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Hello,I think I might have OSDD/P-DID.I cant afford therapy rn.It would be very helpful for me to find a group or place to talk with people experiencing similar things.I am in a special case where the alters arent the most significant part of my experience.First,I have very few,other than me,seems like theres 2 others only.My main issues seem to be dissociation so bad its affecting my life a lot.My focus,my memory,my mood,my motivation etc etc even without much blackout amnesia.A lot of cptsd adjacent symptoms too.Most CDD related places seem to be very focused on the alters part which is very understandable for people who experience a significant amount of them and where they are very different.Im just not one of those people.Any help?

Hello,I think I might have OSDD/P-DID.I cant afford therapy rn.It would be very helpful for me to find a group or place to talk with people experiencing similar things.I am in a special case where the alters arent the most significant part of my experience.First,I have very few,other than me,seems like theres 2 others only.My main issues seem to be dissociation so bad its affecting my life a lot.My focus,my memory,my mood,my motivation etc etc.A lot of cptsd adjacent symptoms too.Most CDD related places seem to be very focused on the alters part which is very understandable for people who experience a significant amount of them and where they are very different.Im just not one of those people.Any help?

Hello,I think I might have OSDD/P-DID.I cant afford therapy rn.It would be very helpful for me to find a group or place to talk with people experiencing similar things.I am in a special case where the alters arent the most significant part of my experience.First,I have very few,other than me,seems like theres 2 others only.My main issues seem to be dissociation so bad its affecting my life a lot.My focus,my memory,my mood,my motivation etc etc even though its rarely blackout amnesia.A lot of cptsd adjacent symptoms too.Most CDD related places seem to be very focused on the alters part which is very understandable for people who experience a significant amount of them and where they are very different.Im just not one of those people.Any help?

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Idk,the dissociation, derealization,and thoughts that barely feel like mine and trauma related shit like depression,hypervigilence and cynicism are genuinely killing me but I not only cant afford therapy currently but ehen if I coule in the future no one where I live would je able to help this specific thing.And i also dont even know if I actually have a dissociative disorder,or if im just faking,or if im jst very sensitive and unable to be normal.Idk.My traumatic experiences definteley werent bad enough,they were so mild I didn't even realize they were traumatic until recently,but ive tried every treatement,meds therapy out there for regular anxiety,ocd,depression and at some point my doctor even suspected a psychosis disorder like psychotic depression and put me in anti psychotics,and nothing helped.Its clearly not chemical,whatever it is.Idk what to do.

Idk,the dissociation, derealization,and thoughts that barely feel like mine and trauma related shit like depression,hypervigilence and cynicism are genuinely killing me but I not only cant afford therapy currently but ehen if I coule in the future no one where I live would je able to help this specific thing.And i also dont even know if I actually have a dissociative disorder,or if im just faking,or if im jst very sensitive and unable to be normal.Idk.My traumatic experiences definteley werent bad enough,they were so mild I didn't even realize they were traumatic until recently,but ive tried every treatement,meds therapy out there for regular anxiety,ocd,depression and at some point my doctor even suspected a psychosis disorder like psychotic depression and put me in anti psychotics,and nothing helped.Its clearly not chemical,whatever it is.Idk what to do.

Where can I find cheap religious trauma and dissociation focused therapy online

From a muslim country and was exposed to some shit as a kid,I never rlly realized its what caused most of my issues.When my mental health got rlly bad later on and I went to therapists,the first two would start saying shit like "im sorry for what you went through!No kid should have seen things like that!But YOU SEE,prophet muhammed peace be upon him ACTUALLY treated his slaves good,and was a good person especially to his wives!Sorry religion hurt you but it will help to fix your relationship with God!Theres an explanation to ALL your doubts!See killing those who leave islam is logical under certain conditions if they start spreading their EVIL ATHEIST idealogy !See!Its like treason to your country is punished by death!You will only be happy if you find GOD AND FAITH AGAIN".Lmao I would just dissociate the Fuck out when she said stuff like that.Anyways I went to a psychiatrist and the guy just drugged me out,and never discussed any of my symptoms or experiences.If I say I still feel bad he increases my dosage and tells me to come in 3-4 monthes.I tried to talk abt my shit and he was like "why are you anxious?God wont punish you,you're mentally unwell and confused"-"well see I dont believe anymore im just struggling with focusing,dissociation and processing some feelings related-" "dont say you dont believe anymore!You're just 17!you dont know anything !"anyways im 19 now so not a minor but my country's currency is rlly weak so id appreciate cheap therapy.Especially if its specialized in my issues(by order of how much each affects me:dissociation/focusing issues, religious trauma,and then anxiety).I rlly need help.Thanks everyone.I dont care about a diagnosis or anything just treating dissociative symptoms that are heavily affecting my life and functionning..My biggest issue is dissociation,dissociation transes/stupor(they happen at the worst Fucking time dear lord)extreme zoning out,inability to feel present,inability to process my emotions unless im dissociating and the part doing the processing is the younger part of me,mood issues,and other classical trauma shits.I rlly need help lmao.Any suggestions would be appreciated,thanks everyone.I also had depression/stress induced religious psychosis at 15 yo,but nothing like that ever happened again.

