po. Tyia!

Not going to give further information other than:

(1) Voluntary Internship

(2) Company is active in Asia

(3) Weirdly inactive in social media despite being BIG in Asia.

(4) Hybrid

(5) Short total work hours

(6) Operations Market Research

I already know I'll probably get exploited as a student intern. As long as I have something to put in my resume/CV, I'm willing to adapt and learn.

Any tips work-wise? Dos and DONTs in terms of socializing? I need feasible info, not vague ones.

Thank you!

Hi is it possible to take a leave of absence even if you're an irregular? Has anyone had this experience/know someone? Pa-share naman hahaha

Strictly NO reposting on other social media. Please respect my wish.

Long venting ahead. It's somewhat a re-occuring theme in my life hence the oversharing.

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I have been sad all my life and people definitely know the way I present myself.

I am 20F and I think have only gained conciousness about life (myself, ambitions, academics. everything) during the pandemic. Before that time, I was just going with the flow. Going to school everyday, until the virus outbreak happened--everything came to a halt. I was taken out of a trance. Suddenly, I am someone who have to actively account for myself and coincidentally, I was in a phase of my life where I have to make big decisions that would greatly impact my life: senior high school. I ruminated a lot during this time and I realized: I have a personality of a dry paint. I could only interact with my dorkish small circle of friends whom I only have a relationship with because of proximity. Outside, them? Render me mute because I cannot hold a conversation. I undeliberately stay in my head and I realize, people found it difficult to connect with me because I do not direct my emotions through facial expressions and body language. It doesn't help that my humour and interests are completely different from your average everyday Filipinos (which ironically doesn't swing to the other end of the spectrum because that side finds me too normal.) This will be alluded to later. One thing to also know about me, i had an inflated sense of intelligence. I consistently ranked with honors in high school despite not knowing how to solve for the x and y intercept, and evaluate algebraic expressions. I didn't join competitions. I couldn't debate. I couldn't banter. My teachers didn't know me any better than a name in their class attendance. Still, I thought FOR SOME reason, I was part of the creme of the crop because I was part of the honors list. I didn't know what the frick my thought process was. Strictly NO reposting on other social media. Please respect my wish.

SHS will make or break your college life. So, I decided to go to this adequately popular and nice university. I badly wanted to get out because I realized, man I have been attending said JHS but only one person truly cares and know me. So to start anew, i crafted this perfomance: the likeable kikay artsy girl. I ended up burning out because I couldn't keep the facade because being social attracts responsibility and expectations to you. Strictly NO reposting on other social media. Please respect my wish. DONT TURN MY LIFE INTO AI GENERATED QUICK DOPAMINE FIX SLOP YOU REDDIT STORY SCRAPERS. My classmates expected me to be smart because I was presenting este appeared to be social and active in class. I eventually had to retreat to my social circle of "class rejects" to attract less attention to myself because If I continue--they will notice I cannot keep a conversation going for more than 3 minutes much less i can hold eye contact. I didn't realize at that time, I had a severe case of maladaptive daydreaming. In normal conversations, people do not engage with what I say in a group discussion. I'm that someone who butts in when something interesting is said. I'm lucky if they notice. If I'm extra lucky, my one liner makes one or two person pick up where I commented. If I'm extra EXTRA lucky, they laugh, beam at my joke. I'm that girl who needs a third person to 1-to-1 hangout because my social battery will drain faster than an iphone 10 with 50% battery health.

College came and I wanted to re-define myself. Again. I went for a bigger university and oh boy, I felt like a grade schooler trying to appeal to the ates and kuyas in highschool. I wanted to BE that big college girl with exaggerated facial and body language and CHARIZZZ humour; that girl with colorful eye make-up, shopee knock off leather office shoulder bag and muji-replica binder notebook. I wanted to be IT GIRL that the gays and girls will like. Alas, my mask fell again. I couldn't match my life experiences with my peers. I didn't have a life to really share. I didn't have the connections. I couldn't make a decent relationship. I didn't have the smarts either.

I know, everyone knows, I'm at the bottom of the class. I couldn't hold a memory even if my life depended on it; my failures were permanently recorded in my TOR. The worst of it all, I have been watching my life go through multiple nosedive through the trash because of my bad time management skills driven by i dont know??? undiagnosed depression? long-term sadness and lack of self-worth.

I cannot seem to get out of this cycle of self-destruction. I have other issues that I haven't mentioned but somewhat alluded to. I know I need to take myself less seriously or loosen up as the American sitcoms say. I am the product of bad habits come to life. I don't know how to turn my life around. I'm aimlessly surviving college life.

TLDR: God, I long to be normal with perfect executive function and wit.

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All these descriptions of myself was well used to describe myself because I can verbalize it better. I didn't see the pattern of my behaviour long-term because I was (still am) very short-sighted (figuratively and literally).

I just needed to get this out of my system really. Any help is welcome.