Doomscroll
We are past the point of no return.
And I will never be happy again.
Without unfathomable violence.
We are past the point of no return.
And I will never be happy again.
Without unfathomable violence.
I engulf my mind in dreams
And lean into my own suffering with indignation.
Give me more until I am shattered into fragments.
Their pain won't be enough.
Hey! My name is C.W. Headley and here’s a song I wrote called Old Cartoons (It Doesn’t Get Better) about intrusive thoughts.
Album: https://cwheadley1.bandcamp.com/album/the-what-in-hell-4
Personally, I’m a Christian but damn, who gives a fuck what other people wear lol. I’ve been to several metal festivals and each time seen several people wear that exact shirt… It doesn’t bother me.
“You’ll burn in hell if you don’t repent” is a very loving thing to say. Love thy neighbour?
To quote Havok: “God wants you to obliterate your neighbor, if he does not think like you, take a look at any holy book, and it’s crystal it’s true”
My judgement on this entire thing? ESH
The way everything is. The world in general. The cruelly. Kids shot, governments using our own money to spy on us, ai making a whole generation forget how to fucking think.
Not to mention sexism, racism, famine and now global climate change slowly cooks us. All for maximizing profits.
I've considered awful things. I was such a pussy most my life. A real soft boy.
But I don't think i wanna play anymore.
But I don't think i can die either.
A post from a new satanist asking what he should know regarding "discovering satanism" and the satanic bible. Above are pictures of what i said. I encouraged him to not be a fascist due to 1. Laveys might is right bullshit, and 2. Organizations like O9A that are outright neonazis wrapped in satanic symbolism.
These cocksuckers permanently banned me. Literally defended fascism. Highly recommend anyone who spends any time over there to reconsider.
(I swear to fucking God if someone tries to explain the difference between cos and tst to me im gonna fucking vomit.)
Just with everything at large in the country right now. I wont get specific but im struggling with my oath. I believe in it still. It was sacred to me. From a time when honor still meant something. But im getting old and disabled and I got people that need me.
Im having a lot of big feels. Lost all sense of hope.
Before you ask im not suicidal. I just feel stuck. Got a therapist but it doesn't seem to help.
I'm looking for **1-2 players** to help playtest a fan-made TTRPG hack I've been building — a port of the *Dungeon Crawler Carl* novel series into the **Genesys Roleplaying System** by Fantasy Flight Games.
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Important Disclaimer
This is a **fan work**. We are in no way affiliated with Matt Dinniman, Ace Books, Renegade Game Studio, Fantasy Flight Games, or Edge Studio. We hold no copyright to *Dungeon Crawler Carl* or the Genesys system. This is a passion project built out of love for both properties, intended purely for personal, non-commercial playtesting purposes.
I encourage everyone reading to go back the official rpg on backerkit. But while we're waiting…
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**What this is:**
This will be a **1 to 3 session experiment** — the goal is simply to stress-test whether the Genesys narrative dice system can carry the weight and feel of the DCC setting. Sessions will be relatively low-pressure and focused on feel, flow, and fun.
The game will be set at the **very beginning of Dungeon Crawler World: Earth** — right as the Transformation happens and the First Floor opens. If you've read Book 1, you know exactly where we're dropping in. If you haven't, don't worry — all you need to know is: the world just ended, you just survived, and there are stairs going down.
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**What I'm looking for in players:**
**Familiarity with the Genesys RPG system is required** — you don't need to be an expert, but you should know your way around a narrative dice pool
Familiarity with *Dungeon Crawler Carl* is **a bonus but absolutely not required** — I'll provide whatever context you need going in
A willingness to give honest feedback after sessions
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**Logistics:**
**Platform:** Discord (voice/text) + Roll20
**Availability:** Wednesday evenings or Saturday evenings, starting around **9PM Eastern**
**Length:** 1–3 sessions, roughly 2–3 hours each
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**Interested?**
Drop a comment below! Feel free to ask any questions in the thread and I'll answer as best I can. Looking forward to crawling with some of you.
*The dungeon provides. Usually badly.*