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this pisses me off to the point where I never mention that I am a cap and hide it in convos cuz that’s like the first thing that comes to ppls minds - workaholics and serious.

Am I the only one who couldn’t be more opposite to this?

Like seriously, alllllll the way opposite - I have a hard time taking anything seriously and in my 25 years I have worked serious jobs less than 2 years in total being in the same job for 3months max. I support myself but honestly I couldn’t tell u where the money comes from not sure myself.

kinda struggling artist but I deffo would be more successful if I had any motivation at all, like I have inspiration but not motivation

and I am self aware - I am quite irresponsible in my being

THOUGH I used to be the most responsible kid and got the best grades n shi, but I remember one day getting this realisation that no one is gonna kill me if I don’t do something and that life is not that serious and it all shifted that day haha

I definitely feel the most like my moon sign, which is Gemini, but am I the only Capricorn like this?

does anyone else here feel the same?

I mean idk if that has any correlation but I was supposed to be born in aquarius sign

And I mean not just Ian and Nina, but any of them who were dating each other. (I haven’t been that invested so I don’t even know who was dating who)

I am interested in knowing the specific timelines for the purpose of observing their onscreen dynamics, just my own curiosity as someone who is also into acting.

(Of course I could have researched this info myself, but I am not that much into drama and other peoples lives, I am only interested in what I already stated and therefore don’t want to spend so much time searching, so I was wondering maybe someone who already knows can tell me something :))

Has anyone have been prescribed Buspirone when asking help for seizures?

Additional question - has anyone been told that the seizures (that are fully unconscious with aura and being unaware and completely not there mentally as in not even knowing who or what u are for like 15minutes) are from severe anxiety/mental/severe emotional distress?

I went to doc in hopes to get something that might stop a seizure when I feel it, because I always feel it and know 10-5min before… but got just sent off… cause I been rlly wanting to turn off my own life lights just because of seizures - that is how insanely much they terrify me.

What are some meds that help maybe? I been having seizures for 5+ years and still am not on rlly anything besides tiny dose of lamotrix, since they always have a trigger they don’t think I have epilepsy idk anymore

I have not seen legacies if they maybe have explained some concepts there…

I mean like… for one why do they do the merge?
To my understanding it is creating a person who contains two ppls worth magic…but then… that person becomes a leader and is linked to all coven - seems kinda inconvenient no? Then u kill the one person and all coven goes down y would u want that makes no sense …when u merge u suddenly get all gemini bloodline magic?

Im thinkin maybe am gonna watch legacies in a bit but its really whatever about any spoilers idk if here even is correlation but ye thcnx for reading this

- up to season 6 episode 14 spoilers -

So
since I
haven’t seen much talk around her

what are everyones thoughts about and around her?

it’s just like, I have gotten to s6e14 and this is hands down the most emotional episode for me in the entire series, I am on my 5+ rewatch and still currently am sitting at work bawling my eyes out
might just be that I liked her personality the most out of everyone

she just seems like such a sweet cutie sunshine

and I also think it’s underrated how beautiful she is

I have been very interested for a long time now to find someone with the same moon sign as me, am intrigued to know what they are like…

I don’t know who I am, but I am someone for sure, mostly alien, so Id love to know if we share some

idk

im also a scorpio rising, but I am mostly interested in the moon sign

Has any of you experienced epileptic seizures and been told that it is not epilepsy?

I am just so lost in this, I am no doctor, but seems that I need to become one to understand what is happening, I have been to so many different doctors and no one knows whats really happening…

Maybe someone can help me, point me in the direction in which to look for help? Point me as to what this could be?

Because I do have seizures. But according to my neurologist, I don’t have epilepsy. But it is getting worse and worse and I desperately need help that I don’t know where to look for…

This is the question, what else could cause epileptic seizures if not epilepsy?

Because they aren’t the fainting convulsive type, they are full on tonic clonic - with biting tongue, body cramping so bad that I don’t have energy for the next two days and being completely oblivious to who I am and where I am 5-15 minutes after the seizure. And I always feel before the seizure is coming - electric zaps, so intense I drop what I am holding or spit out liquid from my mouth.

And somehow… He still came to conclusion that it’s not epilepsy, but me being completely neurotic and not accepting that I am borderline crazy or at the very least mentally very unwell (yes it was a male doc :))

But I have been working on mental health for years and have come to terms with my diagnosed BPD, so I mean yeah I will always feel everything more intensely, but surely its not possible to feel emotions THAT tensely that it leads to a seizure? but if thats the case then I really am doomed

My EEG has never shown any anomaly, but I have heard it’s not too uncommon.

I have lost faith in doctors I don’t know what to do anymore, if this is not epilepsy what the FUCK can it be I just don’t think they listen to me at all

well yes I am suffering from adhd but thats besides the point

im thinking…two days in a row shouldn’t be that bad right?

