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I’m an incoming first year nursing student. It was pushed into me by my parents and I got swayed by the practicality, and my career plans and goals aligned with it which is why I’m here now. The thing is I have some concerns that I just realized that’s making me hesitate but it’s too late for me to back out now.

Firstly, is that I was diagnosed with a mental health condition just earlier within the year. I was given the go sign by my doctor and I am confident I’ll be okay, but a part of me is still worried for any relapses or anything especially regarding how strict Nursing is.

2nd, madaling papawisin yung kamay ko. And I have small episodes of hand tremors. (I knoww, i’m at a disadvantage). Although I don’t get anxious easily and I can regulate my anxiety pretty well.

I am confident that I can handle the academic side of Nursing though, as well as the memorization and demonstration. I can also interact well with others and patients. It’s just the retdems that scare me. A part of me is confident I can kaya it, but another is worried if I won’t. Any tips and advice? Any people with experiences similar to mine? Has anyone entered Nursing while managing a mental health condition or mild hand tremors? How did you cope with it during retdems and clinical duties??

Had a session with a psychologist. She made me draw a person, a boy, as well as a boy and a girl with a house. I drew myself, a random boy figure (no person in mind), and a simple house with a boy and a girl and an apple tree. She asked me why I drew them, I told her the truth that it just popped up, I don’t have any people I associate with them other than myself and a “future partner” (for the family thing). In my next appointment, she said I was filled with in denial and insecurity based on the drawings. I don’t understand, how?? And why is there even a need to draw in the first place? Can’t all that data be shown from just talking?

I noticed something with me and it is affecting my life and relationships and especially myself. When I did bring it up to my doctor, it was called teenager stuff and teenage hormones. But I don’t think it’s just teenage stuff anymore, and if it is, damn being a teen must be miserable and pure insanity for everyone if every teen experiences what I feel.

I have this tendency to swing between believing people hate me or are leaving me out, even without evidence, and then later I realize those thoughts weren’t true, but it’s already too late since in the moment, I have the urge to withdraw, block, or cut people off and it’s so overwhelming, it feels like my brain is screaming at me or just repeatedly saying “I hate them” on repeat. I also become really intensely attached to people usually adults, and even minor stuff like getting late replies can make me feel like I was abandoned and, at my worst even lead to sh or impulsively drinking alcohol. My psychiatrist has said that it’s just teenage hormones while focusing on my bipolar disorder, but these patterns keep happening, and I’m scared that they’ll continue affecting my relationships.

I heard similar stories like mine in people with bpd though and unfortunately, I can relate to how some media represents bpd to some extent. But i know they’re not accurate and I don’t wanna self diagnose myself since I’m already diagnosed with bipolar disorder. But this is another aspect. While my bipolar is being treated it’s still happening. I don’t know what to say or tell my doctor without them dismissing it as teenager stuff. I genuinely know it’s not, i’m willing to beg on my knees just for it to be taken seriously. So can someone help me on what I must say to convince doctors to atleast take it seriously? Or are they right that this is normal and just teenage hormones? I’m scared this will continue until adulthood and that my future friendships and relationships will get ruined because of it.

I noticed something with me and it is affecting my life and relationships and especially myself. When I did bring it up to my doctor, it was called teenager stuff and teenage hormones. But I don’t think it’s just teenage stuff anymore, and if it is, damn being a teen must be miserable and pure insanity for everyone if every teen experiences what I feel.

I have this tendency to swing between believing people hate me or are leaving me out, even without evidence, and then later I realize those thoughts weren’t true, but it’s already too late since in the moment, I have the urge to withdraw, block, or cut people off and it’s so overwhelming, it feels like my brain is screaming at me or just repeatedly saying “I hate them” on repeat. I also become really intensely attached to people usually adults, and even minor stuff like getting late replies can make me feel like I was abandoned and, at my worst even lead to sh or impulsively drinking alcohol. My psychiatrist has said that it’s just teenage hormones while focusing on my bipolar disorder, but these patterns keep happening, and I’m scared that they’ll continue affecting my relationships.

I heard similar stories like mine in people with bpd though and unfortunately, I can relate to how some media represents bpd to some extent. But i know they’re not accurate and I don’t wanna self diagnose myself since I’m already diagnosed with bipolar disorder. But this is another aspect. While my bipolar is being treated it’s still happening. I don’t know what to say or tell my doctor without them dismissing it as teenager stuff. I genuinely know it’s not, i’m willing to beg on my knees just for it to be taken seriously. So can someone help me on what I must say to convince doctors to atleast take it seriously? Or are they right that this is normal and just teenage hormones? I’m scared this will continue until adulthood and that my future friendships and relationships will get ruined because of it.

