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I was about 7 years old and it happened right after I ate goldfish crackers for the first time ever. I would not eat a goldfish cracker again for a decade.

On a better note, I finally got affordable healthcare which means I spoke to my provider about my migraines last month. She gave me muscle relaxers (positive that my main trigger is my extremely tense neck and shoulders) and zofran and I love them both so much. I still get 1-3 migraines a week but they go away quicker now.

I’m really hesitant towards relationships because of the CPTSD I have from multiple partners. I’ve stayed single for 3 years now.

I met someone with such a kind heart, let my guard down a bit even though it was scary, but it was less scary than I thought it would be. was quickly falling in love and he felt like a safe place to fall. Then the other shoe dropped. He’s been relapsing on drugs. And I refuse to be apart of that.

You guys understand more than anyone how deeply we feel our feelings. So it’s safe to say I’m absolutely crushed. I’m depressed, I’ve been crying for 11 days. It’s hard to talk about it in person to my mom, bestie, or therapist rn because when I open my mouth to speak, my voice cracks and I start crying. I can only handle talking about it through texts.

He wasn’t in my life for long but damn I miss him and I think I always will.

I would love some words of encouragement and/or pet photos to help get me through the rest of this week.

I’ll try to keep the story short.

I went to my family doctor (I don’t have a gyno bc I don’t have insurance) because of abnormal/infected (but not smelly) discharge two years ago. She gave me a full pap, didn’t see any of the discharge at that time, but tested me for STD’s. All came back negative. She literally almost hung up on me after telling me everything was negative. I had to say, “hey, wait! What do I do about the discharge though?” to which she told me to try boric acid. Long story short, didn’t work.

She didn’t seem too concerned so I guess I wasn’t either?? The discharge never went away but it’s not super frequent so I guess I just over looked it.
I haven’t had sex since then but now I have a list of symptoms. Searching for PID in the sub really helped affirm that I do and I notice PID hasn’t been brought up in a while.

The discharge got worse to which then I made another appointment. My friend told me it sounded a lot like PID, which I didn’t know much about, but it sounded spot on. I went back to the same doctor about a week and a half ago who gave me flagyl. She also told me about a free clinic in town. I was accepted as a patient and will see them in two weeks where they will refer to me a gyno.

However, right before I finished the flagyl, I got gross discharge again. I have yet another appointment tomorrow with the same doctor as before to hopefully get a second round of flagyl or something stronger. I don’t feel comfortable waiting until my appointment at the clinic.

Idk I’m lost and annoyed and tired of my stuff being infected. If you’ve had this before, please give me some words of encouragement and let me know what to expect. I understand that after 2 years I am probably infertile. But that is actually the only silver lining for me so, no worries on my end. If that’s the case though, is it possible I might need any surgeries or anything?

Thank you!!

So I (34f) have been seeing “Alex” for a few weeks now. I have an acute PTSD from multiple past relationships so we’ve been taking things slow. But I’ve been falling for him hard. He’s so sweet and before last night, I felt extremely safe and at peace with him which is the main thing I look for in a partner now that I’ve been hurt so much.

Last night he confesses to me he’s been back to doing drugs the past few weeks. Not around me, but still, it really upset me and made me feel scared because of the past addicts I’ve dated.
Before this (supposedly) he has been clean for years.

I’m fricken almost 35. I don’t have it in me to deal with this. I don’t have it in me to constantly worry if he’s doing drugs behind my back. At this stage in life I just need peace as I’m desperately trying to repair my nervous system.

I really care about him and this new information crushes me. It’s gonna hurt so bad to stop talking to him, I care about him deeply. But I’m not sure I can do this. AITAH?

I know he didn’t do it to hurt me. I know that’s not how that works. But I can’t help that it makes me feel scared and unsafe.

Trigger warning - this is about miscarriage

Around this time 6 years ago I was going through the most awful thing I’ve been through (with CPTSD, that’s saying a lot), a missed miscarriage. It involved multiple heart breaking ultrasounds, pills, and finally a D&C.

I know now that I am not fit to be a mother and that’s okay, but it was still extremely traumatic. I wish my brain would stop giving me hell like this every year around this time.

I’ve felt bad mentally for 2 weeks now between this and PMDD. I just want to feel good again :( mood disorders + trauma+menstrual cycles SUCK