u/Omgusernamewhy

Im 33 now but on my 30th birthday I wanted to throw a birthday party for myself. I invited 7 of my friends and they all seemed excited about it I planned it around everyone's schedule asked everyone if they liked the location. I said it was gonna be a Barbie picnic themed and everyone could dress up if they wanted. I said I would provide food but everyone was welcome to bring stuff if they wanted. A couple people even offered to make things. Someone even wanted to make the cake.

I got all the food ready I had my outfit ready. I was ready to go. And then all the sudden one by one people said they couldn't make it because they had work or their kids were sick or they were sick. And some people just didnt even remeber to tell me they were not coming. I asked some of them if they were still going and they thought I was talking about a different party that they were going to. I sat home compeltly alone in my barbie outfit eating the food by myself. In silence. My one friend who was supposed to make the cake even decided to text me to ask me how the party was going and I just texted her saying there is no party everyone forgot. And she just says "Oh."

Till this day I still sometimes think about it and just cry about it. That 7 people forgot about me.

I used to have big parties when I was a kid but as I got to be a teen they became very minimal. And then in my 20s they were parties with no effort at all. Even with the minimal parties I felt fine but when I became and adult the parties were just set up like it was a burden to set up. When I turned 25 my family stopped celebrating my birthday but they would celebrate others. In special ways.

So when i turned 30 I decided i would make it special for myself.​ And I was just compeltly alone.

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I do kinda feel bad for my friend but at the same time I do not. She is in a bad situation but we are in our 30s. Every single week she asks me for money. Because she says she gives all her money to her addict dad. I feel bad for her because th threatens to kick her out and all this stuff when she wont give him money but she wont leave even though she has had many opportunities to leave.

I gave her money mutliple times and I eventually told her that I will no longer give her any money anymore and she only talks to me to ask for money. She will pretend like shes asking how im doing and then she will say "can you help me?"

She is just such a push over it makes me mad. She has a boyfriend that she didnt even like who basically forced her to be his girlfriend and she just accepted it. Because she felt bad about being mean.

I told her mutliple times what she needs to do and she constantly texts me saying she doesn't know what to do. She has had mutliple times where she was able to leave but she just goes right back. And she has other opportunities to leave and she will not take it. She is even about to be homeless possibly. And she just will not leave. She always complains about how miserable she is but she does NOTHING at all to save herself.

Like i dont wanna sound stuck up. But I think that i am attractive. And other people tell me that too. Its not that I dont like being pretty. But also sometimes people have bad additues about it especially women. I was at some beauty convention with my friend and we were going around looking at all the products and talking with the sellers and so many of them just really didnt want to talk to me and they would go straight to my friend. She is not ugly at all. She was just dressed very casual. And even one was trying to sell us sometbing and the seller just straight up was talking about all the things it was good for and what it would help and she just looked right at me and said "Not for you!" This is only for people like us! I thought it was incredibly rude to my friend and to me because what if I wanted to try it or look at other stuff. I usually say something but I was really shocked by it. So i just didnt say anything. And like it kept happening even when I was just by myself like people didnt want to sell me stuff. "This isnt for people with nice skin like you." "This is for old people." (I'm 33 btw)Like not even showing me other products I might like. I just felt so unwelcome. Like it sounds like a complement like they are saying i have nice skin. But it really wasnt.⁸

I am struggling so bad to find the right choice to make. Because both seem not a good choice. I am currently working right now the job is fine but i dont get paid a lot. The hours are pretty flexible too. But there are some issues with the business and there is a possibility of it closing. so I dont know if its a good idea for me to sit around and wait and see. But if i stay and things do end up working out then i'll miss out in a really good job that I like and opportunity and be paid really well. If i quit and apply to the next job I am thinking about and I get that one I know im not going to like it very much. But waiting and seeing and it not working out would have been a waste of time and I just also wont have a job.

I mean dont get me wrong I dont think anyone should be on the look to be in an age gap relationship. But if the younger person is at least 21 I think they are old enough to make a decision about who they want to date. And especially if someone is in their 30s.

Like its not something that I would sit there and encourage but sometimes I see online people talk about how if an older man in their 30s or 40s is dating someone 21 or above then he must be a groomer. And an abuser. Because either they were in that type of situation and they wish they didnt do that. When people get in abusive relationships all the time with people their same age. Just because it happend to you doesn't mean its happening to them. Especially if its someone you never met before. You dont know their relationship.

And then even when people are in their 30s and they might be dating someone in their 40s or 50s they say the man is a creep. (I say man because thats how the arguments are usually going.) Like why cant a 30 year old make decisions on who they will date and who they feel comfortable with dating. And also I dont see people getting as upset when older women date younger men. They will praise her and call her a cougar.

Like why are women thought to be too young and naive to make decisions on their love life but men are able to more often. And also at the same time its sad for young men who may be in a grooming situation and people are out there praising the old woman saying its hot.

Like sometimes people do things that are out of ordinary or something you dont like but it works out for them. And doesn't always turn out bad.

Im taking vitamin d at a high dose because I have a deficiency. I decided to try taking magnesium glycnenate and i took it and i litterally feel like i took a weed gummy. And I have no pain at all right now. Idkbif I'm just exhausted and ibfeel like there isbnobway my pain can be gone.