Tw for general discussions of religious trauma.From a muslim country and was exposed to some shit as a kid,I never rlly realized its what caused most of my issues.When my mental health got rlly bad later on and I went to therapists,the first two would start saying shit like "im sorry for what you went through!No kid should have seen things like that!But YOU SEE,prophet muhammed peace be upon him ACTUALLY treated his slaves good,and was a good person especially to his wives!Sorry religion hurt you but it will help to fix your relationship with God!Theres an explanation to ALL your doubts!See killing those who leave islam is logical under certain conditions if they start spreading their EVIL ATHEIST idealogy !See!Its like treason to your country is punished by death!You will only be happy if you find GOD AND FAITH AGAIN".Lmao I would just dissociate the Fuck out when she said stuff like that.Anyways I went to a psychiatrist and the guy just drugged me out,and never discussed any of my symptoms or experiences.If I say I still feel bad he increases my dosage and tells me to come in 3-4 monthes.I tried to talk abt my shit and he was like "why are you anxious?God wont punish you,you're mentally unwell and confused"-"well see I dont believe anymore im just struggling with focusing,dissociation and processing some feelings related-" "dont say you dont believe anymore!You're just 17!you dont know anything !"anyways im 19 now so not a minor but my country's currency is rlly weak so id appreciate cheap therapy.Especially if its specialized in my issues(by order of how much each affects me:dissociation/focusing issues, religious trauma,and then anxiety).I rlly need help.Thanks everyone.I dont care about a diagnosis or anything just treating dissociative symptoms that are heavily affecting my life and functionning..My biggest issue is dissociation,dissociation transes/stupor(they happen at the worst Fucking time dear lord)extreme zoning out,inability to feel present,inability to process my emotions unless im dissociating and the part doing the processing is the younger part of me,mood issues,and other classical trauma shits.I rlly need help lmao.Any suggestions would be appreciated,thanks everyone..I also had depression/stress induced religious psychosis at 15 yo,but nothing like that ever happened again.

From a muslim country and was exposed to some shit as a kid,I never rlly realized its what caused most of my issues.When my mental health got rlly bad later on and I went to therapists,the first two would start saying shit like "im sorry for what you went through!No kid should have seen things like that!But YOU SEE,prophet muhammed peace be upon him ACTUALLY treated his slaves good,and was a good person especially to his wives!Sorry religion hurt you but it will help to fix your relationship with God!Theres an explanation to ALL your doubts!See killing those who leave islam is logical under certain conditions if they start spreading their EVIL ATHEIST idealogy !See!Its like treason to your country is punished by death!You will only be happy if you find GOD AND FAITH AGAIN".Lmao I would just dissociate the Fuck out when she said stuff like that.Anyways I went to a psychiatrist and the guy just drugged me out,and never discussed any of my symptoms or experiences.If I say I still feel bad he increases my dosage and tells me to come in 3-4 monthes.I tried to talk abt my shit and he was like "why are you anxious?God wont punish you,you're mentally unwell and confused"-"well see I dont believe anymore im just struggling with focusing,dissociation and processing some feelings related-" "dont say you dont believe anymore!You're just 17!you dont know anything !"anyways im 19 now so not a minor but my country's currency is rlly weak so id appreciate cheap therapy.Especially if its specialized in my issues(by order of how much each affects me:dissociation/focusing issues, religious trauma,and then anxiety).I rlly need help.Thanks everyone.I dont care about a diagnosis or anything just treating dissociative symptoms that are heavily affecting my life and functionning..My biggest issue is dissociation,dissociation transes/stupor(they happen at the worst Fucking time dear lord)extreme zoning out,inability to feel present,inability to process my emotions unless im dissociating and the part doing the processing is the younger part of me,mood issues,and other classical trauma shits.I rlly need help lmao.Any suggestions would be appreciated,thanks everyone.I also had depression/stress induced religious psychosis at 15 yo,but nothing like that ever happened again.

From a muslim country and was exposed to some shit as a kid,I never rlly realized its what caused most of my issues.When my mental health got rlly bad later on and I went to therapists,the first two would start saying shit like "im sorry for what you went through!No kid should have seen things like that!But YOU SEE,prophet muhammed peace be upon him ACTUALLY treated his slaves good,and was a good person especially to his wives!Sorry religion hurt you but it will help to fix your relationship with God!Theres an explanation to ALL your doubts!See killing those who leave islam is logical under certain conditions if they start spreading their EVIL ATHEIST idealogy !See!Its like treason to your country is punished by death!You will only be happy if you find GOD AND FAITH AGAIN".Lmao I would just dissociate the Fuck out when she said stuff like that.Anyways I went to a psychiatrist and the guy just drugged me out,and never discussed any of my symptoms or experiences.If I say I still feel bad he increases my dosage and tells me to come in 3-4 monthes.I tried to talk abt my shit and he was like "why are you anxious?God wont punish you,you're mentally unwell and confused"-"well see I dont believe anymore im just struggling with focusing,dissociation and processing some feelings related-" "dont say you dont believe anymore!You're just 17!you dont know anything !"anyways im 19 now so not a minor but my country's currency is rlly weak so id appreciate cheap therapy.Especially if its specialized in my issues(by order of how much each affects me:dissociation/focusing issues, religious trauma,and then anxiety).I rlly need help.Thanks everyone