u/Only-Shopping2640

Every time I hear hyperpop music (specifically femtanyl, ISSBROKIE, Sewerslvt, GUMDROP by JVB, etc) there's a specific kind of synths they use for chords. Mostly distorted and reverb-y, but I don't know the basics of how to do so. I use ableton. In the meantime, what do you think I can do to improve my music? (WHY CAN I ONLY POST ONE VIDEO!?)

I try to do those wavy triangle things but I fear that they still look the same. What should I do to fix them?

I wanna try to make future bass but I'm having serious trouble with trying to create the main components like the bass, the synths, various instruments and all of that. What can I do to specifically create those sounds?

I'm scared of going to hell. I'm scared that I didn't follow God's teachings. I'm scared that my prayers are purposely going unanswered. I'm scared that my heart has been hardened a long time ago because of something that I did. I'm scared that my devotion to God is performative. I'm scared that having everlasting faith in Jesus and accepting him wholeheartedly isn't enough to be saved. I'm scared that my respect for other people's beliefs completely dilutes my faithfulness. I'm scared that I've been baptized too late. I'm scared that my repentance has been secretly rejected. I'm scared that my Emotions determined my fate a long time ago. I'm scared that I was too Young to understand the severity of my actions. I'm scared that I am the reason why the world is suffering. I'm scared that I'm not doing enough. I'm scared that my search for an answer makes me a wicked person. I'm scared that I'll be left behind. I'm scared that Because I was born I'm deserving of hell? I made mistakes that I regret to this day and I try my best not to fall into the same pattern, but I keep doing it. I don't wanna be undeserving of salvation. I just wanna be forgiven. I don't want my faith to be seen as performative. I accept Jesus with my whole heart and I strive to live for him but I'm scared that it's not enough for me to be saved. And not just that, I'm scared that because I respect and support other people's religions while still staying loyal to Christianity might be oxymoronic to the values taught by Jesus. And no, I'm not "putting other gods before God". I just feel like that I don't wanna be selfish. I'm sorry if you think my soul is irredeemably corrupted.

I still haven't watched it.

When someone makes these jokes or scenarios on the internet where God finds out that you laughed at a "If You Laugh You Go To Hell" compilation or that one joke where a guy goes to first layer of hell for cheating on a science test in 7th grade, thinking that it "could be worse" but it's actually the hottest because heat rises from the ground yadda yadda yadda, I feel even more scared of my past actions. I don't want my entire faith or devotion to Christ to be shattered because of something I did in the past that could be considered trivial, especially before my teenage. Despite me being a goody two-shoes in elementary school, I've gotten in trouble, teased classmates, and more (even as a 16 year old). But despite the fact that I've repented for them, I'm scared that I may be rejected from salvation because of my past.

A few months ago, I was watching a documentary about stuff that Japan did before and during WWII. I can't help but feel like a piece of garbage for not being able to prevent it. The first time I was taught about WWII, it was just the Holocaust, the two nukes, Pearl Harbor, internment camps, etc. The school curriculum only taught us those things. I already feel distraught because of the millions of Jews who were slaughtered in concentration camps. But then I learned about Nanjing and Unit 731. I honestly feel like such a horrible person for not knowing about it sooner. I feel worse than Shiro Ishii. A commenter on the video said that it was "atrocious" how most people don't know about the massacre. I had to sincerely apologize multiple times to the commenter who made that 3 years ago. I should've looked more in depth into this. I feel sick and crestfallen for all the victims and I hate myself for not being able to stop it. It's all my fault. Everything that has happened, the stuff in Japan, Congo, the Armenian genocide, Christchurch, Peter Scully, Epstein, all if those things happened because I exist. The worst part is that I've been full-blown crying about it the first time I learned about it but now I'm just gloomy and depressed. I don't want people to think that I don't care because I do. I really do. And about the commenter, they haven't responded still. I'm afraid if they saw my comment, they wouldn't forgive me. I can't help but hate myself whenever I turn my head away from traumatic events to "protect my peace". I'm already overwhelmed by the shit that happens today and comments are calling each other cowards for watching instead of stopping. I don't wanna be a coward. I gave my condolences to the victims and their families and I apologized for letting the situation happen and making zero attempt to stop it. I only knew the things that my school taught me. I've done things that some may consider as "normal childhood misbehavior" and yes I got reprimanded and spanked for it. But truthfully, because of those things, I deserve to suffer the same fate as the victims. I apologized to the victims, prayed for them, cried many tears, begged for forgiveness, but it's not enough. As long as I'm living, the victims will never find peace. Reciprocated harm done to me will be the closest thing the victims will have to solace.