When i was a kid i thought I was extremely obese I thought that my whole life even when I was a 5 year old I thought I was huge. When I look back at photos of myself i was just normal looking. A tiny bit chubby in my teens. But I developed earier than everyone so I was curvy. My mom woul always try to put me on diets even on slim fast. And she even tried taking me to curves classes at 10 years old. Recently I mentioned that my dr thinks I have PCOS. And she said medications like GP1 are sometimes helpful for people with PCOS. And my mom usually questions any kind of medication my dr prescribes. Including my vitamin d. And she was so excited to hear that my dr suggested me to take it. Even though i wasnt really sure about it. I kept saying didnt think it was something I'd like. And she kept telling me to take it like she was so excited. It was almost like I won the lottery.​​

Except maybe my dad hes just an alcoholic.

I know people are always throwing that word around but I really think they are.

My sister is definitely mentally ill she talks to herself all day. And also she only cares about what she wants to care about she will beat you up and litterally say " thats not real it was just playing it didnt actually hurt or leave a bruise because if i really actually hit you you would be bleeding." She also will nkt clean because that makes her a slave she says. And she wont work because she says shes a traditional woman and a stay at home mom. Even though she lost custody of her child. My mom makes me have life 360 and will get mad if I do anything after work or if I stay at work late. She will leave me 100 text messaged asking me where I am at even though she can see where im at. She says I cant have my phone making noise at work but she says I need to keep my phone on silent but it still rings for her. I wont do that. And she then says that I can walk away from a client for a second to answer the phone or text her back. She's even called my work asking what im doing. If I turn life 360 off then she will send me texts about it being off. She never has helped me try to be independent even though I always wanted to. She bought cars for everyone else. But she won't take me to learn to drive. She says next week every single week. And now she wants to move and that would make me lose my job and have no friends and be alone with her and my abusive sister. My other sister never says anything good about me when she visits she just says things she knows will make me uncomfortable or mad. And then also tells me that I will be homeless and she will never help me and that she will just let me be homeless even though I never did anything wrong to her. ​

I dont know if I can even work anymore. I like working and I HAVE to work. But I'm so exhausted. I tried to get an easier just but I still haven't recovered from my last jobs. That were just awful. I just dont even recover when im home anything bad goes wrong I just dont even recover from it emotionally. And every time it gets harder and harder to bounce back. I dont know what to do im too tired but I also cannot take a break.

So during sex some people kiss and lick butt holes how come people dont get e coli or other things? Yeah I know people wash their butts but it's still a butt hole and even when someone farts it puts bacteria out. And do people sometimes get sick from doing this?

Location: Delaware

I signed a contract with my boss that I had to work with them for 3 years after they allowed me to get a license as an apprenticeship. Which would start after I get my license. I thought it was a good idea because then I wouldn't have to spend money I didnt have. I'm really poor. And I felt 3 years wasnt that long. I wouldnt be completely broke and then if i needed to i could just quit and id have experience and be able to get a job easily somehwere else. We paid for the application and all that stuff. And then a short time after that she said that she wouldn't be able to do it because she hasn't been licensed long enough. And that maybe next year she can do it. But now Im starting to feel like I want to quit. Because I barely get paid anything at all and im just not starting to like their additudes anymore. I mentioned to her that I may actually just decide to go to school snd she said that it would be a waste of money. I didnt really mind about the idea of me waiting 3 years last year but waiting next year for 3 years sounds awful.

The contract said if I were to be fired or quit then id have to pay her training fees and supplies and I have no idea what that ammount would be. Yeah I regret signing thst contract but at the time I really was excited to do it and it honestly sounded like a perfect situation.

So I kept seeing people post videos about this job and how great it is. I hate my current job for many reasons. So I need to find something else.

People keep saying its easy. Is this true? I know there will be difficult things about every job. But what's the worst thing about it?

Is it easy to remember everything that goes in the pack? Do you clean up or just set up? Are there people who just clean up? And also is the pay decent?

People also say there isn't much interaction with other people is this true? Do you generally work alone?

edit: why are people down voting my questions. Im asking a question if I got something wrong then correct it. Are people not not allowed to no underand something on the internet anymore? its not my fault there isnt much proper information on the internet about this job.​

I went from working horrendously physical jobs that I hated and made me so exhausted. And in pain. To being an esthetician. I was so happy to get this job but now I hate it. The work itself is fine but the people you work with are such babies. And divas(not in a good way) everyday im wondering what the heck they are complaining about.

This job is litterally so easy. Yes you have to know what you are doing or you will hurt someone. You have to present with the client or they will not have a good time. There are some hard things about it yes. But generally this job is a breeze.

All my bosses do is complain about how tired they are when they live right next to the spa and they get to sleep in. And they dont want to wake up early.

I found out my bosses were complained about something bejng a mess and the other boss blamed it on me when it would have been her mess. My boss also then complained about me taking a few days off here and there on her day off because of drs appointments because she cant do 6 days a week. Then if she doesn't want to go in then she doesn't have to. I also dont get paid per hour so there are days where I honestly just sit there and make no money and I even got 37 dollars a week once. And its not even legal and this is something that is so common in this industry. ​

Im about to not put up with it anymore. If I get one more stupid dumb remark about anything I will tell them if im not scheduled before I go to sleep I will not come in and thats that. Its so ridiculous how im expect do sit around for free. Rigjt now busy season is starting but. The way the winter was its not really worth the wait. And the stupid behavior. From whiney princesses. ​