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I started this show years later after getting sucked in watching RHSLC. I’m so obsessed and watching from the beginning. It’s hard because I’m five years late to chat, but damn I hate Bugsy and Malia. Objectively thirsty girls willing to step over your dead body to get ahead. I also can’t stand Sandy. Raging micromanaging narcissist. I’ve had one boss like her and it was mental torture. Every compliment is backhanded. Every move is a chance to comment on your choice and make you live in heightened state of fear. If anyone else is only recently watching, feel free to come discuss with me. My second cortisol lever is so high I want to quit mid season 5. All the cool people are gone and I don’t much care what happens to anyone else. Rip Keiko too. Nice guy taken down by toxic leadership.

This is truly the weirdest thing I’ve noticed. I love massages and pedicures. I’ve had issues with my right side from a massive spine lesion for years and it’s made me numb and clumsy, but it’s not really painful. But in the last year every time I get a pedicure I cannot let them hold the toes on my right foot without my leg spasming and toes shaking and makes me want to crawl out of my skin. Like I writhe around in the chair and press my foot down to keep it from shaking violently so the poor woman can paint the toes on my right foot.
I have no idea how to solve this. It’s getting worse and it’s already intolerable. I don’t want to stop getting my toes painted. It’s so silly in the scheme of all the shit I deal with, but every two weeks it happens and the pain lingers for hours. I’m venting but I’m also looking for suggestions.

I don’t know how to frame this exactly, but I’ve been diagnosed since 2009. Over the years being fairly open with my diagnosis I’ve met and made some amazing friends with fellow MS warriors/women/whatever you want to call us. Like truly some of the best people in my life have MS too and we speak on a whole different level than my other good friends about some serious shit that no one but us will ever understand.

Which leads me to my other experience. A few times in my career I’ve had clients complain about weird parent/in law/sibling. That they’re awful and they cut contact or they try to. And when I ask why (I’m a lawyer so it’s sort of my job to ask) they say well my mom had MS and it changed her personality, or my brother in law had MS and he’s a dick.
It freaks me out and makes me super paranoid. I have MS. I trend negative on outlooks and just life. But damn I don’t want to be the mom my kid says he doesn’t speak to and it’s because MS made me awful to be around. I sometimes feel like the more I age the more short tempered I get. MS has diminished my filter in a lot of ways. Can I stop this from happening? I don’t want to be a drag on my relationships. It feels crazy when people tell me they cut someone off because they have MS. The other times I worry that’s going to be me causing the damage and it’ll be fair when someone ditches me. Does anyone else have these thoughts? Can it be avoided?

I noticed there were more four tops available than two tops. I’m hoping someone booked a four top and has two extra seats. Let me know, we’re super fun people to sit with!