I'm sorry if I sound like a piece of shit for this, but I hate being from America. The fact that people (mostly Europeans) think of me as some fat, violent, McDonald's-loving, MAGA-supporting asshole (I'm black. I don't even like McDonald's. I can see my ribcage and i still think I'm fat. And plus, Britain always jokes about our school shootings. I'm scared that I'm the cause of Sandy Hook because I was born in Connecticut and I was 2 when it happened. I didn't know about it which idk if it makes, me more or less complicit) makes me wanna reconsider my citizenship. I Just hate how people talk about me. I'm been generalized for something I'm not even a part of. I'm just trying to survive through high school. I Just don't wanna come across someone who is from the EU and realize I'm American despite me being a nice person (who has anger issues). My school is doing a field trip to Amsterdam, Paris, and Brussels. I'm scared that people would give me dirty looks because of the color of my skin and the fact I'm from America. "But are you really gonna let some continent's words about a country affect you?" Yes. I'm not even social and I'm very nervous when meeting new people. I'm scared that because of my incompetence, I might get called a bunch of disgusting names. Whenever I visit countries like the Bahamas or Mexico, they're very friendly to me and my family, but I'm scared that even a "bonjour", "как дела", "guten morgen", or even a "Hæ, ég heiti Anthony" could get me laughed at, called racial slurs, stabbed, or worse. My Dad has been to a business trip in Italy before I was born and people were racist towards him. I don't want people to stare, laugh, clutch their belongings, but it's unfortunately what I deserve for being where I'm from and who I am. I deserved to be called "μαλακα" or "αράπις" or "Kawał gówna niedorozwinięty" or "teploš" whenever I travel. I deserve to have my drink spiked. I deserve to be gang-raped by some creepy guys. I deserve to have trash thrown at me. I'm nothing but a stereotype. And it's not just in the EU either. Johnny Somali has just been arrested in South Korea for acting a complete ass and being disrespectful. Vitaly was also arrested in the Philippines for basically the same reason. I'm scared that people might see me as just as bad as them, N3on, Jack Doherty, or anybody else who thinks that rules don't apply to them because they're tourists. That's why I feel apprehensive when taking pictures of landmarks, cityscapes, sceneries, etc. I don't wanna get jumped in the street for taking a picture of the Eiffel Tower or a tall Bhudda statue in Thailand. If I take a picture of something without knowing that I'm not allowed two, the police are going to kill me on the spot. I'm scared that no country would ever welcome someone as horrible as me. Not even countries like Sweden or even Canada will ever Welcome me. No matter how respectful I am, I'm just another burden to society.But people think that I'm in charge of the government. They think that it's my fault in particular that the country is so shit politically. I'm already at the conclusion that my birth is the reaaon why the rape crimes in Congo are too high. I'm the reason why the KKK exists. If I travel to Australia, people there probably force me to eat huntsman spiders while drowning me in a crocodile-infested lake. I'm scared that my passport defined my fate.

Every time I go on YouTube videos where they compare hymns of Baptist/Protestant, Orthodox, and Catholic denominations, I stumble upon comments that say that I'm not a real Christian, that orthodoxy is the true faith and all others are fake or saying all other denominations should die, or people just saying that gospel music is heretical because it uses instruments (or comments just being blatantly racist). I'm pretty sure in the Bible, Jesus said that we shouldn't be divided among each other, for we are all one in Christ. But I'm still scared that I might be stigmatized because when people think of the word "Baptist", their minds immediately go to megachurches. I oppose and rebuke the concept of megachurcges and tele-evangilism, but I'm scared that I might be seen as a fake follower of Christ.