I’m 17 years old and I was prescribed 5 medications already (2 mood stabilizers, 1 anti psychotic, 1 beta blocker and 1 SSRI). I was just prescribed the SSRI but I’m too scared to take it. No one warned me it was gonna be this exhausting and scary. The medications themselves is expensive but having to take medications while struggling with memory problems and health anxiety is another. I was never this forgetful and blank prior to meds and now I’m forgetting things less than 3 minutes it happened. It makes me feel more and more stupid as more days pass. Struggling with health anxiety doesn’t make me feel better either, as I’m scared of getting Steven Johnson Syndrome, seratonin syndrome and liver damage from my meds. But I don’t wanna live not being able to trust myself, depressed and anxious either. Being in a financially tight family, I’m already fighting with my parents and defending the meds that I’m too scared to even take. We could even barely have my appointments, how much more monthly lab tests too.

Is it supposed to be this exhausting and scary living with bipolar?

Has anyone gone through him yet? How is he? Any experiences with him?

I remember how back then I couldn’t understand why people took lots of medications. How privileged I was to question that. Now here I am. I was just prescribed 5 medications a few minutes ago and I’m already arguing with my mom. Now she want me to stop all my medications, and I have to constantly argue against it. I don’t even know how to explain my situation since my parents don’t know I have this much issues and the meds are just there to help with it. I hate this so much. I hate being reliant on meds. My parents were already complaining with 4, but because the anxiety showed up after the bipolar episodes got treated, I was given another medication to deal with it. it’s frustrating when a new problem arises just like how the anxiety popped out of nowhere, and now I have to go trial and error with the new meds, without it affecting my bipolar episodes. My family already having financial issues isn’t helping it either. Medications are expensive, and now taking 5? Let’s not forget the risks and side effects too. I like how the meds are working, but this is honestly very exhausting. I hate having to fight just for me to fully enjoy my life. It’s not fair.

I don’t know where to start looking and the academic year is about to start. Do we just walk around Tibanga or San Miguel area? How do you actually look for a dorm or bh? Where should we start looking? Reco’s are greatly appreciated. Please help a soon to be freshman out.

Once asked my friend what the worst and craziest thing she did at 13. Her answer? Memorize the periodic table song 😭. Another time, a friend was worrying on how she’ll make a testimony since she had no deep problems (her own words btw). Love them sm though but it baffles me that there are people out there who wake up, smiling and ready to take over the day. People who are so close to their parents they have calls every breaktime all while ending with “goodbye, I love you”. I know people feel sad and angry or have occasional fights with their parents too but damn not having mental illnesses or problems? In this economy and generation??? How???

You read that right. I think I dug a grave for myself in here. The 2 options were supposedly Psych and Nursing but this girl over here decided to be practical and chose Nursing instead. (Another factor is that Psych has a heavy history on me). I’m worried since sleep is an important thing for bipolar disorder (especially since I have type 1) and Nursing is infamous for not letting the students sleep (for duty and acads) and also being “harsh” or “strict”. Doesn’t help the fact that I’ll be living alone in another city with limited allowance. (the spending won’t be that bad…right????😭)

After all this though, I am planning on going in the psychiatry route in the future though whether as a nurse or a doctor. But either way, we all know the medical field is extremely strenuous.

I’m confident I’ll survive (somehow) but still, am I cooked? Anyone in the medical field with mh experiences or conditions? How are you guys?

I was diagnosed with a mental condition just recently within the year and got into BS Nursing (I know, i’m burying myself alive) 😭. I don’t know how I got in since I opened it up during the interview but here I am. The interviewer did ask me if I was open to guidance and counselling here in which I said yes. Now i don’t know how the guidance and counselling system works here, or even know how it’s like. Sooo, please do give your thoughts. (Help a girly out pls). Do I have to go to the guidance myself? (If so, I might not need to) or will they be the one to make me go there?

I do plan on having a psychotherapist in Iligan since I’m situated in another city. And counselling isn’t really something I enjoy (based on my experiences here in my city) but anything to get in and be mentally stable ig…

*tw (if needed): mentions sh scars*

I am going to college soon. My parents want me to go either Nursing or Psych with Nursing being the one they are persistent the most. However, I have a history of SH which lasted for years so I have scars all over my arms ( I have been clean and stable for a while though). I am also not used to not wearing long sleeves (jackets, cardigans, arm covers, etc) because of them and I suppose, I just feel safer wearing long sleeves. But still, my family is persistent for me to look for ways to remove my scars (which is lowkey kind of impossible), insisting that if I go Nursing or Psych, it’ll require physical exams to which I will be required to not wear long sleeves so the scars will be seen.

They say that my scars would change other people’s perspectives about me, make it harder for me in college and I might even have a hard time looking for jobs because of it. I am planning on going to the mental health field right after though (my goal is either psychiatric nurse, psychiatrist or psychologist) but I’m not sure if my scars and history puts me in a good spot or a bad spot. 

I know the stigma on mental health in the Philippines still requires lots of improvements but will it really impact that much? Will they actually really check during physical exams both in Psych and Nursing (especially Nursing)? Can’t I just wear long sleeves (even just arm sleeves or arm guards) the whole entire 4 years of college?

It worries me thinking about it since I want to go to college with the goal of starting anew. It scares me that the things I did to survive back when I was younger will haunt me even in the future. I don’t think it’s fair tbh.