Im used to 3/4 coffees a day tho I try not to

I have been fighting for 25 years and it only gets worse and worse and I feel just doomed to be everyones problem and a burden, I really have tried so hard I don’t know what the fuck is my issue is like what the fuck is wrong with me? I used to pull through for my grandparents, but now I see just that everyone will be better off without me. I try but I am a physical, emotional and financial burden and still feels like I can’t take it. I seriously don’t know what the fuck is wrong with me. I feel like I have tried everything. I am so scared. I don’t want to pass, but at this point its not just because I can’t take it anymore - at this point I want to pass because I feel like I am making everyones life around me worse, no matter how hard I try. I am so very scared though, but I feel selfish for struggling on.

Spoiler… It made me realise even more that I might be right…

Can you guys please tell me if I am imagining this? Or could this also just be someone who is miserable I don’t even know

Since I was raised by a narc mother (not in contact) and few times seen my father who also couldn’t be more of a textbook n, this hits close, because I have no family and this friend was like a brother to me…

Maybe I am twisting it ahhhhh so I am not sure, but I am trying to write as little as possible so here are only things that made me suspicious… but maybe I am just stupid and thinking too bad about them and any human does this? what if I am the narc? help me understand?

When we were meeting up here and there all was kind of okay, it just sucked that I felt like I am always only sharing my life, but I am interested in his very much, he just doesn’t tell me anything and kind of switches subjects, talks to me only about neutral topics about the world and history..

It all changed DRASTICALLY like it felt like a completely different person - after I lost my job and went to live at his place for a little. I got so depressed that I had no one else, no other place either and so technically kind of dependent on him. He actually was the reason I lost my job, but whatever… First week was over the top sweet. After that it turned straight to hell. He would push on my emotions, knowing exactly the sensitive spots and pushing right on them. I remember once we were outside in winter and I was having a breakdown already and suddenly he says - “why do u have it in your mind that u feel stuff more deeply? youre just weak and I feel pathetic looking at you.” (mind u, I have diagnosed bpd for 7 years now) I just got up and told him fuck you then ill just go kms and he just stood up, waved goodbye and went home. me? my phone was up at his place, keys too and I had nowhere to go and I spent the entire winter snowy night out in the cold walking around after attempt that failed. In the morning I went to his place to get my stuff, he was literally just playing video games and had also masturbated “to get the stress out” - now, can a normal human being truly get themselves off while they think that their best friend is laying somewhere outside dead? or am i crazy and overthinking it?

there is a lot that happened in the middle other thing that is VERY prominent - I am scared to be there for him when he is sad, I am scared to ask him whats wrong and talk to him, because somehow always he takes a dig at me, finds something to make me feel shitty for…while I am just trying to help? like today too he is miserable and I was talking to him asking and trying to give advice or help and he started going off on how I am trying to help him “wrong” and how i say this wrong and that and as always the base topic is gone and we are here shitting on me and somehow we even got to what is wrong with me as a person idek how tbh.. i told him at least im trying and he never even asked me how I am because I am not so great myself and the next text is just - i dont have time to deal with this i hope u sort it out bye. uhh im scared of maybe being the one who is narc i dont know im so lost

I don’t really want to face the reality because… For two months we didn’t talk and my life went from 0 to 100, meanwhile I met him after that and he was the worst he had been… but it breaks me seeing him like that I want him to be happy

u know what really hurt my heart though? whenever I would have happy moments he would ALWAYS find a way to ruin it… but I feel like he didn’t use to be this way maybe he is just miserable and all this is me overreacting?

Does it make epilepsy more prominent/ cause seizures?

I never use antidepressants because they make me twitch, I told the doc this, but do they ever listen… So if anyone has real life experience?

I have no idea why she even thought I should use this as I don’t have ocd and was turning to her for cptsd…

looking for music similar to Vladimir Dubyshkin,

but I can’t even figure out what specific type of techno is that, I have heard similar tracks only from the same label called трип

but other than that he seems pretty unique and I am interested in something similar? :)

or finding out what genre that is would also be helpful, seems to me to be something like atmospheric, experimental type shi idk tho

my moon is gemini

do you also have trouble with saying everything that comes to mind? A lot of the times stuff u don’t really regret saying but rather have not said?

or is this just my scorpio rising who wants to be mysterious but is too obsessed with blunt conversations

i just started wondering this because I noticed I have so many personalities but I wouldn’t call them separate just okay I think this might be gemini moon nevermind
idk jst weird

but it is so interesting to have really honest conversations and discussions with barely any boundaries like when ur open to talk about anything but with all honesty even if its not the prettiest

easy connecting but never maintaining longterm

what is ur perspective?

add up question- what is it like having ur moon? because i have never met another cap w air moon