When I was 12, my fyp was bombarded with those AI-generated Jesus videos that start off with things like "The devil will be happy if you scroll" or "Scroll if you hate Jesus" or even thinking that I'm going to hell if I don't repost. I thought that I was obliged to watch every single one of these videos and like them as well. I'm scared that I might be condemned and convicted by God if I scroll past. But now that I think about it, I'm afraid that I was following false prophetd that use Jesus' name for clout. I don't wanna be eternally separated because of my choices. I don't wanna be removed from the book of life because of unknowingly breaking God's commandments.

I don't wanna sound insensitive, but I fear that I haven't been a good boyfriend. In not Trans but My now-girlfriend is trans and I love her very much. The first time I met her was my first week of freshmen year. Y'know, not being very emotionally mature going from 8th to 9th. We became very great friends. We shared our interests in digital art, languages, vocaloid, music in foreign languages, etc. We even talked to each other via Pinterest messages. She said that she was Trans and I supported her. She told me about her journey and I was intrigued. I wasn't really that much of a talker. I was so excited to meet a new friend that I told my dad about her. Big mistake. I thought that he was gonna be supportive but he wasn't. She doesn't see her as a real woman. I fear that I might've put her in harmsway. During my 9th grade year we've been talking about trying to meet up at the park or hang out some place. We didn't do so because I'm not really that good at planning ahead. Fast forward to 10th grade, she said that she was moving away to Nevada. Because we had a very strong connection, she finally considered us boyfriend and girlfriend. She was even my first kiss! I was so happy, but I was also scared about what my parents would think. We had a long distance relationship, talking back and forth on text and calling. We even RP'd with our TADC OCs. She even talked to my mom and they were really cool with each other and her mom was cool with me. But then a few weeks into her new home, she's been struggling with her grandmother. Before she moved, she showed me a draft of an autobiography she wrote. I was very sad to read what happened before she was born. And I felt even guiltier that I didn't have Cashapp to help her. She vented to me about the things that happened at home and I comforted her through it all. But a few more weeks later, she wasn't responding. I started to feel worried. I was in the bathroom when I reccieved a phone call from Vegas. I thought it was spam so I hung up. The number called again so I picked up. It was her! She said that she was in the hospital because she OD'd. I felt so relieved that she's okay. My parents asked who I was talking to and I told them that it was her. (My parents thought that we were still chatting as friends.) They then gave this long lecture to stop hanging out with her and that she's not a "real woman" and it made me very enraged that they would say that. But now, her line's been cut off. I wanted to try to get into contact but there was no dial tone. I'm scared that because of my awkwardness and lack of making the first call due to anxiety, I might've been neglectful. She said that she was going to Alabama this summer and I'm going there too. I hope that I can see her again. But another thing, is it wrong if I wanna try to give her gender euphoria? I don't wanna seem like I'm fetishizing her because I'm not. She already told me about her ex being a slimeball and I don't wanna be like them. I hope I'm not being toxic.

I'm scared of going to hell. I'm scared that I didn't follow God's teachings. I'm scared that my prayers are purposely going unanswered. I'm scared that my heart has been hardened a long time ago because of something that I did. I'm scared that my devotion to God is performative. I'm scared that having everlasting faith in Jesus and accepting him wholeheartedly isn't enough to be saved. I'm scared that my respect for other people's beliefs completely dilutes my faithfulness. I'm scared that I've been baptized too late. I'm scared that my repentance has been secretly rejected. I'm scared that my Emotions determined my fate a long time ago. I'm scared that I was too Young to understand the severity of my actions. I'm scared that I am the reason why the world is suffering. I'm scared that I'm not doing enough. I'm scared that my search for an answer makes me a wicked person. I'm scared that I'll be left behind. I'm scared that Because I was born I'm deserving of hell? I made mistakes that I regret to this day and I try my best not to fall into the same pattern, but I keep doing it. I don't wanna be undeserving of salvation. I just wanna be forgiven. I don't want my faith to be seen as performative. I accept Jesus with my whole heart and I strive to live for him but I'm scared that it's not enough for me to be saved. And not just that, I'm scared that because I respect and support other people's religions while still staying loyal to Christianity might be oxymoronic to the values taught by Jesus. And no, I'm not "putting other gods before God". I just feel like that I don't wanna be selfish. I'm sorry if you think my soul is irredeemably corrupted.