CODENAME ....... Player One
HEIGHT ......... 5'11"
WEIGHT ......... 165 LBS
STATS .......... 39/31/42
BASE OF OPS .... Mikolo Smith Machine
POWER SOURCE ... havarti, gruyère,
Levain walnut Dubai chocolate chip smashed into double dough Jeni’s ice cream. 🫠 🤤
I’m almost 42 and it’s taken me a long time and constancy to be as toned as I am. Folx are often surprised to know I don’t do bicep isolative exercises. I only do compound work on my smith machine or free weights.
I didn’t get worse. I stopped paying for the version of me you were used to.
The people who left were never in relationship with me. They were in relationship with what I was doing for them.
I masked, and the people who benefited from it encouraged it — not maliciously, mostly. It just became the baseline. And I stopped when I realized I’d built a life I couldn’t survive, from a place of not knowing I was autistic yet.
That’s when I became the problem. Not when I was drowning quietly. When I stopped.
The thing I wish someone had told me: the accusation is a confession, and the tell is how long it goes on. People who aren’t implicated get annoyed and let it go. What keeps going, what recruits other people, what’s still circulating months later — that’s not about a boundary.
Only in the last 6-7 years have I felt comfortable enough to be uncomfortable enough to say no. I still can’t completely understand how so many are comfortable taking time, resources, executive function from Autistics…
No longer a victim…. Saying no equalizes and gives them an opportunity to show up or move on. That’s a much better and hard earned change in my life.
Anyone struggle with present or past with boundaries and how did you handle it?
Neck piece. 12 hours for color, 4 hours outline. This piece connects with a full saturation skull piece.
Sorry in advance for the heart melts. Anyone else use animals for emotional support? I call them my therapy cats. 🥰😭
All 🌵 varieties. 22 inch bowl. 40 hours.
I can't picture faces. What I get is a list — hair color, eye color, small scar above the left eyebrow. Accurate. No image attached.
In my writing, everything in it is measurement, texture, sound, because that's all I've got. Synthesia gives additional layers, but of course still different than the average.
When a book says "they pictured their childhood home," what happens for you? Skim past it? Substitute something?